I Will Be Rid Of The World. I Will Be Erased, Eradicates, Removed, And Forgotten About. Everything I’ve

I hate this so much I just wish I was fucking normal I feel guilt and shame and embarrassment. And fucking stupid. I’m so fucking stupid. I am so goddamn dumb im a fucking home im so paranoid and feel so fucking awful

My hands got soaked in blood from punching my legs so hard it re-opened my self harm from a couple of hours ago

It's all my fault I've ruined my own life and now I have to deal with it and instead of taking accountability like a man I'm threatening suicide like a pussy and this is why I don't deserve to live and why I should be killed I am actually so evil I’m not kind I’m not nice I’m not thoughtful I am actually genuinely so evil

I think im going to kill myself

I’m so excited to finally fucking do it I am so excited about it I think it may be the only thing making me happy anymore. Knowing I don’t have to deal with this shit anymore. I don’t have to be perfect or fake for anybody or those stupid fucking cunt “friends” of mine I can finally just leave without a trace and move on. Everyone else can move on. I will be forgotten about and my online presence will disappear and dissipate and I just can’t fucking wait. What was once a stain will finally be thoroughly cleansed and taken care of. I will not be a mistake to humanity anymore. I will finally be able to forgive myself

I actually have not been this freaked out in forever I broke my self harm streak my stomach is swollen from how hard I beat myself everything hurts I just can’t do it anymore

I wish I could show myself off like </33 I want to bottom so bad but it feels like I can’t 4 nobody it’s so terrible oughe 💔💔💔

I fucking miss uou I hate yyou

I just want you back I know I can’t have it and in reality I know it would be terrible to have you back. In reality I don’t even fucking want you back. But im spiraling and im so lost without you. I dont know what to do. I feel I still love you. I dont know what to fucking do. I just dont want to live anymore. I just want to fucking die. I hate you but god I would do anything for you in my life again. I just wish we could reverse time. I wish this didn’t happen. I wish j wasn’t alive

What have I done to make you disgusted by me