Am I Not Good Enough For You?

this might not be relatable at all but like. is there any other trans masc who isnt *nearly* as dysphoric without clothes as they are with?

cus like. if i look at myself shirtless its kinda like. yeah obviously i wish i had a flat chest but its like oh well i can deal with this for now.

but when im wearing clothes and you can see my chest with them on???? even if im wearing a binder?? i feel like ripping my hair off and do diy top surgery with the nearest sharp object i can find

"Scratch that. I want to be loved. I want her to love me."

INTRODUCTION, I Would Leave Me If I Could, Halsey

trying not to get attached

Memories Made In Moonlight

Watercolor on Black Cotton Paper

2024, 9"x 12"

Blue Forget Me Nots

Private Collection

I wish

Or maybe home is just two arms wrapped around you when you're at your worst.

And in the end I seriously don't think I could actually kill myself. When it all boils down, I truly don't think I'd be able to. But thinking of it and obsessing over and all the what ifs and possibilities somehow makes me feel a little better. It's terrifying yet soothing. And I know that doesn't make sense. I can't make sense of it.

Sitting around waiting to be messaged and flirted with and paid attention to

sometimes life feels just terrible and that's how I am tried to get over it today