And Then Youre Gonna Run To Her And Forget I Exist

Yeah you gotta call her boss, sorry, she gets off on it.

I think there's a misconception surrounding depression that it's the same as sadness, however I don't think that's it. I'm here laying awake at 5 am after waking up for no reason at 3:30, and I want to die even though I don't feel particularly sad in fact, I'm pretty sure I don't feel anything at all. I feel sad often, right now I don't. But I still think that I don't want to continue living anymore.

Maybe I just want to be something that could justify my existence.

I want to be special, so I could deserve love.

Maybe I can finally deserve love if my existence doesn't feel so meaningless.

If I wasn't such a burden, then maybe I can be loved.

I want to be easy to love.

My flaws are making it harder so.

I am difficult.

It feels wrong to desire something as great as love.

☀️

Doesn't matter how much effort I put in, right? It's hard to love me.

post-post clarity when you're looking at your post on the dash like who gives a fuck. delete

me when being in a relationship doesn’t make me want to live forever and cure me of my depression

i need to pull a boy close by his belt loops and kiss him so hard he sees stars