My Parents Act (especially Fight) As If They Were 5 Years Old

I hate my parents for fatshaming me and encouraging me to get disordered eating patterns. I hate them for fueling my ed. I hate them for hating my body and making me hate my body. I hate them for making me diet at the age of nine even though I was thinner than my class mates just to teach me how a "real women diets" (even when my mum fails at every diet attempt) I hate them for not caring, for pushing me even further, for wanting me to stick to my diet rules.

I hate them for destroying my body, my life, everything I have

meanspo tw

⚠️ this is meant for me. this is directed at me. ⚠️

so, you're really gonna fucking like him when you're that fat? look at yourself. you're sitting on his bed writing meanspo. you're not dating him, you're watching him play video games. jesus, no wonder you're not with him. your chin rolls don't stop, your thighs are so big they're bulging. your stomach is sticking out so far, your nails don't even look good on your hands bevause of how chubby they are. your arms look like they're straight off a cow, you're digusting. now go home and work out. burn calories instead of sitting on your lazy, fat ass. cow.

Oversized sweater themed thinspo

Tw!!!!!

Self harm

So this evening, i felt the urge to self harm when my parents made me feel like shit BUT instead of cutting myself like i wanted to, i went for a run and enjoyed a warm shower after that :)

I am so happy because to me, it is always a huge problem to resist the urge to self harm :)

yeah being hungry sucks but have you ever been full? shit feels nasty

You can’t spell yummy without ‘umm’

Think before you eat.

Will cut off a pice every time I reach that weight

I HATE my father so much

He is so commanding and controlling. He only does whatever he pleases to do and not a single thing more. He is truly convinced that his opinion is the only acceptable one and simply starts shouting whenever a minor thing doesnt go the way he wants it to

I hate him so so much

10 things to do if you feel like binging

1. Listen to music

2. Paint your nails.

3. Do at least 1 homework assignment

4. Go outside and get some air

5. Text/FaceTime a friend

6. Go on tumblr(my favorite😛)

7. Take a shower or bath

8. Play with a pet

9. Do your makeup

10. Do a chore like dishes, or laundry

10 low cal foods to eat

1. Popcorn (50 calories per cup)

2. cucumbers (16 calories in a cup)

3. Rice cakes (30 calories per cake)

4. Lettuce(5 calories per cup!!!)

5. Pickles(16 calories per cup)

6. Carrots( 45 calories per cup)

7.broth (16-ish calories per cup)

8. Watermelon(46 calories per cup)

9.Egg whites(16 calories per egg-also high in protein)

10. Plain non fat yogurt(137 calories per cup)

10 things to do after you binge

1. Take a deep breath, it’s okay

2. Drink at least one cup of water

3. Go on a walk

4. Try and write down what foods made you binge so it won’t happen again

5. Clean up any messes you made

6. Take a shower

7. Write down a plan on how not to binge next time

8. Do something productive

9. Purging isn’t worth it

10. Try again tomorrow❤️