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"You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a drop." — Rumi

“Loving you was like going to war, I never came back the same.”

— Warsan Shire

Everything you love will one day kill you, whether it’s cigarettes, drugs, or the girl with pretty eyes, they all kill you in the end.

stars fell thru

your dreams

and

drowned me

in my sleep.

—RTG

“Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all others.”

— Cicero, Pro Plancio

Total Lunar Eclipse, Blood Worm Moon © astronycc

“Please stop destroying what is left of your heart by constantly thinking about things that have broken you.”

— Unknown

Augusto De Luca, “Bianco e Nero”, 1983

MOTHERFUCKER

“It was an act of self-preservation — however misguided it was”.

“You don’t ask people with knives in their stomachs what would make them happy; happiness is no longer the point. It’s all about survival; it’s all about whether you pull the knife out and bleed to death or keep it in.”

— Nick Hornby, How to Be Good

Chessboard. 19th century. Credit line: Gift of Gustavus A. Pfeiffer, 1953 https://www.metmuseum.org/art/collection/search/201482

“Grief does not only need to be felt. It also demands to be defined.”

— anastasiasyah, from “Preface” in A Dictionary of Grief (via anastasiasyah)

“When Kafka allows a friend to understand that he writes because otherwise he would go mad, he knows that writing is madness already, his madness, a kind of vigilance, unrelated to any wakefulness save sleep’s: insomnia. Madness against madness, then. But he believes that he masters the one by abandoning himself to it; the other frightens him, and is his fear; it tears through him, wounds and exalts him. It is as if he had to undergo all the force of an uninterruptible continuity, a tension at the edge of the insupportable which he speaks of with fear and not without a feeling of glory. For glory is the disaster.”

— Maurice Blanchot, The Writing of the Disaster

every now and again i feel the need to remind myself that my life is never too deeply rooted in anything. a fresh start is as simple as making the decision to start anew.

“To live is to exist within time. To remember is to negate time.”

— Ling Ma, Bliss Montage

“I put my hand on my chest and closed my eyes. I have a dinosaur heart, cold, massive, indestructible, a thick meaty red. And I have a glass heart, tiny and pink, that can be shattered… There was a ping. To my surprise, it had developed a minute crack, nearly invisible. But it was there, and it hurt.”

— Louise Erdrich, The Sentence

“Growing up, I used to climb out my window onto the roof and look up at the stars. There, in the quiet, I would write stories inside my head.”

— Christy Hall, The Little Silkworm

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𖦹*ੈ‧ 𝚂𝚎𝚊 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚌𝚑 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚗𝚢𝚖𝚘𝚞𝚜 𓇼 ₊˚𓆝

Sometimes you need to sleep, sleep a lot. Not to escape, but to rest your soul from your feelings. Because everything, absolutely everything devours you. Completely.

—Brain

“The chaos of the mind cannot constitute a reply to the providence of the universe. All it can be is an awakening in the night, where all that can be heard is anguished poetry let loose.”

— Georges Bataille, Literature and Evil