I Noticed Yesterday That Creame Colored Flare Jeans Were Looser On Me Than Last Time And I Am Really

I love my wrists because they are not thick and I can see how much I have already lost but every damn fucking time i look at my ankles I wanna cry because they are so thick.

For what reason??? Ugh...

Fuck me for being so bad at everything lmaooo

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 2.

I ate only this morning and fasted the whole day. Tomorrow is another sucky one because I accompany mom to her work place then go to school so she will ask me to bring something and knowing myself I will eat it probably, but let's hope for the best!

✧ ° ｡ʚ 🍓 ɞ ｡° ✧

➁ Apples (211g) - 110 cal

➀ Black coffee with ice - 0 cal

➀ Tuna-egg-mayo sandwich - 280** cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0cal

Water - 3l/2l

Full - 390** cal

✧ ° ｡ʚ 🍓 ɞ ｡° ✧

Steps - 8510/10000 - 346 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 346 cal

*edit - math is not my strong suit and i added the tomorrow's sandwich's stats too...

**edit 2 - I forgot that I need to count in percentage when I multiply (my last math lesson was 2 years ago)

Accurate 🥲

I don't like vanilla cherry diet coke but I feel like I need it, because it would probably prevent me from eating.

I was "fasting" all day but ate at night when I came home so it feels like I cheated. 12 hours basically out of the window.

I don't understand why I can't stop myself. Not too long ago was so easy.

skinny is the only way to prove people wrong.

giving up is just letting you and other people down.

Edblr how are we

reblog if your an active ed account oct 2023 ♡

my edblr is dry looking for mutuals!

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 9

Been fasting all day, yippee! It was really cold today and had to wear a sweater and a jumper over it and both of them felt looser.

Tomorrow will be a bit warmer fortunately, but overall I am glad that autumn is finally showing up, even though it was kinda late this year.

I also went shopping with mom and I saw so so SO many nice knitted sweaters. I always like just trying clothes on or just looking at the colors, feeling the fabric, trying to find the best kind of material. I uses to buy XXL clothes to feel comfortable in, to feel that they are lose on my body. This time I bought an XL and it felt loose and comfortable, even though I only lost 5kg so far.

I also bought hairdye with my classmate and dyed my hair from a poopie blonde and greenish blue to a color that matches Hatchi's haircolor. My ends stayed a lilac color because the blue stained my hair pretty bad, but it's fine because I will dye my hair until it fades or comes out.

✧ ° ｡ʚ 🍓 ɞ ｡° ✧

➀ Plain black coffee - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal

Water - 1.2l/2l

Full - 0 cal

✧ ° ｡ʚ 🍓 ɞ ｡° ✧

Steps - 11499/10000 - 462 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 462 cal

Since September wasn't my month I decided that in october i would track all my intake and everything else here.

I did fail myself and today on top of that I ate like a pig because I was consume with this hunger. So many unnecessary calories, so many things I don't even like and yet I still ate it.

I could cry, but I'm no bitch. Sure I failed and I have these silly little downs and thoughts that just push me to eat, I know in the end it will be okay. I just need to be better and forgive myself when I slip.

Therefore, october will be my month.