I've Been A Mess Lately, But It's A Good Kind Of Mess. I Actually Felt ~happy~ Yesterday. It Was A Foreign

My mental health has taken such a large shit as of late. This week needed to be productive as hell and I'm barely barely barely keeping up with what needs to happen. I'm working 4 full days next week and I have 3 group meetings and 1 class presentation and 1 group report on an experiment and all the other shit I've been dealing with. Online school is kicking my ass y'all

Online school is really hard with 3 asynchronous classes and a mostly asynchronous class with 1/2 synchronous. It's been a challenge to manage the work load because everything has different due dates and different module lengths. Also, the due dates change a lot. Hopefully this helps (example week too far ahead to completely fill in)?

My grandma is being put into a hospice. I'm not ready to lose her 💔

Any support means a lot. She's been fighting cancer for years now and the radiation and chemo caught up with her fragile body. She originally fell and cracked her hip - first admitted to the hospital. Then she was put into a rehab where they weren't taking care of her incision or giving her the physical therapy they said they were. She developed the worst level bedsore. It went all the way to her tailbone. She was then moved to this new place. They were taking great care of her, but the bedsore never healed. They recommended hospice. She fell out of bed last night. Now she's going to a new facility and they're letting visitors in (double masks, etc). I haven't been able to touch her or see her in person since maybe Novemeber or Decemeber - everything is a blur with my grandpa passing away around then. She never got to see him because of covid restrictions. I 100% agree why they're in place - it's just so hard to watch my loved one dying through a window while assholes continue to walk around without masks on and preaching complete bullshit about the virus.

Any tips for dealing with a parent who won't acknowledge your accomplishments? Tonight was my university's honors convocation. I sent my mom a link to the YouTube video (it was a virtual ceremony) and told her the time my picture came on the screen. She read it and never said anything. It's been about 2 hours. I was actually proud of myself, but now I'm bummed out. It's like when she said she would go to my K-12 band concerts and then I'd look for her in the audience and she wouldn't be there because she "forgot" or something like that.

My disappointing watermelons from this past fall. In case you are wondering, they looked and tasted completely normal despite being smaller than they should have been.

I have no idea how I got a 5 on the AP Econ Marcoeconomics exam junior year of high school. I'm looking at your notes and recognized I once crammed this knowledge in, but it's now gibberish.

back with economics!!

it’s the 21st day of the 21st year of the 21st century.

you can only reblog this today.

Today I am trying to get ahead with my classes. My classes started this past Wednesday and it is now Saturday. I feel very disorganized because my asynchronous classes have me completing modules, but not all of the due dates are posted. It's really hard to find a schedule, but I'm going to set that up today. Today I'm working on:

1) reading curriculum guidelines on online experiences

2) making my initial discussion post about it

3) finding an old algebra or geometry textbook in my basement to help me brainstorm ideas for the 5+ hours of related internet instruction I'll be creating for a class

4) setting up an outline of my first lesson plan

5) reading 2 short chapters for another class

6) watching a presentation

7) looking at a long term assignment

8) making another initial discussion post

*I'd work at my desk but my father currently has Netflix blaring and is snoring. I can still hear literally everything but this is the quietest room in the house. If I go near him I'm probably going to end up screaming at him about how impossible it is to work in this house. My state is currently in full shut down (no indoor dining, no libraries for studying, I'm not allowed on school campus, etc). I guess my room is as good as it gets.

Transgender Day of Visibility.

Happy leaf sweeper

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