I Fake Being Well.

I wish

Or maybe home is just two arms wrapped around you when you're at your worst.

feeling a bit silly today

having a crush is so embarrassing like. oh shit sorry I accidentally thought about you being my boyfriend. I wont do it- oh shit sorry. I. Did it again. Oh fuck sorry i. i thought about kissing you on accident fuck. sorry. oh shit i just thought about us holding hands sorry bro. i am forcibly removed from the stage by several bodyguards.

I hate it when people ask me if I'm feeling something. Are you excited? Nervous? What do you want to watch? Do you wanna do something? Are you relieved now that it's over? Happy that you graduated? Proud to have achieved so much?

The answer is literally no. I have dysthymia, I do not care about anything nor have I for a long time. There is no point to anything so why would I have feelings related to something being important?

Thanks for reminding me that I'm empty inside though. Now I feel depressed about that so I guess I do have feelings after all. It's sure nice to graduated BSc and feel only sadness because you're not feeling happy about it.

getting misgendered by adults but universally correctly gendered by children makes me feel like some sort of fairy creature thats true form is only perceptible to children

tryna >:3 my way into getting other trans dudes to dominate me

A little less lonely