"i'm So Bored I Don't Know What To Do!!!" I Said With 4 Homeworks To Do, 11 School Texts To Copy, A Test

Sometimes I just like to drink hot water no tea no nothing

I swear it tastes different than cold water

It's true that you shouldn't stay in the "fuck it, whatever" mindset after a binge - food-wise, anyway. You most of the time can't make up for binges - physically, again. But you can stay out of the "my day is ruined and I'll wallow in self-pity for the rest of it" been there, done that.

But honestly? That's NEVER worth it. So why not make use of the energy - and not by working out or trying to make up for it, because that's not gonna happen and because it doesn't work, you'll feel even more it was a bad day. No, try to do homework, a creative project, sit down for video games or movies, whatever. Something to distract you and that makes you still think by the end of the day, that even if you binged, you had a great or productive time and so that you can end it on a good note.

I get that it's difficult, but chances are high that due to this disorder, you neglect other thing which were once important to you - so see that as a way to make up for that, even make up for the binge in a different way if you want, but make it feel like you still spent your time with something positive, that wasn't for nothing by the end of it.

i feel so gross knowing i ate all the food on my plate but they didn’t even make a dent in theirs. like hello wdym

my week has been going well but then today I ate some biscuits.... which were like 500 cals.

I feel so fucking guilty now and I'm going to have to have dinner with my family later, and tomorrow is my friend's birthday and she loves food and it's Saturday so I'll have to eat two meals instead of one, and none of that would be so bad had I not fucksed up today

Tw: Talk of self harm, vent

So, we got this new girl in our class and she doesn't bother hiding her scars - they're all over her arms and look like they were quite deep and I don't know if I'm wrong or being an asshole for feeling like this, but a while ago I kind of told a friend of mine that I used to cut (I told her "used to" so she wouldn't actively worry and at that time, I was really trying to quit) and now we have to take these stupid swimming classes - and don't get me wrong, I'm actually glad I don't have these permanent bright pink scars (I have some which are like dents in my skin, but mostly mine are white or light pink) and I schedule when I do cut in a way they'll be as healed as possible for the next swimming period - and I just feel like such an attention-seeking crybaby now for having told my friend without even looking like it's bad - heck, maybe she didn't even notice at all, because she hasn't said a word to me about it!

And I feel so bad for feeling somewhat, well, competitive towards that girl in a way, because I didn't start off for attention at all and now the last thing I want is to be discovered probably, but I guess I'm just really worried about what my other friend thinks of me now, but I can impossibly bring it up to her-

It's just really something else when you see something on the internet, sometimes even as "motivation", than seeing it in real life.

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I love the sun I love sunny stuff this is the most beautiful time of the year and I'm so here for it

I hate my body more than I like food.

At this point, I'm not even trying to quit cutting properly

I only quit because of the swimming classes at school I have to take, but I don't fucking care anymore, as long as I don't do it a couple of days ahead it's fine

I never wanted to stop for myself and I guess I won't then, just maybe lower, well, the amount a little

to cut or to not cut, that is the question. except im an addict and we all know the answer