scoliosis
I always feel that I'm being taken for granted by my loved ones, but the real problem is that I allow them to do so, I've ruined things for myself, I am easily approachable and accessible, that's why I get treated this way. I always thought being there for others is a nice thing but in reality it sucks, you lose your value in that process, i wish to not to be taken for granted for actually caring for my loved ones and being easy only for them, someday someone might actually understand me and take me seriously and not some kind of joke. I just wish to be treated right and not for granted
some days i think i’m okay and some days i wish i was six feet in the ground
In every kind man I see what would’ve been.
sometimes i just sit and think. wow i should end my life
the intimacy of knowing what someone's hands feel like
having bpd and also being a people pleaser is so weird because i will hate someone when they’re not with me and swear i’ll ignore them, and then 15 minutes later i’ll pick up their call and spend the next five hours with them
*having sex* w-wait... *opens closet, pulls out rope* I was going to use this to kms but like hey *ties u up*
I used to do personality tests a lot, looking for something to tell me who I really am, an answer that's satisfying.
People would describe me and it never felt real, but who was I to dispute it?
I never felt like I knew who I was and every description of me, from golden admiration to scathing hatred, never felt like it was me.