fallingpinkpetals

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I'm getting real tired of ppl telling me that my fibromyalgia is fake <3

I don't wanna take these meds

this mood disorder is indeed disordering my mood

oh

generally speaking when it comes to mental and physical health, if you're asked "do you struggle with this" and your answer is "no, Because I Have A System," then your answer is actually yes

it being dark before 6pm might be my final boss actually

they should make a version of grad school that doesn’t exacerbate your mental illness(es)

I recently got noise cancelling headphones because I have a lot of sensory issues and misophonia. I have been hesitant to use them because I don't want them to be a crutch but that's stupid. If you need to wear headphones to do the dishes because the sound of silverware clanking together makes you feel like dying then do it. If you need that aid then use it.

I'll constantly see people list of disorders that cause psychosis and talk about how they're highly stigmatized and somehow they never ever mention bipolar disorder? ever? and it's almost certainly because people online tend to have this perception of bipolar as the "socially acceptable sad happy disease" and it is not. it is just not. bipolar disorder is so incredibly stigmatized and its symptoms go so much deeper than just "sad and happy"

did you know bipolar causes psychosis?

do you know what mania actually is? (hint: it's not "extremely happy"!)

did you know bipolar causes hypersexuality?

did you know bipolar causes aggression?

did you know bipolar causes generally socially unacceptable behavior?

did you know bipolar people are more likely to kill themselves in a manic episode than in a depressive episode?

did you know bipolar causes a thousand other highly stigmatized symptoms?

did you know that after my bipolar disorder diagnosis people started gossiping about how I was "unstable" and therefore "untrustworthy" and I was "erratic" and "a liability"? would you guess that these things were said by a progressive activist group who were "anti-ableism"? does this all sound like an destigmatized mental illness to you?

does it????

EXACTLY

something that genuinely annoys me as a chronically ill person is getting constantly asked only about my health. how are you? how are you dealing with it mentally? im the same as always. this is my normal. i don't want to be constantly asked about it. cant you be interested in something else about me. not my health. ask me about what I've been doing. what am i listening to. any fun dreams ive had. it gets really depressing very fast when every single interaction with others ends up starting with your chronic illnesses.

like i know it feels fucking different to you and you with your perfect health can't even imagine how someone is living like this. but this is my life. this is my normal. and id like to get treated like im more than just my illness

if I gain one more pound on this zyprexa I'm gonna snap

not me waking up and realizing I might be bisexual

therapy was hard today

bipolar is truly the everything illness. right now i just have symptoms. idk of what specifically this time but they’re definitely happening

I love being a women, I love calling myself a women, I love my feminity and seeing the world through the perspective of a girl, I love my radical feminism as a women and the unique experience that gives me. I love taking back my sexualization and seeing myself as beautiful as myself, in every way.

I love being a man, I love seeing the world in a new way and being excepted by male friend groups and validated, I love being masculine and strong well wearing traditionally feminine clothing, I love being able to use the masculinity that has hurt so many as a positive thing to help the world grow.

I love being non-binary, the beauty of the complexness, I can be whatever I want under the name and I can be silly about it. I can call myself gay for liking anyone, I can confuse people who hate my joy. I love to watch other queer people be filled with joy when we meet in public, both under the non-binary umbrella, joined in solidarity.

I love being genderqueer, being everything and nothing at once, calling myself what I am even if you see it as contradictory, I love not having to explain myself and just being queer. I love finding my name in every time I hear another person realize they can just call themselves queer.

I know SEVERAL afab nonbinary people who, as soon as they came out as nonbinary - immediately began dressing in ridiculous hyper-femme outfits they never would have worn before.  A lot of people see this and say shit like “Theyfab” or say they are only nonbinary for attention.  After all, look how femme they are.

But to me, this makes perfect sense.  When you are forced into the category of “woman” against your will, femininity is a chore.  It’s a job that you have.  As soon as you say no, I’m not a woman, suddenly femininity isn’t your job anymore.  It’s not a requirement.  It’s just a fun hobby you can get into.  Or a little treat sometimes.

I'm so sad my bones ache....

this song has me so unwell

got put on olanzapine...

honestly it’d probably be better for everyone involved if literally nobody ever spoke to me again

if one more person tells me I'm stable when on abilify I haven't cried or felt excitement in MONTHS I'm gonna snap shut UP

the thing that drives me crazy about fibromyalgia is trying to explain it to people. yes i am in pain all the time. no i didn't do anything to get hurt. no it will almost definitely never go away entirely. no i don't know what caused it.

"so you're just going to be on pills your whole life" if the pills keep working, yeah, probably! i don't like being in pain!

I really have to take this medication for forever huh.....

having bipolar and being told you have it for the rest of your life with no cure feels so unreal to me.

able bodied people will decide you’re not disabled over *checks notes* the shoes you wear

Ableds be like, if I eat this diet/do this exercise/wear or don’t wear these clothes/live this lifestyle I’ll never become disabled!

Buddy have I got some harsh news for you…

Young people can have back pain. Young people can have joint pain. Young people can require a cane to get around. Young people can have memory problems. Young people can get migraines. Young people can lose their eyesight. Young people can lose their hearing. Young people can lose their teeth and require dentures. Young people can have neurological disorders. Young people can go through menopause. Young people can have heart attacks. Young people can have strokes. Young people can go through all kinds of things you think only happens to older people and they don’t deserve to be invalidated or bullied just because you have never heard of it.

got diagnosed with fibromyalgia today