I am surrounded in a crowd of people I claim to know, yet I feel so alone
I smile, and nod, and like I care, when really it's been sometime since I really dared
I speak but I don't feel heard
My words come out, but no one listens, deciding to speak to others, even though I've already began
Do I really know these people? Do they really know me?
I feel more at peace away from them, reading and listening to the songs I've come to love
They make me feel corned, trapped when confronted
Yes, we are friends
I will listen
I will hold you
But why is it that you yourself cannot provide me with the simplest thing
Your attention
Life(L)
My normal everyday day life
Boring as it is
Prepare some coffee, toast and eggs
Read for an hour
Listen to music
Think of scenarios
Of what could have been
Prepare his lunch
Sit and write
Today I'm thinking
Maybe a fish will bite
My dreams so big
But my hope so small
My everyday life, this is part of it all
Do my chores, read a bit more
Do I want to write? I'm not sure
Today I wonder what could have been
But tomorrow is where it all begins
#poems #life
peace is a wonderful thing
something so simple
yet so complicated
its the gentle winds blowing against your hair
the bright sun warming your face
its spending time with people you love and care for
but sometimes its a little more dark
a little more violent
its the feeling of getting reveng
of being the first to do it and taking others down
its fighting back against the bully
its the knife in that guys back
the one who tormented you to no end
but sometimes peace is also the quiet
or the load bickering, and laughter
peace is so complicated
but its something we all want
with its flaws and all
Love Letter (LL)
Since the first day I saw you
I knew, I wanted you
Your beauty and subtility
Your kind smile so bright
Your face glows, your amazing
Today we talked, three months ago
I asked for your name
Today after school
Will you meet me beneath the willow tree
Hopefully I will tell
I love you
Will you be my one true love
A star in my dark night
#Poems #loveletter
Home
Home, whether that's a place, person or thing
I hope you have a safe place
You can run to when things become to much
That you find comfort with whatever it is
Family isn't always home
Home is your safe place
Where you can be you
Where you are loved unconditionally
A place why you can run to,at, or with
The warmth it may provide
Home does not have to be a place,
It can be a person you trust and love or
Something you hold dearly
Let you safe place comfort you,
To be loved unconditionally
Betrayal
Through the good and the bad
You were by my side
My secret keeper, my friend
I never once stopped listening to you
I loved and cared for you
Brought you coffee and chocolate
Never did I think you would use me like this
You stabbed a knife in my back
My heart, and my soul
You took a piece of me I can never get back
You told every secret I told you
You stabbed and laughed behind my back
Now I know, we were never that
You used me and abused me
When I no longer served you of any use
You left me,threw me away
But not before you said it to my face
Now I know you true colors
You betrayed me, Now I trust no one
When you come back begging for help
Forgiveness or acceptance
You will find the remains
Of what I used to be, what we use to be
#poem #betrayal
Taken at school, on my way home , and on the road to Bakersfield for a field trip
So I asked some friends to choose between LL, W, L,B,
W stood for war, LL, stood for love letter, l stood for life, and b stood for betrayal, I've written w and be so far, so I'm sharing w, I might share b
War
This missiles fly overhead
Our labored breathing
The blood pumping
The screams, the cry's
I hear it all
My body aches
My gun lays beside me
My comrades lay farther behind
I hold in my tears
I'm either dying here in battle
Or at home with my family
Darting off, I run
I throw grenades
I'm shouting and shooting everyone in opposite uniforms
The pain in my leg worsens
I'm shot in the arm
I duck behind a boulder
Reload,Listen,Attack, Hide, Repeat
Hours, days, weeks, months...years
Finally after who knows how long
A white flag
Raised high in the air
Our freedom? No, their freedom
They approach, hundreds, thousands of soldiers
We won
We can go home
Is it raining? No I'm crying
It's over