"my Niece Told Me That Some Of You On The Internet Are Thirsting After Me" - Stanford Pines²⁰²⁵

Seeing people I follow liking my stuff is absolutely agonizing in both damn ways.

First is the: YAYYYYYYYYYYYY

Second is the: oh fuck they awknowledged my existance... I EXIST...... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Visiting gravity falls for their birthday. Grunkles still looking great as ever, which is pretty surprising and nice (they won't last for too long now.)

Snowdrop.

Trying to cover it from snowstorm but at the same time ripping it from the core, ironic isn't it?

FINALLY the part 2 of my Theseus' Guide chapter 8 animatic is done!

maybe i merge the two later, but for now, part 1 is right here

HOW LONG HAVE I BEEN UPPPPP I DON'T KNOWWWWWWWWW

THE CLOCK STOPPED TICKING FOREVER AGO

Tumblr is like a death sentence, love it here tho

Rb if you were/are a gifted kid I wanna see how many of us ended up here

Okay, so, I decided to mess around in Google while I had my free time and found something interesting:

Remember when bill said?

About that. I decided to look through moths and found one INTERESTING specimen.

STAY WITH ME. Let's list up the coincidences.

FIRST of all: "Euclidia" in the name (I know where that resonates from, I know.)

SECOND of all: Triquetra - "triangular figure"

THIRD of all: That damn moth is yellow shaded with black triangular patters on its wings.

This specific moth would be Fords FAVORITE, in the image of his muse.

He would be so proud of it. [heartbroken] [heartbroken]

okay now let's move to whatever I had in mind later on:

"There is a specialized relationship with host plants is common in moths and it adds a unique ecological dimension to each species, including Euclidia triquerta."

As I read, for Euclidia triquerta it's preferably clovers.

I just imagined Bill being THIS specific moth, while Ford is a four leaved clover. (Clover with four leaves represent "luck and fortune", but in reality this is just the meaning which people assigned to four leaved clover themselves, just for it having something "extra and rare". But in reality It's not any different from avarage three leaved clover. and never will be.)

Back to their relationship:

"together they create a symbiotic relationship where clovers provide a rich and safe food source for the moths, in turn, help with clover's natural ecosystem dynamics, stimulating plant growth."

One helps the other to grow at the end for moth to eat it, because it's nature and that's how it works.

I am ready to make an AU out of this and I don't know how because it will look absolutely ridiculous. Can work with moth but how am I gonna make him a CLOVER......

Don't mess with us, gravity falls fans, we're psychotic

This is actually the advice I am subconciousely following since 2020, and ykw? It works.

Well. Somewhat...?

BUT!!!! I make them get good happy pleasant experiences instead of therapy since i got bad experiences with therapists myself (I've been to 4 different therapists. They would either say that it's all my fault and I deserve it, or just suck it up, or that "I don't try hard enough", they ruined my understanding of therapy. Mother only dragged me there with the intention to "fix whatever is wrong with me", not help.)

Basically, running the character through similar horrible experiences to yours and making them heal. Feeling like you're part of it. and if they healed - so can you.

I know I began talking about a bit of a different topic but I still wanted to express my opinion, so I hope that it's fine(I hope so?)

I've been doing this similiar thing for.... 4-5 years now? I'm definitely better than I used to be.

Put a bullet in my head but I'm not going back to whatever 2015-2020 was. I don't even remember most of it but I'm not going back. No.

If you can't get any help, or don't want any help - working on yourself BY yourself WITH yourself is the best thing that can be done. It's hard but don't lose hope!

Whatever I get horribly flashbacked to everything traumatic that ever happened in my life - my mind just refuses to accept it, like no, that's not me, that must have been someone else, I POSSIBLY couldn't be fine after [REDACTED] but, I'm fine, right? so it means that [REDACTED] never happened and I'm just lying to myself and making shit up, I just gotta suck it up and be tougher.

and if you ask me that's very fucking Stanley Pines core.

Well what can I say? he hates himself.

"No one has ever been nice to me my entire life."

You guys will not believe who came through my shop