My Heart Aches.

TBPDFW you're in that weird state of mind where you laugh and laugh at the smallest things while inside you think the best thing would be to end your life as soon as possible. Meanwhile you can't concentrate on anything AND you can't tell what you're feeling because the non-stop laughing is confusing you. So people don't understand the danger you're about to put yourself in, and nobody is there to save you from yourself.

if I think about you long enough or hard enough will I cross your mind?

kms, i need a person to want to talk to me 🙏🏾

The cold seasons are for the poets

Who set their hearts on fire

To stay warm

violent tendencies are starting to get out of hand almost jumped at and choked out a jabroni on the train today for no reason. It physically hurts my head when I don’t act out on my violent thoughts.

i want to live out my anger, i want to be able to scream and smash, i want to defend myself like an adult. then why am i crying every time

they said that if you’re procrastinating then rest one day and just plan everything out and start working the next day but now I’m procrastinating the planning so what do I do now smack my head into a wall or what.

I could stare at you forever. I wish you were mine.

I hate how obsessive I get. It isn’t normal, it isn’t healthy. And it does me more harm than good. You’d think though, really, that being obsessed would make someone flattered. Apparently not.