Crazzyyyramblings - Crazy

I have no reason to live but no energy to kill myself

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digital painting I did of my boyfriend and I a while back. he is my world

Idk if thats a bpd or a me thing

the heart dropping and breaking feeling in your chest + an indescribable amount of rage immediately when you feel even slightly jealous <<<<

And in the end I seriously don't think I could actually kill myself. When it all boils down, I truly don't think I'd be able to. But thinking of it and obsessing over and all the what ifs and possibilities somehow makes me feel a little better. It's terrifying yet soothing. And I know that doesn't make sense. I can't make sense of it.

and then youre gonna run to her and forget i exist