I Have A Lanyard That I Always Wear Outside The House And Sometimes In The House. On It I Have Mg Tangle,

My family is talking about puking like it’s a joke and I feel like I’m going to cry

There is no reason to joke about “spewing pasta salad.”

I think my mom doesn’t think i still have “that random fear”

I actually hate it. I am constantly plagued by my fucking anxiety and adding a fear of puking when I work in a public space and go to school

I am so tired of being jealous of my friends. I shouldn’t be. I’m happy they are getting the help that they need but what can’t it be me? Why won’t my mom believe me! Why won’t she book me an appointment to figure out my joints instead of just saying it my diet? Why won’t she book an appointment to figure out what’s going on with how tired I feel all the time but can’t ever sleep instead of just saying it depression? Why can’t she accommodate my needs? Why won’t she buy me the supports I need? Why won’t she buy me my comfort food? Why won’t she support my accommodations? Why won’t she care about me?

All my friends have loving parents. One of my friends mom takes them to all the appointments that they need to get the help they need. But my mom won’t even make an effort to call an online therapist so I don’t have to struggle with no support and my old therapist was not working for me. My friends mom will support how they need to live to have a good life and my mom won’t even let me eat the food I like and know I like without getting on my ass. My friends mom takes care of them and mine doesn’t and it feels horrible.

And that’s just the stuff with my physical health and neurodivergency. She also ignores my anxiety unless she uses it to justify something else. It hurts so bad to see your best friend have a wonderful mother who supports them and helps them get the supports they need and the best my mom will do is get me on testosterone then saying that if I have an attitude she’ll take me off it.

She does that with so many things. If I have an attitude or get mad or have normal human emotions she threatens to take away my restorative or take away my ability to see my friend.

She once booked an appointment with my doctor just for the doctor to say “yeah, that’s normal human emotions”. But when I tell her that I am struggling to be a human in a productive way because I think I have autism after hours and hours of reaserch she says that the waiting list is too long. It stead of making that call when I’m still a minor she is making me do it once I am an adult. I have to do it for myself with no support from my mom.

And I live my dad but he also doesn’t stand up for me. How am I supposed to get through this shit with parents who blame my constant pain on diet and won’t book appointments I need.

I’m so tired of being put in a bad mood when my best friend talks about their mental health and neurodivergency. It’s not FUCKING fair!

I love that feeling where you yawn and it extends your ears or something and everything sounds crisp

I need to clean my room and organize and cleane my bathroom tonight. Every time I get a note on this post I will do one of the following

Pick up, and fold 15 pieces of clothes

Organize a cubby/drawer/shelf

Make bed

Traditional cleaning (sweep, mop, scrub walls and windows, etc)

Pick up 20 items off floor

1 rose has a carbon emissions of 1.8. One banana has a carbon emissions of 0.11.

Don’t buy roses, BUY BANANAS!!!!

Me and my squish are hanging out tomorrow and it’s not even part of our preset schedule. We be SO flowy

@grey-loves-dragons

Being neurodivergent and being crafty means making sure your sensory needs are met in style.

Current problem : it’s winter and I hate having more than one layer on my ears and hate tuques over my ears.

Solution : im crocheting a tuque with slits down the side so I can put my headphones on and have on my head phones touch my ears. It will also be extra long so that I can fold it over my headphones when I have my headphones on so no air gets in and so I can fold it over when I’m not wearing headphones.

I need music suggestions. I have been loving macafferty but I just found out about all the shit he did. I don’t want to support him but I need to replace the hyperfixation immediately. I like the raspy voice and the music of macafferty and the meaning of most of the songs. Anyone have any suggestions?

What movie should I force my bestie ( @grey-loves-vikings ) to watch with me for my birthday today!

We might watch multiple because MOVIES!!!

Happy birthday to me!!!

BRIAN. No one wants those tour dates. Please please please do better ones. I want to go!!!!!