When They Think They Can Hurt Me, But I Have An Emotionally Immature Mum And An Emotionally Unavailable

sometimes life feels just terrible and that's how I am tried to get over it today

some days i think i’m okay and some days i wish i was six feet in the ground

Do forgotten things belong in dreams?

Surely, even the nights that slip away from the mind still yet cling to being.

Why else do we dream of both the most beautiful and the wondrous things?

What was left by another can mean everything to someone new.

Growing up with an absent father is all funny haha daddy issues until it’s one of those rage filled nights of sobbing wondering why he would subject you to this.

“Absent Father“

1. “Hey “dad” I did it without you.”

2. “Having kids doesn’t make you a father raising them does.”

3. “My dad broke my heart way before any boy had the chance to.”

4. “If a man cannot be a father to his own child, there is nothing worse than that.”

5. “Just remember when you are ignoring her, you are teaching her to live without you.”

6. “He was supposed to be the first male love of her life search for him everywhere.”

7. “A father may turn his back on his child, but a mother’s love endures through all.“

8. “Respect to all moms doing double duty because of men failing to do their part as dad.“

9. “When you grew up with an absent father, you grew up dreaming and wanting.“

10. “Don’t forgive him. Forgive yourself for believing there is something lacking in you because he wasn’t there.“

11. “One of the saddest things in this world, is to see a child grow up hating one of their parents -father

12. “I miss the father you never were.”

13. “There's nothing worse than a man that can be everything to everybody

else except a father to their own child.“

There is something undeniably romantic about touching someone. Your fingers brushing against their bare skin, the pulse of heartbeat beating in tune to yours, the muted warm of life in them, pressed up against you. For a moment, for the slightest of split-seconds, your souls are perfectly in sync

I’m other news, I just accidentally touched my crush’s hand and I immediately started blushing and stammering

how I crave to feel loved and enjoyed. I want to feel as though my presence is desired and beloved. I want my heart to feel full. but it's not about what I want. this is exactly what I deserve. I am hideous and vile. I am gross and deceitful. apathetic and unlovable, just as it was intended.

I have no reason to live but no energy to kill myself

I don't feel like I exist in reality if no one notices me. But relying on people's approval is never a good idea.