“do you struggle with an 3d?” Clearly. I keep binging.
Okay but why do I actually kinda love writing essays
ana culture is washing the measuring cups but leaving your dirty dishes in the sink
Okay. Just because I've always been fat or chubby or "average" doesn't mean it has to stay this way forever.
The monster cans have got to be at least a quarter of the experience, heck, a third. Have you ever looked at them closely, because man, these designs are just STUNNING.
(Today I some monster into a glass to check it's color like a normal person just does, and drinking from the can in comparison was just. So much better.)
War is over y'all
(I successfully changed my bedsheets in less than an hour)
To me it kind of feels like I won't truly live until I'm skinny. That right now, there is still a wall I need to cross until I'm "on the other side" or something, when my life can finally begin.
The next few days are going to be incredibly busy for me, but that's awesome because I'll literally won't have time to eat :D
I'm not going to try and fast though, because I will need the energy
It started today with me having to stay at school until 6pm (🥲) because of choir practice, tomorrow I'll have to leave almost right after school to play at a concert (I know I'll barely have time to change and maybe practice the pieces one last time)
And on Saturday I'll have singing stuff from 8am to 4pm
Both crying and laughing right now because I know I'll be DRAINED when all this is over, but I won't be around my parents to watch me eat, I won't be at home with all the binge food and I'll probably be to busy to even think about eating anything, hopefully
As I mentioned though, I will be having dinner, because it's the only time I'll be around my parents and I will really need that energy
Fuck it, Dad actually bought me the weed protein bar let's fucking go
Was looking for protein bars today and there was one with weed
Also a guy had a monster energy t shirt and I fucking need that