Tried To Make A Sunset Themed Beanie...

Allistar, my son, my boi, is getting some fukin lineart! Not crazy happy with it, but still happy!🐢

I'm mostly numb but I cry sometimes.

I kept debating as to whether or not I should post about this but then I remembered that my only other relatively-social outlet is my therapist so I decided to post.

My childhood friend shot himself yesterday. He died this afternoon while in the hospital.

At first I thought: "I won't be majorly affected by this, I haven't talked to him in over a year! I'm just uncomfortable because talking about suicide makes my anxiety spike due to another friends of mine attempting with me as her last goodbye!"(She's alive as far as I know, thank fucking god)

But then my mom was talking to my grandmother about what happened and mentioned that I'd been friends with him and his little sister...

And I realized... Jacob is dead. One of my childhood friends killed himself.

We're only 15... My friend is gone and we're practically still children

I keep having random bouts of re-realization because it just doesn't make any sense...

I can't feel anything. He's dead. He's gone and my emotions keep going in and out like an indesicve tide hugging the shore.

One second I'm sobbing and then, for a while, I'm completely numb.

I... I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I was so sure that this wouldn't affect me.

But she's ok. The friend I mentioned earlier is still alive.

I'm so glad she's alive, though. If I'm reacting like this to someone I haven't talked to in almost a year- I can only imagine what I'd be feeling if she'd succeeded...

I hope she knows how happy I am every time I remember that she's alive.

And how comforting that thought is now.

Because we're still just kids. Because we shouldn't be dying.

We're just kids

I, uh, drew some gays. @twilyyyy have some gays.

Two things rn.

Earlier today I had an appointment with a psychiatrist that works for my therapist. The appointment lasted 2 hours, at the end of which he gave me a prescription for Prozac, which I've decided to start tomorrow.

I know from experience that dying your hair with kool-aid is great if you want really bright hair until the end of time sooo... I've been thinking about dyeing my hair a rainbow, which would be awesome and I really wanna do it!

TL;DR: I'm going to start Prozac tomorrow and I wanna dye my hair a rainbow using kool-aid.

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Why was this flagged as inappropriate? It was a picture of a tiny frog????

I made a friend but they hopped away

Why I've stopped tagging my posts:

Me lzy AF

The snakey boi is now named Allistar and I love him.

Thanks to @brozkiie for the A++ name! Ily!

I didn't want to get rid of the stretch so instead I struggled with using lineart pens and markers on fucking wax paper. Never again.