Me When Being In A Relationship Doesn’t Make Me Want To Live Forever And Cure Me Of My Depression

what the fuck did i do SO wrong that i have to feel like this for the rest of my life

I used to do personality tests a lot, looking for something to tell me who I really am, an answer that's satisfying.

People would describe me and it never felt real, but who was I to dispute it?

I never felt like I knew who I was and every description of me, from golden admiration to scathing hatred, never felt like it was me.

no one haunts me more than the spirit of my wasted potential

the problem with me is when i’m in love i’ll devote myself for eternity like a vampire

“hey what’s the vibe for the fall?” great question!!

it’s actually this image for the 18th year in a row

"it gets better" - but i've been this way since i was a child.

"SURVIVING"

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I hate it when people ask me if I'm feeling something. Are you excited? Nervous? What do you want to watch? Do you wanna do something? Are you relieved now that it's over? Happy that you graduated? Proud to have achieved so much?

The answer is literally no. I have dysthymia, I do not care about anything nor have I for a long time. There is no point to anything so why would I have feelings related to something being important?

Thanks for reminding me that I'm empty inside though. Now I feel depressed about that so I guess I do have feelings after all. It's sure nice to graduated BSc and feel only sadness because you're not feeling happy about it.

People when someone with bpd starts showing symptoms of a literal personality disorder that can’t be romanticized: 😮 😡