Adhd Brain - Blog Posts

Anyone else just forget the password to their phone or computer? Even though they use it every day, it just doesn't register in your mind when you go to type it in, and then it's like the scariest few seconds of your life.

I'm still working up the courage to ask my mum if I can get tested because this is a genuine part of my day to day life, and my school psychologist said it might be a good idea. I live the way you wrote this btw!! It's awesome!!!

growing up autistic / growing up gaslit

I.

this is the first lesson you learn: you are always wrong.

there is no electric hum buzzing through the air. there is no stinging bite to the sweetness of the mango. there is no bitter metallic tang to the water.

there is no cruelty in their laughter, no ambiguity in the instructions, no reason to be upset. there is no bitter aftertaste to your sweet tea, nothing scratchy about your blanket.

the lamps glow steadily. they do not falter.

II.

this is the second lesson you learn: you are never right.

you are childish, gullible, overly prone to tears. you are pedantic, combative, deliberately obtuse. you are lazy, unreliable, never on time.

you’re always making up excuses, rudely interrupting, stepping on people’s shoes. you’re always trying to get attention, never thinking about anyone else, selfish through and through.

it’s you that’s the problem. the lamps are fine.

III.

this is the third lesson you learn: you must always give in.

mother knows best. father knows best. doctor knows best. teacher knows best. this is the proper path. do not go astray.

listen to your elders, respect your betters, accept what’s given to you as your due. bow to the wisdom of experience, the education of the professional, the clarity of an external point of view.

what do you know about lamps, anyway?

Question for the ADHD folk cause I might have undiagnosed ADHD.

Does y'all's brains ever...skip text? Like, a lot? So much so that 80% of what you're reading is your brain filling in the gaps between what you actually read? Please tell me I'm not the only one. PLEASE.

I unironically get the zoomies everytime joel and etho interact LMFAO

See, minecraft/mcyt is my special interest (cause autism) and I'm currently hyperfixating on hermitcraft, especially joel and etho (cause adhd)

So seeing joel and etho interact on hc....

My brain literally can't handle the dopamine rush i get when i see those two even MENTION each other. I need to pause the video and just run around my room like a feral animal. If i dont get rid of the excess energy i will simply explode into confetti.

That moment when you want to go onto AO3 to find a new fic to read, but then remember you haven't read the latest MHA chapter so you do that instead. Then after that you get hungry and eat waffles only to remember that you were planning on going onto AO3.

ADHD hobbies are so odd because it's 830 pm and I'm trying to decide if I want to organize the alphabet of my artlang or finish hand sewing my purse made out of denim from jeans I've been saving for 3 years, and I started both of these projects this morning

oh my god

I'm not diagnosed yet but I'm suspecting myself of it so I'll try this !!

Not to go "if you have ADHD just go for a run" or anything, but I am so serious if you have ADHD you should regularly go outside, no headphones no phone no nothing and just stand and observe for a while until you've had enough. Not until you get bored, until you've had enough. Drink your coffee without watching tiktok. Have a bath without music. Turn down the volume in your headphones. I cannot overstate how much learning to be bored is cruicial with ADHD. Life is not just about pleasure, no matter what your dysregulated dopamine system thinks, and when you teach your brain to be okay with being bored, then boring tasks stop feeling like torture. By letting yourself be bored you are yoinking your system out of the high/low binary and allow for the highs to feel like actual highs and not just anything that isn't low. I am so serious go literally touch grass. Listen to the sounds in your flat. Stimulate your body the way it was designed. It lowers anxiety and makes you feel like you're real and best of all it's completely free

I’m both at the same time

It’s like 1:00 am and I keep having these weird thoughts so I’m just gonna post them here because I feel like if any site is gonna get me it would be this site. I keep having these weird thoughts because I’m super insecure but I’m also super nice so my brain sometimes just puts me in weird, impossible situations. The most common though I have is if I ever met someone who looked exactly like me or if I ever met another me that was the exact same as I am now how would I react. My brain typically does this when I’m being self deprecating and I’m overwhelmed so my first thought is typically that I’m ugly but then my brain starts berating me for being mean to this not real person who looks exactly like me. I then go in circles about this for about an hour until I force myself to sleep or I get distracted by something else.

MK1 Incorrect quotes pt.3:

Kenshi, in the dark during a big storm that cut the Wu Shi Academy’s power, searching for candles: Kung Lao I’m starting to think that this is a really bad idea.

Raiden: Oh I’m not Lao, I’m Raiden. I though you were Lao.

Kenshi: No, I’m Kenshi.

Kung Lao: You’re Kenshi? Where’s Johnny?

Kenshi: Who are you?

Kung Lao: I’m Kung Lao!

Liu Kang, eyes flashing like a pair of white flashlight: Guess who I am, you guys!

Mk1 AU where everything is the same but Liu Kangs eyes work like two mini flashlights

you know when your adhd compels you to immediately stop all work and begin reharmonizing a choir warmup for spooky season (october) and purposefully go download a free videoediting software (ShotCut, hot artists dont gatekeep) to then continuously voice record myself for the next one hour exactly cutting and editing the voice recordings to line up (speeding up by 1.001000x with pitch consideration) and then having a result that was absolutely not worth the time because your two-voice harmony one sounded much better than the three-voice one you spent twice the amount of time as the two-voice harmony one figuring out and you messaged your music major friend about it but theyre asleep rn so your thoughts are still hyperfixated on music even though i've music'd all the music there is to music right now because i have no instruments near my vicinity enough for my adhd to consider it more convenient than it is important to stay hyperfixated on this unimportant task?

yeah me neither

I can't believe the doctors didn't diagnose me with ADHD when I was a kid because I "had to get rid of my depression first just to be sure" MF IT'S A TWO PIECE COMBO MEAL

Also, my two cents, it's amazing what happens when I go and do a little light manual labor. Raking leaves, washing dishes, weeding the garden... and suddenly the ideas and solutions start moving again.

Hey, sorry if you’ve been asked this before, but I have ADHD and I’ve been following your comic for years and just now have started to write my own comic (partially because you really inspired me). But I’m really struggling with staying on the project even when it’s boring and getting myself to work on it in the first place. Do you have any tips on how to keep your brain invested or just to make yourself do the work at all?

I have excellent news, I literally just figured out something really important about this.

So when you're an ADHD kiddo or otherwise have difficulty staying on task in a structured environment where Task is the Priority, the main way people try to MAKE you stay on task is by removing your access to anything that is not The Task. No phone, no TV, no doodling, no going outside, etc. In practice, this just makes us miserable because it takes the boredom that's always simmering around a 2 or 3 and cranks it all the way up to 11. In the same way that you would have difficulty staying on task if you were in physical pain, this crushing existential monotony makes it very difficult to work. The work might get done simply because you have no other options, but it will not be done quickly or well, and it will take a while to recover from how much it hurt.

What I realized earlier this week is I caught myself doing this to myself. I had 42 pages of background colors to do, and I thought to myself "this sounds really tedious, but I suppose I have nothing better I can do." And I realized what I'd just thought, and got very alarmed.

Because back when I was an ADHD kiddo imprisoned by school scheduling and a million little factors that keep children immobile and restrained, I couldn't stop thinking about how big and exciting the world was, and how much I wanted to be anywhere but here. When I was feeling really crushed in I'd pick a random spot on the maps on my wall and just imagine being there instead of my bedroom. This was the impetus behind almost all of my creative energy. I've said it before - anything is a prison if you can't leave, and being in a prison makes it easy to imagine how amazing things could be outside of it. Aurora's initial worldbuilding was forged in the crucible of fifth grade misery. My enthusiasm for art and my creative drive are inextricable from my sense of wonder and yearning for excitement in the real world. Not escapism, but appreciation. Wonders unimaginable are out there, and I gain just as much joy seeking them out as I do conjuring them up in my head and sharing them with all of you.

So now that I'm a grown-up with actual freedom in every way I've been able to get, the idea that I was staying on task by making myself believe the world was small and not worth seeing was extremely alarming. It could keep me on task for an afternoon, but at the cost of slowly extinguishing the thing that made me want to make art in the first place - the hunger to experience and draw inspiration from all the myriad complexities in the world.

So what I've been doing is I've been purposefully and intentionally taking excursions whenever I catch myself thinking "I could take a break but it wouldn't be worth it, it's the same outdoors as always, I'll be uncomfy and unproductive and tired." Because that is never true. Every time I've put down the stylus and gone out, I've been renewed in one way or another, and when I come back to comfort fully recharged I get a lot of shit done. Because it is easier to work on anything if you remember why you wanted to make it in the first place, and it is self-defeating misery to just lock yourself in with it and tell yourself you're a bad person if you can't get it done.

I honestly don't know how widely applicable this is. I have worse wanderlust than anyone I know, so for me this has always been modeled as imprisonment vs freedom. I've also been extremely lucky to find myself in a profession that lets me set my own pace on literally everything I do. But I genuinely believe that when it comes to making art with ADHD, you need to give yourself freedom to move laterally, not just in the direction of obvious forward progress. We don't think linearly in any other part of our lives - art is no different.

For my neurodivergent people out there, question for you, how do you shut your brain up?? I drove home from a friend’s house tonight and my thoughts just wouldn’t stop racing and it was just random shit too! Like my brain feels like a goddamn hurricane of random song lyrics, TikTok sounds, and existential thoughts about my future.

I guess I answered my own question by watching Game Grumps, wrapping myself around my Blåhaj, and drawing cringe vent shit…

Don't usually do this but does anyone has any useful advices how to deal with ADHD burnout while it's already happening? And not just how to prevent it.

Google shitty advices they're comically bad.

I guess useful information for nd people online will never be a thing unless you ask other neurodivergent ppl.

My phone isn't even aware that neurodivergent is a real word.

When Autism meets ADHD.

two things: I hate change and having my routines interrupted. I hate things being the same it’s boring

Why am I so stupid chronicles pt.1

This whole time I was thinking wow janet jackson looks so much like michael jackson and then I saw a picture of her recently and again thought wow the resemblance is uncanny and then was thinking ooooh have they ever been in a room together and tried to google about the resemblance only to realize they’re freaking SIBLINGS??!!!???!?!!?

My brain can’t be bothered, ahhhhh the perks of not being american (srsly the country needs help) hehehehehehe