I Am Starting To See A Pattern In The Types Of Ships I Like And In The Dynamics/tropes I Want To See

Yes I know some people are tired of the MLM movies (most likely written by straight people) about an older man meeting a younger, confident queer guy that’s kind of openly a slut even tho it usually is in a setting where the younger guy Shouldn’t be a slut and the older man starts having Gay Thoughts for the “first” time and then they have an affair which almost always has a tragic twist to it. Yes it’s overdone and there are a million other situations you can put gay people in and it’s also okay to let them be happy

BUT I DEVOUR THESE PLOTS EVERY TIME

It is cool and fun to see a *canon* version of the yearning I read online!!! Yes PLEASE I need to see them make eye contact for too long and the repressed man’s breathing stop cold. They need to almost kiss at LEAST three times and be interrupted by circumstances beyond their control!!! It’s not about the voyeuristic nature of watching them get it on, I couldn’t care less about that. I like the wet look in their eyes when they realize how little time they have with each other and that it’s slipping through their fingers faster than they thought.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!

I’m very normal about this, your honor

is that a hard boiled egg in your back pocket or is your penis just round and on the wrong side

My university does this thing called a “lavender graduation” which is just a small commencement ceremony for the queers on campus

And when I don’t socialize much I forget how visibly transgender and queer I am (even when I introduce myself as a cisgender woman)

Which led to me being really confused the past few days about why so many people, many who I didn’t know very well, either asked if I would be attending lavender graduation or they assumed I would be there and asked questions about the event

Like I know I have a mullet and glasses and a stupid sense of fashion but stop clocking me before I clock your shit with a car

Very much into hilson fanfics where the og ducklings are just casually in a polyamorous relationship in the background bc it shows how completely fucked up hilson is

Imagine if this were like those prankster jelly beans and the flavor isn’t something like strawberry or blue raspberry and instead it’s cum

a wonderful ao3 author note

Such a fuxkin mood bc I don’t know what the difference between enjoying an activity versus dreading it really is…the only way I can tell the difference is by whether or not I get a stomach ache

Wait wait WAIT

When y’all experience emotions- You are able to know how you are feeling based on an actual ‘feeling’?

It’s not just drawing from context clues?? because the way that I understood it was:

-I am doing an activity I enjoy, I am not experiencing any physical signs of distress, therefore I probably ‘feel’ happy-

But no? Emotional feelings are actual specific feelings? Separate from physicality?

“Identifiable through vibe alone” as my friend so eloquently describes it

shoutout to my homies who are deeply bizarre and have something wrong with them

Happy Macklemore Sunday