Doing My First Liquid Fast Today (allowed Myself Dr Pepper, Coffee, And Chocolate Milk) And This Shit

i’m actually so disgusted by my body.

Food will forever be the enemy and nobody can talk me out of it.

(44 lbs) which would bring me down to <100lbs (45kg) PLEASEEEEE

B1nged over the weekend which means all I get to eat this week is regret and self hatred 🥲

She's literally th1nspo

I don't want anything but to look like her.

My new rules for this year trying to lose w3!ght as fast as possible!!

• only 3at when I have to

• only 3at in front of people

• try for 10,000 steps a day

• drink as much water as possible

• work out at the very least twice a day

• shower every single day with cool water (burns a few extra c@ls and is good for skin and dyed hair!)

• check Tumblr often

• make inspo boards (might post them!)

• exercise as much as I can everyday

• keep myself busy!

• never take my belly chain off so I can feel if I get bigger or smaller :3

• take care of myself better in any way except f00d! (Like teeth, skin, hair, ect :3)

I might edit and add to this! If you have any ideas for me to add definitely comment or dm!!

the urge to look like a monster<3

I want my body to look how I feel. It's rotting it should look like it. I want cuts. Deep cuts. Red lines all over. Deep purple and green bruises. Bones jutting out. Hollowed cheeks. Sunken eyes and dark eyebags underneath them. Black rot littering it all. Why do I have to still shine, look like I'm fine. The light is extinguished there is nothing left. I want my body to show its true nature, show how it really feels. Let me rot in peace.

vomited some of it up ❤️‼️ but i forgot how hard it is for me to get myself to vomit ive gotta just stop eating man

I KEEP EATING😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔 someone restrain me istg i need to get to a new lw 128 lbs i fucked up come back

You know for somebody who let's their ed rule their life, I sure do suck at having an ed