Sometimes I Feel Less Like A Person And More Like A Sentient Amalgamation Of Symptoms

this mood disorder is indeed disordering my mood

I'll constantly see people list of disorders that cause psychosis and talk about how they're highly stigmatized and somehow they never ever mention bipolar disorder? ever? and it's almost certainly because people online tend to have this perception of bipolar as the "socially acceptable sad happy disease" and it is not. it is just not. bipolar disorder is so incredibly stigmatized and its symptoms go so much deeper than just "sad and happy"

did you know bipolar causes psychosis?

do you know what mania actually is? (hint: it's not "extremely happy"!)

did you know bipolar causes hypersexuality?

did you know bipolar causes aggression?

did you know bipolar causes generally socially unacceptable behavior?

did you know bipolar people are more likely to kill themselves in a manic episode than in a depressive episode?

did you know bipolar causes a thousand other highly stigmatized symptoms?

did you know that after my bipolar disorder diagnosis people started gossiping about how I was "unstable" and therefore "untrustworthy" and I was "erratic" and "a liability"? would you guess that these things were said by a progressive activist group who were "anti-ableism"? does this all sound like an destigmatized mental illness to you?

does it????

(Badly) Explained PDs

Cluster A

SzPD: I am so Normal right now :) *feeling Nothing at All, trapped inside the Meat Prison*

StPD: 'Got a little bit too eccentric' disorder

PPD: Constantly checking behind them because the fear of getting backstabbed is just Too Real

Cluster B

BPD: *intense FP-related sobbing* *goes back to watching TV like nothing happened a few seconds later*

NPD: I may not be God but Goddamnit let me have this moment

HPD: Please look at me please talk to me please compliment me please I am so pretty

ASPD: Fuck around and find out

Cluster C

DPD: where are all the people. help. I could go for a Person right about now

AvPD: That one social reject kid that freaks out during a Powerpoint presentation

OCPD: *does a thing* Wait *does the thing again* I am performing this Task so incorrectly right now wtf *does the thing

Other

PDNOS: That moment when not even you know what's wrong but clearly Something is up

something that genuinely annoys me as a chronically ill person is getting constantly asked only about my health. how are you? how are you dealing with it mentally? im the same as always. this is my normal. i don't want to be constantly asked about it. cant you be interested in something else about me. not my health. ask me about what I've been doing. what am i listening to. any fun dreams ive had. it gets really depressing very fast when every single interaction with others ends up starting with your chronic illnesses.

like i know it feels fucking different to you and you with your perfect health can't even imagine how someone is living like this. but this is my life. this is my normal. and id like to get treated like im more than just my illness

I can't figure out if I'm genderqueer or nonbinary y'all 😭

Sameeeeeee

I know SEVERAL afab nonbinary people who, as soon as they came out as nonbinary - immediately began dressing in ridiculous hyper-femme outfits they never would have worn before.  A lot of people see this and say shit like “Theyfab” or say they are only nonbinary for attention.  After all, look how femme they are.

But to me, this makes perfect sense.  When you are forced into the category of “woman” against your will, femininity is a chore.  It’s a job that you have.  As soon as you say no, I’m not a woman, suddenly femininity isn’t your job anymore.  It’s not a requirement.  It’s just a fun hobby you can get into.  Or a little treat sometimes.

not me waking up and realizing I might be bisexual

bipolar is truly the everything illness. right now i just have symptoms. idk of what specifically this time but they’re definitely happening

I literally cannot overstate how important creative hobbies are when dealing with mental illness. If you can’t draw, there are coloring books. If you can’t write a novel, you can write in short journaling bursts. If you can’t sing in the shower, you can listen to music. Sometimes with mental illness it feels like we have this dark presence inside of us that is bumping around in our brain and organs, causing problems. It helps immensely to let it out.