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don't forget who you are.

A limitless creator. Consciousness. A piece of god, or a god if that sounds easier. 

The point is, stop limiting yourself. Stop trying, stop forcing, stop it all for a second. It wasn’t until I realized how much of a control freak I really was this past week plus. How limiting I really was and it wasn’t until I read source again, along with threads from mutuals to really hit a home run. 

I kept being afraid of the world outside of me because of how it looked, how other people reacted to who I was, and because of how I perceived it all, I always thought living in fear was how to live. Growing up, I thought negativity was always a good thing. 

“Always remember, life is struggle.” “You can’t always get what you want.” “You can’t live in a dream world.” “You can’t do this because of xyz” “You’re not capable of reaching these goals” “Money is always hard to get.” “Love is never something you should want, it always hurts you. It removes sight of your goals.” “You can’t get this, stop trying to reach for the stars. Reach for a branch instead.” “You have to work hard to get what you want, or else you’ll fail.” They became normal to me, it was a branch I was holding onto for dear life, for some sense of reality. I always thought being “realistic” was the right way to go, to appease my family, to please others in life, to not focus on myself because that would mean I’m “selfish”. Still, to this day, I kept thinking that I was my stress, my anxiety, the world around me, the fears of my past, the doubts I've thought of, all of it.

I wasn’t. EVER. 

Honestly, even today, as I’m typing this blog, I had fear spike into me again. I had to really sit down and ask myself, why? Who was I being? Why was I being this? It wasn’t until I overconsumed yet again in my fear-filled state, searching for answers outside of me when I truly realized something today. 

I forgot how limitless I truly was. 

Hell, why learn the law? Why KNOW about the law if I was forgetting who I was? Why in the name of everything nice in this world was I forgetting that imagination/mind/consciousness was my only reality? I still needed to unlearn the fact that I can’t force myself to believe, I shouldn’t. It wasn’t until I read this thread, and Nyx’s (@nyxcreate) posts on tumblr and twitter again to realize the amount of limitations I was putting onto myself. Seriously, WHY was I making this so hard on myself? On my mindset? On who I was being? Another person I who I really look up to made a thread as well, which seriously resonated with me. This one.

While reading Nyx’s posts, I came across her thread on why she didn’t believe in persisting. To which, I wholeheartedly agree. If I was already that person, I wouldn’t be pounding my head with visuals to BE or GET something, I wouldn’t be forcing perfection onto something where perfection genuinely can’t exist. Remove rules and limitations and see how easier it gets. 

I won’t lie, it wasn’t easy. Ever since I learned about the law a few years ago, unlearning the limitations and “rules” life had placed onto me was hard. It wasn’t something I believed overnight or in a second, not when I was seeing those same patterns out in the world.

After what I read, here’s what I learned: Persistence (not in the way you think) wasn’t necessary - I mentioned this in my “states are a mindset” blog too, that persisting isn’t something you’re doing to GET something, it’s to become more comfortable being that person. Agreed. Think about it this way, you wanted to wear a red sweater today and eat hot cheetos, you wore a red sweater and you ate your hot cheetos, are you thinking about it all day? Are you forcing to remind yourself that you ate your hot cheetos and you’re wearing a red sweater? Are you always going back to it? I don’t think so. Sure, you might get a fleeting thought of “dang, I actually look good in this red sweater!” or “i actually got what i wanted to eat” (even if you don’t, that is genuinely completely fine.” But the notion that you need to persist to “become the change” or “to make it natural” was absurd to me, still is. You limit yourself when you think that you need to persist to “become another person” or to “get my sp”. Be so real with yourself, if you had that sp would you be pounding your head with affs that you have them? Would you constantly be visualizing scenes of you two being together 24/7? Really, ask yourself this. If you had the perfect body, you would just be that person, you would be confident and love your body. 

HOWEVER, this isn’t to say that if you enjoy methods to not do them! If I remembered at the end of the day that I wore a red sweater and ate hot cheetos, I might see it as a visual that happens naturally, never forced.  You only really “persist” to keep a change, to acknowledge the identity you have kept for yourself. To remind yourself that you have changed and are now not desiring. Heck, you can even choose NOT to persist if it sounds like too much effort, I did that and it gave me true peace. 

How do I actually believe in imagination? - stop trying to believe. If prior to the law, you saw the 3D as real and your imagination as fake, all you need to do is just flip that. It’s now your imagination is the real reality and this 3D world is fake. 

You’re consciousness moving in and out of states/mindsets, that’s okay - That is quite literally it’s job, to NOT stay in desire and to continuously move through states/mindsets/identities, it’s the reason why different people’s assumptions regarding life and what’s going on are different. No two people will perceive things the same way, one can see persisting as a chore, another can see it as peace, another can be in the middle, that’s okay. 

SELF REALIZATION: Just as all of this hit me, another fact just whacked me in the face. As a limitless being (consciousness) the only reason it exists is to not be in desire. Your whole reason of having desire is to just not have desire, you don’t deserve to live in desire knowing that imagination is the only true reality. THAT is where you’re limitless, not this 3D fleshy human body (that is in fact a garment your consciousness is wearing). When LOA influencers/bloggers or even the big man Neville himself tell you that imagination is god, they mean that your whole world, the world as you want it to be is available there. 

Genuinely make imagination your safe haven. You’re allowed to have doubts, fears, and anything of the sort because you KNOW that it’s part of the 3D, which also means you’re allowed to acknowledge it, but not let the limitless self be limited! Which also means you’re allowed to make your own rules! Yes, you are! You can do that! Remember, you’re not trying to create anything! Creation’s finished!

Want to feel like whenever you let your emotions out, something good will happen? Yeah! Whenever you decide something once, you have it? Yeah! You don’t want to exhaust yourself with methods? Sure! Do what makes you happy! This is truly a mindset switch from a limited being, to someone who is limitless! Perfection doesn’t come with it, it’s not supposed to be there so don’t worry about it. That’s something a close friend of mine @piercedblunt taught me :’) Manifesting is not supposed to feel forced, nor is it supposed to be draining you, if that’s the case, take a break from it. 

So what if you fall out of the state/mindset? Pick yourself back up again, limitless consciousness/awareness is always going to stay a part of you, you can’t just ditch it on the side of the road and think, “welp :/ guess i can’t get what I want” WHO CARES IF YOU CAN’T SEE SHIT OUTSIDE? THAT 👏ISNT👏YOUR👏JOB👏.NEVER HAS BEEN? Now that you’re allowing yourself to be limitless, why would that be an issue? So what if you didn’t see that grade right now? You’re still limitless, aren’t you? Why are you still seeing your emotions as something that’ll hinder you when that is PART OF THE 3D? You’re allowed to just observe/acknowledge it as something you’re feeling, hell, even if you forget you’re limitless, it’ll come back to you eventually. Whether that’s in a minute, a day, a week, a year, you’ll remember your limitless self, you can’t run away from it. To learn more about this, I learned from this thread. I highly recommend reading Star’s loa threads if you’re interested on the mental health/self-love side of LOA, as I resonate dearly with what she has to say. 

To wrap it all up:

Back when I was in high school, I remember I really wanted to manifest a snow day for myself (this was back when I first found out about states). It had been ages since then and I’m pretty sure there was also this assignment I wanted an extension on, so I hit two birds with one stone and manifested a snow storm, which lead to a snow day. The way I did it truly understood that this 3D world cannot fulfill me, it really can’t, it’s not it’s job to. All I did was decide, I asked myself, if I woke up and KNEW that I had a day off because of a school day, what would I be doing? How would I go about the day? How would I react to my school emailing me about bus cancellations? An image just naturally popped up of my school board cancelling buses, all because I decided to be the person who would’ve been having a snow day. After that, I went to sleep, I had gotten rid of desire because I knew my limitless self had experienced it and was experiencing it already. 

I woke up that next morning literally forgetting that I had made that decision, checked the time and saw that it was twenty minutes until my bus would arrive to pick me up for school. My dad came into my room, confused. He literally told me “what are you doing? Your school board emailed everyone that there’s a snow day today and possibly tomorrow with the storm, you’re not going to school? Check your email”. Mind you, I genuinely was confused, but also in the back of my mind felt pretty normal, fulfilled, natural. All because of a decision. Well, one I ultimately forgot T-T. 

But see how I didn’t “persist”? Where did I visualize 24/7? Where did I pound my head with affirmations? Where did I “act as if” in the 3D? Where was there force? When you truly let your limitless self thrive, you learn to not give a crud about the 3D, with practice it all falls into place. (btw this little section is inspired by one of Jay’s blogs as it also cemented how easy it is to use the law!!) 

When we say to fall in love with your new mindset, we basically mean to fall in love with your limitless self. Fall into the abundance, the joy, the relief, the weight of your worries disappearing, all of it. If you fall out, you identify with the 3D, feel like you “slipped up”, you genuinely didn’t, my love. It’s when you think that you did slip up is when you should remind yourself, creation is and was finished the moment you decided you had what you want. Another thing, don’t be afraid to “mess up” in terms of learning the law. Even us bloggers go through it too, we’re also human as well at the end of the day, with real emotions, real feelings, real lives and that is always okay. Make it a habit to understand and love both the human you, and your limitless self. You’re allowed to be free in imagination but also cry over stress. You’re allowed to not live in desire, but also make it a habit to check in with how you feel. You’re allowed to give yourself your wildest dreams, and you can still allow yourself to drop the feelings of guilt or the past. You’re always allowed to forgive, don’t forget that. 

Don’t forget who you are. 

Cheers, 

Kaeya <3

enemies to lovers but with myself

Seeing your present self in the eye and deciding to become the best version of yourself is the best thing you can do.

Think: Can I get better that myself in … . What should I do to win - against my current version (in getting better grades)

See it as a game, a competition with yourself. Only you matter in the end. Don't compare yourself with others.

busy days 🥗🍃

WORK OUT: done

FOOD RULES: done

STRETCHING: done

SHOWER: done

STUDYING AND MEDITATING: nope

--- <1500 calories, <15k steps :c

⋆₊˚1/10/2024 – DAY 1 journal

I planned to go to sleep early, wake up at 5:30 am, work out early etc. but sadly I couldn't because i had to wait for my sister to come back from work (2 hours after i was supposed to go to sleep). So, I woke up at 7am and washed my hair and showered. It took a whole hour! After washing my hair, i worked out - today was pilates, i only did half tho. Yeah, I should work out before showering BUT i take a long time in the bathroom and others wanted to get ready too, so i had to be smart and shower earlier. I did only the first 30 minutes of pilates and then stretched, I did gua sha too! Few hours later we were in the church for 2 hours and went to visit the graves of our family members. Then we went to visit my grandpa (dad's side) and it was fun ngl, we were talking and i finally didnt spend much time on my phone - instead we talked, a lot! (I'm an extreme introvert) Then we went to my grandma (mom's side), she had cake but i didn't eat any of it because im on a no sugar diet. It didn't make me sad tho, I didn't crave sugar that much today. We talked a lot too, and i didnt even take my phone! I felt sooo pretty and i actually accepted that im fr attractive (I have body dysmorphia disorder). I got two strawberry chocolate bars from my grandma (dad's side) and some cake from my grandpa (mom's side). After we came back home, i did the other part of my pilates. Then i relaxed and played DTI, did my skincare and read some books. It's sleep time now💤

me too !!!

VSFS 2024 💗🪽

I’m so ready!!!

---- 1/10/2024 entry

* It's finally october, yay! I love fall, it's so cozy and its perfect for staying inside, sleeping, reading or baking. It's also the month where i will start my diet and working out again, since tomorrow ill have a mini treadmill!

* Today was fine, ig. I had two tests at school and got A's from both. After school I slept the whole day. The only thing that makes me kinda mad is that I have two freaking pimples on my forehead, ughhh I hate getting my period.

* Did yall heard about the Diddy situation? I digged so much into it, spent 3 hours straight watching YouTube videos about it that I don't think I'll sleep tonight. Im just so sorry for his victims - he's disgusting and he's gonna rot in hell. I also believe he killed Tupac..

* That's it for today! Ik, pretty boring, but a journal is a journal, so I had to write an entry loll !! Bye angels xx 🩷🪽

snowflakes in my stomach when we’re kissing ⊹₊⟡⋆

| September goals

1. Daily Self-Care Routine

Start small by adding one or two self-care habits to your daily routine, like stretching for 5 minutes in the morning or writing down three goals for the day ( like drinking more water ).

2. Be kind to yourself

Tip: Create a habit of switching your mindset and words. Try saying “I am capable of achieving my goals” or “I deserve to take care of myself.” instead of discarding your needs and feelings.

3. Add little challenges to your day

Try a 30-day personal challenge, like journaling every morning, starting a workout routine, or reading 10 pages of any book you like each day.

4. Dealing with burnout

Reserve one day of the week for self-care and doing things you enjoy. Even if you can't take the full day for yourself try to make it at least two hours for a good and relaxing shower, taking care of your skin, hair and body. Maybe you can even treat yourself to your favourite meal!

5. Productivity Hacks

Break tasks into smaller, manageable chunks, and set a timer (like the Pomodoro technique—50 minutes of work followed by a 10-minute break) to stay productive without feeling overwhelmed.

Tip: If a task takes less than two minutes to complete (like answering a quick email or tidying up your desk), do it immediately. This prevents small tasks from piling up and becoming overwhelming.

That's all!! Tell me if you'd like more tips.

Stay healthy, stay happy and be kind!