gillion and panic attacks
the first time gillion has a panic attack on dry land it is after the effects wear off from laffinlot. he is absolutely sure this will be his end. there is no way for him to get enough oxygen in, no water to stop his throat from closing on itself.
he watches the world shrink into pin pricks, every noise around him simply turns into thuds of his heart rate. this is his penance he decides, his failure to save everyone in the town, hurting his friends and most of all failing to fit the title his parents had always expected of him.
as his skin feels like it was drying and shrinking on itself he feels a pressure on his shoulders. hands, warm and calloused plucking him back to reality. he can hear a voice that calls to him, louder than his heart rate reminding him that he has a body still and a heart that pumps.
chips holds him for what feel like an hour, unmoving, rubbing his back and holding him back from falling off the edge and promises him that yes he will always be there
the parallels between jay and gillion's backstories are so important to me. being told your whole life how youre going to grow into something you dont have any control over and constantly training for it. being oppressed by a title, a name, something that determines your every action. having no choice over your future, your autonomy.
and yet when they leave, when theyre exposed to the rest of the world, they see how the environment they grew up in was flawed. what they learned was from such a severe perspective, and having the space to grow and change let them see the true beauty of the world.
anyways listen to the song fish in a birdcage
Oh Jay Ferin how I have missed you so
[VIDEO TRANSCRIPT:
Chip: Are we not gonna wish for Gillion to come back to life?!
Jay: No, no, no, no, no! No, 'cause number one on the list, right? Like this is highest priority, and if this can be granted, I want it to be true, I want Gillion to come back to life–
Chip: Objectively having a back-up is fucked up.
Jay: –but, BUT! BUT!
Chip: Objectively having a back-up is fucked up!
Jay: BUT! If Gillion CANNOT come back to life, I still want what I wanted in the very beginning of the episode, okay?
Chip: Brother, brother–
Jay: I want a really cool yo-yo.
(laughter)
Chip: I think SAYING the back-up makes it less possible! That's like–
Jay: Shut the– Shut the fuck up, Chip! LET ME HAVE THIS!
Bizly (gasping for air): I can't– I can't, dude! The thought of us like, fading to white and then like, everything's gonna be okay, and then cutting back to the ship with us and NO Gillion and you with a YO-YO is SO fucked up!
(laughter)
Grizzly (as Condi and Bizly continue laughing in the backround): Gillion, now– now that I have their answers–
END TRANSCRIPT.]
' his mouth lays slack - jawed open , his body hunched over his legs and his eye's are colourless , dark with no light shining over them . '
blud picked the idiocy AND the void cards ??? it's so fucking joever
I think every Charlie Slimecicle ttrpg combat turn goes like this:
With my action I pull out The InstaKiller3000, which everyone forgot I had and collectively agrees I should not have ever under any circumstances. With my bonus action I am going to use the most vaguely worded spell in existence and argue semantics with the dm for at least 10 minutes until I somehow bs my way into making a shitty spell turn The InstaKiller3000 into The InstaKiller10000. I’m now going to describe the most epic fucking visual any human being could come up with for when I use The Instakiller10000. Time to roll for damage!!! It’s a 1, and with my equally horribly rolled stats that makes it a -3. I hit myself in the face with The InstaKiller10000 and die instantly
happy appreciate a dragon day!
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