I've Gone From Refusing To Call What I Experienced Trauma To Looking Into Finding A Psychiatrist To See

This. But whenever I see it or experience it, you're damned if you do, damned if you don't. Either way, they treat you like another cog in the machine and you're going to be used as an example to keep the wheels turning.

If you leave and try to break the cycle... "Well look at him. There's a reason we don't talk to him much..." You'll be shamed and possibly humiliated.

If you stay and just do as you're told, you're still being abused, but like op said, you're used as an example to keep abusing others

I also forgot that if you cater to abusive family for the rest of your life they will also use you as an “example” for other children, to abuse and shame them into doing as they want… Its like “hey, That relative did it all and managed to do it all, then YOU must do that too.”

Its also kinda weird I guess. To your face they always only say how bad you are and how much you disappoint them, yet at the same time they will compare other relatives to you specifically to make them feel bad and like a disappointment. I will never understand that part of family life.

It sucks for some big media thing to incidentally have an idea you also had, but never posted anywhere.

Because now if you do anything with it people will go "omg this is like [blank] ! I can see you were inspired by it !"

And I'll say "no actually" and they'll be like whatever, but in the back of their mind they'll think I'm lying.

I guess the positive thing is that the whole time I thought maybe it was stupid, but actually it seems like everyone liked it and thought it was cool. In a way you made something people clearly enjoyed.

Someone please tell me what kind of things are normal to talk about on dates? I'm going on my first date tonight (we're watching Venom) and I have no clue what to talk about. I'm currently into Genshin and Jojo's bizarre adventure. He's not into JoJo and only casually plays genshin. I can't really talk about spiderman or any other marvel characters because I don't know much about any marvel heroes. I can't just info dump about my obsessions the whole time please help.

I don't think it matters how small your account it. They will come for you if they feel like it. Also odd that they're not targeting very many transmascs from what I've seen.

Maybe it's not even regular transphobia. Maybe it's also misogyny.

Anyway, I hope someone at the corporate level stages a fucking coup or something because this isn't how you run a business. Tumblr already S T R U G G L E S to make money, and targeting both its previous, dwindling user base and the new stream of users who have slowly trickled in to get away from other transphobic apps will slowly but surely actually kill the site this time. Tumblr will truly die, and it will be his fault.

here’s the most frustrating part is we see who is being repeated deleted off this site and there’s no one to go to to be like what the fuck is happening? like. we won’t get any explanation and if we do it’ll be some watered down, corporate esque response that literally gives no information and will distance any moderator from the situation. i hate this. i hate how powerless i feel as a user, a mutual to the trans women being repeatedly targeted. i can’t do shit to fix this. no one can do anything besides remake and cross fingers that the blog will survive.

I feel like my brain is just broken beyond repair.

Nobody knows what wrong with it. All we know is that something is wrong.

Whatever it is is irreparable. All I can do is learn to live with it, but I don't want to. It's not fair.

Remember that I love you + dungeon meshi

The conflicting feeling has returned.

You've been terrible to me and I want you to face consequences.

But you're in danger and I don't want anything awful happening to you.

But you've done so much to hurt me over the years.

But you've also done so much to help me.

You were apathetic towards my plight and my cries often fell on deaf ears.

I would help you if I could but my untreated and undiagnosed disorders and years of abuse have led me to a terrible mental state and I have no funds to help you.

My abuser needs to go to the hospital. They refuse. Their ailment could get worse. I have no car, nor license, nor insurance, nor funds and I cannot help them.

I would like to show just the smallest bit of mercy to my abuser, despite how often they refused to show me even a grain of it, but we are both helpless for the time being....

There is no better feeling in the world than coming home from a long day at working and starting off your weekend by pulling the one character you've wanted for so long in the gacha game you're currently obsessing over. Mona Megistus is my wife now. Don't touch her.

ADHD pro tip: Use psychological warfare on yourself.

For example, in order to do long tasks, like folding laundry, I put on the Mario Hat:

The main feature of the Mario hat is that my headset does not fit over it, so when The Bees™ try to put me back in front of the screen, the headset issue forces me to remember why I put the Mario hat on, and back to the task I go

As a bonus, the Mario hat is also a very clear indicator to my housemates that business is getting done, and they have learned not to distract me when I'm wearing the "goofy-ass cosplay hat"

It's not stupid if it works.

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