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Manifestation is instant, so when you decide you already have it or it’s done, it becomes true instantly, its true already. Now just let it unfold naturally and don’t contradict it or waver by looking for it, also don’t worry about how it’s gonna unfold just trust it is already unfolding the second you affirmed it. The “instant” just means it’s already yours the second you affirmed it, and it’s bound to happen any second now. Don’t pay attention to how long it’s taking because then you becomes aware of time, making it seem or manifest as it’s taking actual “time” this can make you think you don’t have it and have to wait for it. But the second you affirmed it and decided “yes I have it” whether you believe it or not it’s already yours and on its way to you. It could show up any second now because it was done the second you decided but even if you don’t physically see it even if a day (s) passed by you have to know it’s already done & yours, so don’t go back to looking for it or thinking you aren’t doing it right. It’s like ordering a pizza, once you place your order you know it’s done and will be delivered to you, you’re not gonna be calling them asking if they got the order, if they understand what you mean, did you order it right, or if they are already coming, or checking on it every 5 mins to make sure it’s coming, you simply know that it’s their job to take your order, make your pizza , and deliver it. You don’t ask them who’s making the pizza, how are they bringing it over and what route they are taking to your house; you simply know it will be delivered and you will eat your pizza.

xoxo, the cosmic angel ⭐️🪽

babe, just read a books, drink your matcha and worry about nothing.

No guys you don’t understand I LOVE myself now.

I’m not insecure, I can talk to people without the need to please them, I can be outgoing and confident and I think of myself as amazing and beautiful and just as worthy as anyone else and no one is on a pedestal.. I’m forever grateful.🫶🏼

thinking about edvard munch's "The Sun" (1911)

like yeah thats how it feels. thats what it feels like to exist sometimes. he gets it

---- 30/09/2014 entry

* Today was, alright, I guess? I got my period yesterday after not having it for 5 months!! My stomach was kinda hurting all the time but not too much. My first two classes were P.E, we ran for an hour (11°C 😭) and then played volleyball. I love running but that was just.. brutal. The rest of my classes were okay.

* I decided to do a 3 day challenge. It's about listenning to subliminals/affirmation tapes and affirming all the time. Mine is about looking like Taylor Hill and being beautiful!

* After school I baked oatmeal cookies the first time in my life, they turned a bit burned and I put too little sugar in it, but they were fine after putting honey on them! I ate 11 at once LOLL

* I guess that's it, that day was like another average day. XOXO angels 🩷🪽

enemies to lovers but with myself

Seeing your present self in the eye and deciding to become the best version of yourself is the best thing you can do.

Think: Can I get better that myself in … . What should I do to win - against my current version (in getting better grades)

See it as a game, a competition with yourself. Only you matter in the end. Don't compare yourself with others.

the tradwife movement is the same as it has always been - back in the kitchen, back to breeding - it just has better branding.

when i was younger, i hated pink. i was not like other girls. this is now something i'm embarrassed of - this was not me being a "girl's girl."

but it was expressing something many of us felt at the time: i literally wasn't what girlhood was supposed to be. this is a hard thing to explain, but you know when you're not performing girlhood correctly. it isn't as easy as "i liked x when girls liked y" - because there were other girls that liked x, too - but i never figured out exactly the correct way to like x, or to be interested in y.

now there is the divine feminine. this is the same rhetoric it has always been: women are biologically driven to like pink and ribbons and submitting to our husbands.

the problem is that the patriarchy found a better PR team. because yes, actually, i want every woman to have the choice to be a homemaker. i also want her taken seriously for her legitimate home-making labor. i want her to be recognized as also having a job, just unpaid. i want men to have this opportunity, too.

but it is no longer "i made this choice and I love it." instead it is a sixteen-paragraph rant about how selfish it is that my generation isn't having kids. instead it's long videos about how if you feed your children processed foods, you're going to kill them. instead it is "this is what womanhood is supposed to be. i feel bad for any other choices you're making."

the shame spiral is just prettier. it is large houses devoid of personality. it is the implication: if you don't have this, you aren't happy. the solid, everlasting assurance: women are actually supposed to be submitting. this is the default. this is the natural state of things. all other attempts inflict suffering.

but you can no longer say i'm not like other girls. you can no longer reject this image completely. you cannot find it revolting, even if you know that the underbelly is toxic and festering. sure, it is the same repackaged patriarchy. but the internet does not have shades of grey. you should support and reward other women! your disgust is actually internalized misogyny. not because you are seeing a vision of yourself the way they're trying to train you to be. not because you feel her ghost pass within an inch of your earlobe. not because your father will eventually ask you - why can't you be like her?

because they figured out how to make it beautiful: women will sell other women on this idea, and we will find the singular loophole in feminism. sure, she's shaming you in most of her videos. sure, she implies that a different life is obscene. but she just wants you to be happy! you'd be happier if you were listening!

and the whole time you're sitting there thinking: i'd actually just be happier if i had that kind of money.

🍂 School day update

It's the first day, it was fine. Not good, not bad. My 'best friend' was of course talking with the girl from her class she 'hates' and she was ignoring me. I hate her, ill just hang out with my cousin and my life long best friend and not that hoe