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I could never hate younger me, she was lovely and deserved better

work out: 40 minute run

food rules: yes

stretching: yes

studying: 3 hours

meditate: nope

⋆₊˚4/10/2024 – DAY 4 journal

The day after my binge fast was suprisingly good, I thought I'll feel sick or something but nah, it was a regular day. I started it by eating a toast with two eggs, i only ate one because i burnt them both and the second one was just.. uhh.. Yeah, then i *sadly* went to school but I'm trying to make school better to myself so i have to be positive about it. Yay! I went to school. The day wasn't bad but my bsf disrespected me and i was mad at her, tho I'm not anymore. I got a good grade form my polish class and a compliment from my russian class teacher. When i went back home i made myself lunch = a salad my mom made (with greek yogurt so extra healthy) and fried chopped sausages. Then I IMMIDIATELY without any rest went to my room and hopped on my treadmil. I ran for 40 minutes, so my work out was done! Then i again, immidiately, started studying. Okay, there was a little break but it was cleaning the kitchen, so it wasn't really a break. I studied for 3 hours straight because I have a math exam today and i didn't know anything, but i do now - yay! Then it was already dark outside and my hair was super greasy so i just took a shower and washed my hair, its sooo soft now. It was already 8PM when i finished so i went back to my room, started working on my subliminal (I didn't finish it, if anyone is intrested then bbabybrooke is the name of my channel!!). I watched some YT videos and just went to sleep 💤

work out: yes

food rules: nope.. absolutely not

stretching: yes

studying: no

meditation: nope

<10k steps, <2L of water

⋆₊˚3/10/2024 – DAY 3 journal

On sundays i have rest days but that day i had a huge binge fest lol, my breakfast was cakes, cakes, cakes, then i snacked on salad and continued to eat only sweets. My break from them was lunch, chuck steak with silesian dumplings. I felt a lil guilty so i did a HIIT workout, i didnt finish it because i felt kinda weak, but i did leg pilates after! I didn't read a book nor did i go out on a walk, so i did only maybe like 200 steps lolllll. I don't feel guilty tho, it's just one day and im not gonna repeat it. Not the end of the world!

WORK OUT: done

FOOD RULES: done

STRETCHING: done

STUDYING: done

MEDITATING: nope.

>10k steps, <2L of water

⋆₊˚2/10/2024 – DAY 2 journal

Im writing this the day, yesterday was really succesful. When i woke up, i immidiately did the first half of my work out. I did my skincare etc. and then played some games, but my parents said we're going shopping. The shopping was suprisingly calm and we joked a lot. I bought myself a salad. After we came back my sis was doing an aesthetic 'breakfast' (at 2PM LOL) for her competition (?), she took a pic of it and let us eat it. It was very yummy but i forgot what it is. Then i started reading Atomic Habits and finished a whole chapter, after that I went on a 10k steps walk and listenned to my history topic (so i was walking and studying, smart). When I came back I finished studying the topic and did the other part of my workout (HIIT). When i finished, it was already dark outside. So i mainly relaxed, ate the salad, and at 10 pm when i was going to sleep my sister came back with her boyfriend and she gave me a box of chicken! ofc i ate it lol.. but she also came back with a lot of cakes.. and my mom told to me to eat some of those. i didnt, but the next day i did (today)🥲

WORK OUT: done

FOOD RULES: done

STRETCHING: done

SHOWER: done

STUDYING AND MEDITATING: nope

--- <1500 calories, <15k steps :c

⋆₊˚1/10/2024 – DAY 1 journal

I planned to go to sleep early, wake up at 5:30 am, work out early etc. but sadly I couldn't because i had to wait for my sister to come back from work (2 hours after i was supposed to go to sleep). So, I woke up at 7am and washed my hair and showered. It took a whole hour! After washing my hair, i worked out - today was pilates, i only did half tho. Yeah, I should work out before showering BUT i take a long time in the bathroom and others wanted to get ready too, so i had to be smart and shower earlier. I did only the first 30 minutes of pilates and then stretched, I did gua sha too! Few hours later we were in the church for 2 hours and went to visit the graves of our family members. Then we went to visit my grandpa (dad's side) and it was fun ngl, we were talking and i finally didnt spend much time on my phone - instead we talked, a lot! (I'm an extreme introvert) Then we went to my grandma (mom's side), she had cake but i didn't eat any of it because im on a no sugar diet. It didn't make me sad tho, I didn't crave sugar that much today. We talked a lot too, and i didnt even take my phone! I felt sooo pretty and i actually accepted that im fr attractive (I have body dysmorphia disorder). I got two strawberry chocolate bars from my grandma (dad's side) and some cake from my grandpa (mom's side). After we came back home, i did the other part of my pilates. Then i relaxed and played DTI, did my skincare and read some books. It's sleep time now💤

diet + workout = 60 day glow up plan ::

~ 1500 cal daily - absolutely no sugar, salt, fast food and junk food - minimum 15k steps a day - at least 1.5L water a day RULES :: - eat only in the kitchen - no snacking while making food - fruits or veggies are the only snacks - do not body check (or weight check) - dont eat after 7 PM

FOOD :: breakfast = something filling with protein lunch = something that gives me energy for a workout (can be carbs, but some veggies and protein are good too, since my mom makes lunch) dinner = something light, can be a salad

WORKOUT :: monday :: 1 hour run tuesday :: 30 minute strenght training (full body) wednesday :: 1 hour pilates abs focused thursday :: 40 minute run + 30 minute strenght training (legs) friday :: 1 hour pilates full body saturday :: 30 minute HIIT + 30 minute strenght training sunday :: 20 minutes yoga + active rest day DAILY :: study at least 3 topics do lymphatic drainage massage stretch after and before sleep skincare + take care of your hair read books dont spend too much time on internet meditate track ur progress do SATS and avoid the mirror

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preach !!

How to manifest your desired face:

*This is the most popular topic, so i made this to clear up some questions you might have or struggle with.*

Manifesting your ideal face Can be frustrating sometimes, why? Well you Always encounter the mirror, and it Can get you very demotivated and you might think that there's no movement or doubt the Law.

But let's simplify LOA Real quick-

1. Decide: decide what kind of face you want, it Can be mixed or just the ideal face you want.

2. affirm: making an affirmation that you feel comfortable to repeat for example "i already have my desired face" "i look exactly like xyz!"

3. persist: being stubborn and faithful to your assumption, you Always return to your assumption/imagination regardless of what the 3d shows you. For example: you still see the same old face in the mirror, before reacting, you affirm that you have your desired face.

That all you gotta do.

But here's the Real question →

Why the 3d is still showing me my old face?

Duh 😒 didn't we ALWAYS Say that you shouldn't take the validation from the 3d? The 3d won't EVER give you your desired face if you focus on it.

The 3d will Always shows you your current assumptions, if you keep saying that you don't have your desired face, well Guess what? Yeah duh you will still see your old face.

But we need to fix that, we need to stop this repeating cycle.

YOU ALREADY HAVE YOUR DESIRED FACE! IT IS DONE!

The second you decided that you have your desired face, you have it in 4D.

Done deal.

There's nothing for you to do now, just to persist in the assumption that the fact you already have that desired face of yours.

And the 3D will catch up on and will reflect your 4D, IF you keep fulfilling yourself and accepting the imagination as the true reality.

I cannot stress this enough when i say that the 3D is just a mirror, a dead reality, without imagination, it nothing but a dead reality, what you're experiencing right now is because you imagined it first then it was being reflected into the physical reality.

"B-but Eli i can't ignore the 3d when it is in front of my face😞"

Yeah i know it is difficult but let me tell you.

YOU DON'T NEED TO IGNORE THE 3D!

Just know it will change cause you literally decided that you already have your desired face, you know it is done, creation is finished, you already have your desired face in your 4D and the 3D have no choice but to reflect it!

"but Eli i'm done seeing my ugly face!"

I know it is hard when you are Always in front of that mirror, but beer with it for a while, keep saying positive affirmations, keep affirming that you look exactly like your desired face! I know it will feel Weird and uncomfortable at first but you will get used to it with Times.

"but Eli when i see those pretty girls on tiktok i feel so insecure and i wish to be them😢"

Girl, instead of saying that, when you see a pretty girl on tiktok just Say "oh my god! She's so pretty! But i'm prettier than her, that obviously🙄💅🏻" or "this girl is so pretty like me!".

Affirm against any opposite thought, you're clearly telling your subconscious every single day and reminding it that you DO have your desired face and you're already pretty.

How to know that i'm living in the state of the wish fulfilled?

You won't give a single Fuck to the 3d, you know you already have your desired face so you won't give a single Fuck to what the 3d throw at you.

You'll feel an immense calmness and you'll feel like you already own/ have that desire, it will start feeling natural.

You know it is a done deal, you already have your desires so you'll be unconcerned about what happening in the physical reality, no matter what the 3d throw at you, you KNOW that you do have your desires in the 4d.

People saying your ugly? The Fuck girl? Can't you see my beauty? I'm literally the prettiest.

Seeing pretty girls and feeling insecure? Gurll i'm literally prettier than them, they wish to have my face.

Still seeing your old face in the mirror? Gurl i literally have my desired face, i looks exactly like xyz.

See how it is easy? You just need to be disciplined.

If you really want your desired face, then be that stubborn mf and manifest that perfect face of yours.

Now go and make that change, you'll thank me later😌.

Xoxo, Eli

A little something about your Subconscious mind

As we all know our subconscious mind is what helps us manifest right? If you don't know, let me explain it to you in a semi scientific way that i learned recently. (spoiler alert; this made it click for me.)

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WARNING LONG POST AHEAD :p

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So 5% is the  Conscious mind, thats what helps us know words, numbers, languages and logic.

95% is the  subconscious mind that corresponds with visuals, symbols, dreams, emotion, repetition, tone during sleep, relaxation, stories.  aka the best way to update the “system”            

Our subconscious mind has RAS ( Reticular activating system) which distorts, deletes and generalizes all the information you recieve. Based on believes, values, identity, memories, past decisions, mood, location/ times.

You→ recieve information by the 5 senses with 2.3 million hits per second of data. 128 bits is what your mind will process and that creates meaning+behavior. Which means your reality is a filtered, distorted, generalized version of events.

The subconscious mind → is like a tape player, change the tape, change/upgrade the mind. 

Our beliefs exist in our blindspot. The blindspot is created by the mind.

Become aware of your limiting beliefs, not by going in war with your thoughts but redirecting them.

You must leave out the idea that circumstances have any power over you, they don't.

Repetition helps you believe in your beliefs.

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If you suffer a lot with limiting beliefs i reccomend you writing them down, somewhere that you can acces easily. It might be a notebook, ypur notes app, whatever works for you. I want you to write all your limiting beliefs down. Doesn't matter if you have one or a lot, write them down. Then i want you to flip those beliefs, turn them around. Write them down as well, you can write them behind your limiting beliefs or create a new list. These are your new beliefs and you will stick to them.

Some examples:

I can't manifest, manifesting is hard and takes so long.➙ Manifesting is so easy, i always manifest instantly. Manifesting doesn't take long at all.

Money is hard to get➙ Money is easy to get, i get money effortlessly

You have to work for money➙ i don’t have to work for money, hell i can lay in bed all they and receive large amounts of money daily.

I am unlovable➙ No tf i’m lovable i’m perfect, i’m irresistible, everybody wants me. Period, I am so perfect.

They don’t love me➙ They love me, in fact they worship the ground i walk on, they need me, they can’t live without me.

They have another partner➙ Who? I AM their partner, they only love me. That was their cousin or their friend.

I am fat and ugly➙ I am so perfect and pretty, god i look so amazing. I am skinny, my body is so pretty and perfect.

See what i did here? I took my limiting beliefs and flipped them around. And i will now tick to these. Repeating them, not thinking back to those old stupid trashy beliefs. By repeating ypu will create a new assumption and that is what creates your "new" reality.

I promise you if you just persist and repeat in these new thoughts everything will work out for you.

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That was a long one, phew. Thanks for reading all the way to the end!!! Happy manifesting. Love you!!

XOXO

♥︎ in honor of adriana lima returning to the runway. 👼🏼

me too !!!

VSFS 2024 💗🪽

I’m so ready!!!

: ̗̀➛ Ways to take care of yourself

Make a workout plan that works well with your menstrual cycle.

Deep clean your room.

Take an everything shower.

Plan your week.

Eat a nutritious snack.

Try a new recipe.

Buy a new fragnance or scented lotion.

Stretch or do yoga.

Talk to yourself.

Look in the mirror and point out every nice thing about yourself.

Read or reread the book you love.

Study for the next test.

Cut blue light an hour before sleeping.

Drink tea after waking up.

Limit your screen time.

Don't surround yourself with negative media (art, posts, etc.).

Dress up nicely.

Research a topic you like

Replay your favourite game.

Spend some time with the person you love and care about.

Try to understand the cause of your bad habits.

Look at motivating (not toxic) posts.

Affirm after waking up and before going to sleep.

Buy a beautiful and comfortable pijama.

Rearrange your room.

Find a new, intresting hobby.

Look for a fragnance that suits you and your personality the best.

Write out the things you want to change about yourself.

Don't skip important hygiene; brushing teeth, washing hair, skipping skincare, showering.

Take a hot relaxing bath.

Completely relax and just think without any distractions; music, subliminals, etc.

Set a new yet small goal you want to work towards to.

Remind yourself of your journey and how far you've come.

Work on your posture.

Cuddle with your animal.

Take a nap.

Buy a new candle.

Romanticise your life and every small thing about it.

Drink some lemon/cucumber water.

Find a new intresting show.

Create a new playlist with your favourite songs.

Find a new comfort YouTuber.

Think about your fun childhood memories.

Try a new form of exercise.

Make a vision board.

Get a therapist, and if you can't: talk with strangers online.

Listen to yout favourite subliminals.

Create a moodboard.

Create a new peace of jewerly.

Give away the clothes you dont wear anymore.

Create a visionboard and look at it everyday while affirming.

Try a new makeup style.

Go out without doing your makeup.

Get used to your 'effortless' look; no makeup, lay clothes, tied hair.

Get used to failing and learn from your mistakes.

Be grateful for the simple things you're blessed with.

Listen to a podcast.

Go on a walk.

Choose your kind of 'perfection'.

Think about deep topics and write about it.

--- DIET & WORK OUT PLAN

Since I am short, I need less calories than a tall person. = 1400 calories daily with minimum 65g of protein (cut sugar, eat clean). 2L of water everyday and lots of tea!

Run for 40 to 60 minutes a day, do minimum 30 minute elongating pilates.

Drink a lot of warm tea and at least 2L of water.

I will listen to multiple fat loss and 20 cm waist subliminals 🌸

Lymphatic drainage massage, gua sha daily.

Do calming yoga before sleep and after waking up

snowflakes in my stomach when we’re kissing ⊹₊⟡⋆

heyy so ive been asking around about this but i feel like the hardest thing for me to manifest is a certain face / appearance changes — not because it’s hard to manifest in itself but i can never decide on a df or desired features.. how’d you choose yours, if you don’t mind me asking ?

* I'm really hapy to answer this, because I could never choose a DF too! I saw Taylor Hill for the first time few months ago, and I just FELT - like in my heart - that i want to look just like her. Every time i wanted to change my DF, it was just for a small period of time (like when I watched Leon The Professional and wanted to look like Natalie Portman for one evening, but didnt do anything to actually look like her). My eyes, nose and face shape is naturally similiar to Taylor's, and I always felt insecure about these features of mine.

* When I saw Taylors face card absolutely EATING UPP these features i became more confident about my eyes, nose and face shape. I always wanted to have eyes like for example Adriana Lima or Megam Fox even though they're literally the opposite of mine, and after i tried manifesting their face I just looked weird, so when I saw Taylor I just FELT it. I was sure, even though for some time I didnt want to look like her cuz I wanted to (for example) have Brooke Shields eyes, but then I just went with what my heart wants🩷 She really 'fits' my face and i look way much better now!

* If you still struggle with choosing your DF, then make an image where every single DF (past and present) of yours is in it and choose whoever looks more like you and just FEELS right ! Good luck angel 🩷🪽

* PS. If you choose the DF that feels right and then suddenly want to change it, just stop trying to manifest looking like anyone for a while so you give yourself time if you actually want to look like that person you suddenly felt the need to do so, or if you wanna look like someone you choose before 🌺

this is how my soul looks like 🤞🩷🪽

the tradwife movement is the same as it has always been - back in the kitchen, back to breeding - it just has better branding.

when i was younger, i hated pink. i was not like other girls. this is now something i'm embarrassed of - this was not me being a "girl's girl."

but it was expressing something many of us felt at the time: i literally wasn't what girlhood was supposed to be. this is a hard thing to explain, but you know when you're not performing girlhood correctly. it isn't as easy as "i liked x when girls liked y" - because there were other girls that liked x, too - but i never figured out exactly the correct way to like x, or to be interested in y.

now there is the divine feminine. this is the same rhetoric it has always been: women are biologically driven to like pink and ribbons and submitting to our husbands.

the problem is that the patriarchy found a better PR team. because yes, actually, i want every woman to have the choice to be a homemaker. i also want her taken seriously for her legitimate home-making labor. i want her to be recognized as also having a job, just unpaid. i want men to have this opportunity, too.

but it is no longer "i made this choice and I love it." instead it is a sixteen-paragraph rant about how selfish it is that my generation isn't having kids. instead it's long videos about how if you feed your children processed foods, you're going to kill them. instead it is "this is what womanhood is supposed to be. i feel bad for any other choices you're making."

the shame spiral is just prettier. it is large houses devoid of personality. it is the implication: if you don't have this, you aren't happy. the solid, everlasting assurance: women are actually supposed to be submitting. this is the default. this is the natural state of things. all other attempts inflict suffering.

but you can no longer say i'm not like other girls. you can no longer reject this image completely. you cannot find it revolting, even if you know that the underbelly is toxic and festering. sure, it is the same repackaged patriarchy. but the internet does not have shades of grey. you should support and reward other women! your disgust is actually internalized misogyny. not because you are seeing a vision of yourself the way they're trying to train you to be. not because you feel her ghost pass within an inch of your earlobe. not because your father will eventually ask you - why can't you be like her?

because they figured out how to make it beautiful: women will sell other women on this idea, and we will find the singular loophole in feminism. sure, she's shaming you in most of her videos. sure, she implies that a different life is obscene. but she just wants you to be happy! you'd be happier if you were listening!

and the whole time you're sitting there thinking: i'd actually just be happier if i had that kind of money.

i’m actually so tired of the idea women must only want to self improve because they hate themselves, and that their ambition to do and be better is actually just because they’re “victims” of brainwashing

me dreaming about the scenarios that WILL happen because it is divinely aligned for it to. my reality is simply a projection of my consciousness. everything is already working out the way it is supposed to. blessings otw.

don't forget who you are.

A limitless creator. Consciousness. A piece of god, or a god if that sounds easier. 

The point is, stop limiting yourself. Stop trying, stop forcing, stop it all for a second. It wasn’t until I realized how much of a control freak I really was this past week plus. How limiting I really was and it wasn’t until I read source again, along with threads from mutuals to really hit a home run. 

I kept being afraid of the world outside of me because of how it looked, how other people reacted to who I was, and because of how I perceived it all, I always thought living in fear was how to live. Growing up, I thought negativity was always a good thing. 

“Always remember, life is struggle.” “You can’t always get what you want.” “You can’t live in a dream world.” “You can’t do this because of xyz” “You’re not capable of reaching these goals” “Money is always hard to get.” “Love is never something you should want, it always hurts you. It removes sight of your goals.” “You can’t get this, stop trying to reach for the stars. Reach for a branch instead.” “You have to work hard to get what you want, or else you’ll fail.” They became normal to me, it was a branch I was holding onto for dear life, for some sense of reality. I always thought being “realistic” was the right way to go, to appease my family, to please others in life, to not focus on myself because that would mean I’m “selfish”. Still, to this day, I kept thinking that I was my stress, my anxiety, the world around me, the fears of my past, the doubts I've thought of, all of it.

I wasn’t. EVER. 

Honestly, even today, as I’m typing this blog, I had fear spike into me again. I had to really sit down and ask myself, why? Who was I being? Why was I being this? It wasn’t until I overconsumed yet again in my fear-filled state, searching for answers outside of me when I truly realized something today. 

I forgot how limitless I truly was. 

Hell, why learn the law? Why KNOW about the law if I was forgetting who I was? Why in the name of everything nice in this world was I forgetting that imagination/mind/consciousness was my only reality? I still needed to unlearn the fact that I can’t force myself to believe, I shouldn’t. It wasn’t until I read this thread, and Nyx’s (@nyxcreate) posts on tumblr and twitter again to realize the amount of limitations I was putting onto myself. Seriously, WHY was I making this so hard on myself? On my mindset? On who I was being? Another person I who I really look up to made a thread as well, which seriously resonated with me. This one.

While reading Nyx’s posts, I came across her thread on why she didn’t believe in persisting. To which, I wholeheartedly agree. If I was already that person, I wouldn’t be pounding my head with visuals to BE or GET something, I wouldn’t be forcing perfection onto something where perfection genuinely can’t exist. Remove rules and limitations and see how easier it gets. 

I won’t lie, it wasn’t easy. Ever since I learned about the law a few years ago, unlearning the limitations and “rules” life had placed onto me was hard. It wasn’t something I believed overnight or in a second, not when I was seeing those same patterns out in the world.

After what I read, here’s what I learned: Persistence (not in the way you think) wasn’t necessary - I mentioned this in my “states are a mindset” blog too, that persisting isn’t something you’re doing to GET something, it’s to become more comfortable being that person. Agreed. Think about it this way, you wanted to wear a red sweater today and eat hot cheetos, you wore a red sweater and you ate your hot cheetos, are you thinking about it all day? Are you forcing to remind yourself that you ate your hot cheetos and you’re wearing a red sweater? Are you always going back to it? I don’t think so. Sure, you might get a fleeting thought of “dang, I actually look good in this red sweater!” or “i actually got what i wanted to eat” (even if you don’t, that is genuinely completely fine.” But the notion that you need to persist to “become the change” or “to make it natural” was absurd to me, still is. You limit yourself when you think that you need to persist to “become another person” or to “get my sp”. Be so real with yourself, if you had that sp would you be pounding your head with affs that you have them? Would you constantly be visualizing scenes of you two being together 24/7? Really, ask yourself this. If you had the perfect body, you would just be that person, you would be confident and love your body. 

HOWEVER, this isn’t to say that if you enjoy methods to not do them! If I remembered at the end of the day that I wore a red sweater and ate hot cheetos, I might see it as a visual that happens naturally, never forced.  You only really “persist” to keep a change, to acknowledge the identity you have kept for yourself. To remind yourself that you have changed and are now not desiring. Heck, you can even choose NOT to persist if it sounds like too much effort, I did that and it gave me true peace. 

How do I actually believe in imagination? - stop trying to believe. If prior to the law, you saw the 3D as real and your imagination as fake, all you need to do is just flip that. It’s now your imagination is the real reality and this 3D world is fake. 

You’re consciousness moving in and out of states/mindsets, that’s okay - That is quite literally it’s job, to NOT stay in desire and to continuously move through states/mindsets/identities, it’s the reason why different people’s assumptions regarding life and what’s going on are different. No two people will perceive things the same way, one can see persisting as a chore, another can see it as peace, another can be in the middle, that’s okay. 

SELF REALIZATION: Just as all of this hit me, another fact just whacked me in the face. As a limitless being (consciousness) the only reason it exists is to not be in desire. Your whole reason of having desire is to just not have desire, you don’t deserve to live in desire knowing that imagination is the only true reality. THAT is where you’re limitless, not this 3D fleshy human body (that is in fact a garment your consciousness is wearing). When LOA influencers/bloggers or even the big man Neville himself tell you that imagination is god, they mean that your whole world, the world as you want it to be is available there. 

Genuinely make imagination your safe haven. You’re allowed to have doubts, fears, and anything of the sort because you KNOW that it’s part of the 3D, which also means you’re allowed to acknowledge it, but not let the limitless self be limited! Which also means you’re allowed to make your own rules! Yes, you are! You can do that! Remember, you’re not trying to create anything! Creation’s finished!

Want to feel like whenever you let your emotions out, something good will happen? Yeah! Whenever you decide something once, you have it? Yeah! You don’t want to exhaust yourself with methods? Sure! Do what makes you happy! This is truly a mindset switch from a limited being, to someone who is limitless! Perfection doesn’t come with it, it’s not supposed to be there so don’t worry about it. That’s something a close friend of mine @piercedblunt taught me :’) Manifesting is not supposed to feel forced, nor is it supposed to be draining you, if that’s the case, take a break from it. 

So what if you fall out of the state/mindset? Pick yourself back up again, limitless consciousness/awareness is always going to stay a part of you, you can’t just ditch it on the side of the road and think, “welp :/ guess i can’t get what I want” WHO CARES IF YOU CAN’T SEE SHIT OUTSIDE? THAT 👏ISNT👏YOUR👏JOB👏.NEVER HAS BEEN? Now that you’re allowing yourself to be limitless, why would that be an issue? So what if you didn’t see that grade right now? You’re still limitless, aren’t you? Why are you still seeing your emotions as something that’ll hinder you when that is PART OF THE 3D? You’re allowed to just observe/acknowledge it as something you’re feeling, hell, even if you forget you’re limitless, it’ll come back to you eventually. Whether that’s in a minute, a day, a week, a year, you’ll remember your limitless self, you can’t run away from it. To learn more about this, I learned from this thread. I highly recommend reading Star’s loa threads if you’re interested on the mental health/self-love side of LOA, as I resonate dearly with what she has to say. 

To wrap it all up:

Back when I was in high school, I remember I really wanted to manifest a snow day for myself (this was back when I first found out about states). It had been ages since then and I’m pretty sure there was also this assignment I wanted an extension on, so I hit two birds with one stone and manifested a snow storm, which lead to a snow day. The way I did it truly understood that this 3D world cannot fulfill me, it really can’t, it’s not it’s job to. All I did was decide, I asked myself, if I woke up and KNEW that I had a day off because of a school day, what would I be doing? How would I go about the day? How would I react to my school emailing me about bus cancellations? An image just naturally popped up of my school board cancelling buses, all because I decided to be the person who would’ve been having a snow day. After that, I went to sleep, I had gotten rid of desire because I knew my limitless self had experienced it and was experiencing it already. 

I woke up that next morning literally forgetting that I had made that decision, checked the time and saw that it was twenty minutes until my bus would arrive to pick me up for school. My dad came into my room, confused. He literally told me “what are you doing? Your school board emailed everyone that there’s a snow day today and possibly tomorrow with the storm, you’re not going to school? Check your email”. Mind you, I genuinely was confused, but also in the back of my mind felt pretty normal, fulfilled, natural. All because of a decision. Well, one I ultimately forgot T-T. 

But see how I didn’t “persist”? Where did I visualize 24/7? Where did I pound my head with affirmations? Where did I “act as if” in the 3D? Where was there force? When you truly let your limitless self thrive, you learn to not give a crud about the 3D, with practice it all falls into place. (btw this little section is inspired by one of Jay’s blogs as it also cemented how easy it is to use the law!!) 

When we say to fall in love with your new mindset, we basically mean to fall in love with your limitless self. Fall into the abundance, the joy, the relief, the weight of your worries disappearing, all of it. If you fall out, you identify with the 3D, feel like you “slipped up”, you genuinely didn’t, my love. It’s when you think that you did slip up is when you should remind yourself, creation is and was finished the moment you decided you had what you want. Another thing, don’t be afraid to “mess up” in terms of learning the law. Even us bloggers go through it too, we’re also human as well at the end of the day, with real emotions, real feelings, real lives and that is always okay. Make it a habit to understand and love both the human you, and your limitless self. You’re allowed to be free in imagination but also cry over stress. You’re allowed to not live in desire, but also make it a habit to check in with how you feel. You’re allowed to give yourself your wildest dreams, and you can still allow yourself to drop the feelings of guilt or the past. You’re always allowed to forgive, don’t forget that. 

Don’t forget who you are. 

Cheers, 

Kaeya <3

---- 2/10/2024 entry

* Today I downloaded GTA the trilogy!! I'm starting with GTA III and it looks good.

* My sister is changing schools, she's 18 so she can do whatever she wants but my mom is so heartbroken, it's so sad to see her this way.

* I felt an urge to relapse into starving, but I KILLED that urge, murdered, gone !!

* On Monday I'll have swimming classes so i decided to go on a 1200 kcal diet until Monday, I'll do HIIT daily and walk a lot + 16:8. Ik thats kinda unhealthy but i wanna look good quick and i swear ill return to eating normal after monday LOLLL

* I was on a walk with my mom for like an hour and a half, I absolutely love walking with her, and I love her, she's the best <3

* That's it lol, nothing really happenned :') byeee🩷🪽

---- 1/10/2024 entry

* It's finally october, yay! I love fall, it's so cozy and its perfect for staying inside, sleeping, reading or baking. It's also the month where i will start my diet and working out again, since tomorrow ill have a mini treadmill!

* Today was fine, ig. I had two tests at school and got A's from both. After school I slept the whole day. The only thing that makes me kinda mad is that I have two freaking pimples on my forehead, ughhh I hate getting my period.

* Did yall heard about the Diddy situation? I digged so much into it, spent 3 hours straight watching YouTube videos about it that I don't think I'll sleep tonight. Im just so sorry for his victims - he's disgusting and he's gonna rot in hell. I also believe he killed Tupac..

* That's it for today! Ik, pretty boring, but a journal is a journal, so I had to write an entry loll !! Bye angels xx 🩷🪽