Crazzyyyramblings - Crazy

i hate when men are funny and kind and smart and silly and caring and pretty. stop it dude you're ruining my sleep schedule.

All my life, I have been living for other people. Most of the decisions I have made were because someone else wanted me to make them. It's time to start living for myself, but I have no interest in life at all. Killing myself will be the most selfish thing that I will ever do, but at least it will be my own decision.

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I love hearing boys ramble about shit I do NOT understand. You are so hot when you are incoherent. I’m glad you make sense to you though.

I don't want to wake up tomorrow morning

what if we were tussling and roughhousing and it suddenly got more intense. what if we went harder and harder at it until our noses are bloodied and chests were heaving and we separated with ragged breaths, checking over ourselves for damage. but then what if we catch each other staring, what if we start to reach for each other with shaking, exhausted arms. what if we kissed, tasted each other’s blood on our lips and tongues

Deep rooted problems

trying not to get attached

i want a gf or a bf or a partner or some undisclosed fourth thing i dont care about gender or what people call "standards" i just want somebody to fucking love me

i think I bother everyone by being alive