Happy Macklemore Sunday

My university does this thing called a “lavender graduation” which is just a small commencement ceremony for the queers on campus

And when I don’t socialize much I forget how visibly transgender and queer I am (even when I introduce myself as a cisgender woman)

Which led to me being really confused the past few days about why so many people, many who I didn’t know very well, either asked if I would be attending lavender graduation or they assumed I would be there and asked questions about the event

Like I know I have a mullet and glasses and a stupid sense of fashion but stop clocking me before I clock your shit with a car

Currently trying to use telepathy on my friends to get at least one of them to follow me over 700 miles to a new state when I move bc I’ll miss them and also bc trying to find a roommate while not being in the that city (let alone the state) is really hard and I don’t wanna :/

Manic episode has taken on a new phase in which I have taken on the terrible parts of the fictional characters I have been hyperfixated on and now Icannot stop making strange jokes, laughing crudely, or having lustful thoughts about those around me

There are two wolves inside of you

One wants to make a 75 slide PowerPoint and just read off it word for word for two hours

The other wants to make 3 slides with points not addressed in an unhinged, nonlinear 2 hour yap sesh

You are a tenure college professor

john wick holding shadow the hedgehog like mary holding baby jesus

The air smells like neglecting my sleep schedule and skipping class to reread my favorite books and quitting my job and writing until I can’t feel my fingers and telling my friends that I love them so much that it gives me heartburn and eating the same three meals because they taste so fucking good and cracking jokes that’ll make people uncomfortable and—

“Jet skis are a gift from god” my good man what the FUCK does that mean????? Are you a cocaine dealer???? Can I have some????

I haven’t kept up with the MCU since Moonknight and this is how I found out Bucky Barnes is a fucking senator or some shit I hate it here

i'm so glad i don't care about the mcu anymore because when i was 16 if bucky barnes became a politician it might've been the last straw in my miserable life

Queerbaiting also implies author intention and as I’ve said time and time again: nobody writes queer rep like authors that have no intention of doing so and are actually a little homophobic about the implications

i see a lot of people call hilson queerbait and i dont entirely disagree but…i also dont entirely agree either? yknow? like i think theres a LOT of subtext and implications to the point where its kinda just up for interpretation on what their relationship is like and whether its purely platonic, romantic, or even just some Secret Third Thing.

I think the show makes it abundantly clear, however, that its more than just a friendship. not that it means in necessarily romantic or anything, but it still runs deeper than like, the average perception of two friends. if that makes any sense.

overall idk i think calling hilson queerbait straight up is just Not entirely true and kind of undermines their relationship.

is that a hard boiled egg in your back pocket or is your penis just round and on the wrong side