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5 months ago

Batfamily damn good ao3 tags pt.4

This is a list of ao3 tags about batfamily that I think deserve to be used more (semi-serious list)

Canon tags:

• Supportive Batfamily (DCU) (It's criminal how little this tag is used) • Stephanie Brown Loves Waffles (Do it for the crack fanfiction) • Alfred Pennyworth is Bruce Wayne's Parent (Not exactly a rare tag but still less than 500 fanfics. And I love it, so...) • Alfred Pennyworth Tries to Be a Good Parent (Here, THIS is a rare tag. Alfred trying, failing and trying again to raise a little Bruce… my heart can't take it) • Tim Drake Has Chronic Pain (Honestly? I'm a bad person) • Jason Todd's Love Language is Cooking (I'm weak for love languages) • Dick Grayson Loves His Family (The fact that it's a tag is so sweet) • Dick Grayson Sings (I will die on this hill) • Bruce Wayne Can't Cook (Canonical, practically) • Unimpressed Damian Wayne (Damian just being Damian) • College Graduate Jason Todd (I'm weak, weak, weak) • Jason Todd's Autopsy Scars (Imagine: you read some fluff and then autopsy scars are mentioned. And you… you cry, what else can you do?) • Bruce Wayne Has Too Many Kids (The fact that it's a canonical tag makes my day better)

Fanon/not yet canon tags (tags that I have used or seen around on ao3 but that are not recognized as canonical tags):

• Jason Todd calls Duke Thomas "Narrows" (I think I made this tag up but in comics it HAPPENS so yes, it's a tag now) • Smart Duke Thomas (Our boy is so cool) • Demon Hunter Bruce Wayne (Okay I'm biased but come on… COME ON) • Robin is magic (I thought it was a canon tag but IT IS NOT) • Workaholic Barbara Gordon (You see why this should be a tag, right? There is also a wfa episode for this!) • Coffee Lover Barbara Gordon (My girl needs her coffee)

5 years ago

Oh thats me

Well, i mean the distant and cold, cery attractive, sarcastic, badass lesbian with questionable morals

My type is more like a cute sweet, but still kind if outspoken, nice and understandable woman

My type: Distant/cold and very attractive sarcastic badass lesbians with questionable morals

6 years ago

Me rn, but i finished it and now i dont know what to do with life

Except mybe going to work tomorrow...

God I hate my life

you ever get sucked into a fic so bad that you read when you walk you read when you lie you read when you pee you read when you’re in rhe middle of a conversation and you read when you drive and when you crave sleep but still read and the first thing you do in the morning is opening ao3 to read that fic and then the fic ends and your life seems empty like a shell thrown out of the sea

6 years ago

Moving out

I seeall this stuff from my childhood. So many things where I realize, everything I did from my 8yrs old self, was coping.

I had a shitty childhood, but really

With 8 I cut the eyes from old pictures out.

With 9 I drew black over my father in every picture I own of him.

With 10 I wrote in a diary telling it how I hate everyone and everything.

With 12 I got letters from my bullies telling me how worthless I am, I spit in them.

And with 15 I wrote a letter how I will kill myself.

I found this now, cuz I now move out I just realize how bad I actually was. I never fully understood why everyone is so impressed and stunned bymy behavior and casuality about all of this. Until now.

And now I’m sitting here, almost crying, realizing how fucking messed up I was. I am. How fucking good I am at coping and ignoring. How fucking stupid I was thinking I wont get better.

God, I cant fully comprehend the fact that the little girl, destroying her possessions out if anger, trying to kill herself, always mad and angry at the world. The little girl who was insuch a bad spot, was me. Is me idk.

Im still so fucking mad. Still so fucking vulnerable, I never realize how vulnerable, because I well, just keep going, keep living.

Is it a good coping mechanism, stubbornness or just ignorance? Idk all I know is I’ve got better.

My depression and anxiety will never go fully away again. But I’ve got control and freedom.


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7 years ago

Pluto Generations

Pluto is the slowest moving planet. It spend anywhere from 10 to 30 years in one sign, and because of this, Pluto influences many of the things we see in entire generations. Pluto tells about life challenges, how week seek out power, and the drastic differences between generations. Find out where Pluto was when you were born and what this did to the generation below. (All the information about the generations comes from the notes I took during a “Generational Differences” class)

Pluto in Cancer: 26 May 1914 - 14 June 1939

Duration: 26 years

Generation: Traditionalists

How does Pluto in Cancer affect the Traditionalists?

Cancer is known for being a traditional sign, so having Pluto in Cancer during a generation called “The Traditionalists” is no coincidence. This generation is known to be extremely conservative and hold family values high. Cancer in Pluto has influenced people to be very loving and caring towards their families and close friends. They may not be logical thinkers, but they understand the depth of things. It is difficult for Cancer in Pluto to deal with any change. (Once again, The Traditionalists). They expect young people to be their definition of respectful which means being disciplined and understanding. They find it hard to let go of their traditional values (For example, a man must marry a woman and vice versa), so conflict between this generation and Millennials (who’s Pluto in Libra and Scorpio influences them to fight for justice and equality) is expected.

Pluto in Leo: 14 June 1939 - 19 August 1957

Duration: 19 years

Generation: Late Traditionalists (1939-1946) and Baby Boomers

How does Pluto in Leo affect the Baby Boomers?

Leo is a fire sign, and know for being competitive, yet optimistic. The Baby Boomers are known for going after what they want, specifically in the work force. They believe teamwork and optimism are important. Pluto in Leo is optimistic and a great leader. The placement of Pluto in Leo influenced this generation to be very enthusiastic and risky. Pluto in Leo is are much more creative and colorful (color television began in the 1940s, how ‘bout that?) people than Pluto in Cancer, so conflict between these two groups is expected. They don’t stand for people who are constantly negative and will surely point it out when you’re being that pessimistic.

(Here’s where the dates get crazy)

Pluto in Virgo: 19 August 1957 - 5 October 1971, 17 April 1972 - 30 July 1972

Duration: 15 years and the months between Libra

Generation: Late Baby Boomers (1957-1965) and Early Generation X (also Generation Jones) 

How does Pluto in Virgo affect the Gen Xers?

Gen Xers were a very independent group. They also became very skeptical about things and felt the need to analyze for themselves. Having Pluto in Virgo, a very analytical and logical sign, definitely influenced this thinking. They value a work life balance, and are great at organizing ways to do this. This new value and interest in work can be seen because now both parents in household were working, despite this, they didn’t hold much value in their careers. To them, it may be “just a job”. They can be very conservative, but nowhere near as much as the Traditionalists. They value honesty and believe that one earns respect. They can be critical towards others, but also hate criticism. Millennials and early Gen Z people tend to notice this hypocritical nature, especially when Baby Boomers and Gen Xers are criticizing them. Virgo and Capricorn are very compatible, so there is a chance that late Baby Boomers and early Gen Xers will get along with the Gen Zers. The relationship for those Virgo x Capricorn will most likely be parent (who had children late in life) to child, and sometimes be young grandparents to child.

Pluto in Libra: 5 October 1971 - 17 April 1972, 30 July 1972 - 5 November 1983, 18 May 1984 - 27 August 1984

Duration: The few months between Virgo, 12 years, and 4 months the following year

Generation: Late Gen X (1971-1980) and Early Millennials (1980-1984)

How does Pluto in Libra affect this time?

 Pluto was in Libra in the middle of two widely different generations. It’s much harder to see the similar affect Pluto in Libra had on these generations. This placements influences people to want to explore and understand the world. It also influences people to want to create harmony and justice within the world. This is very obvious to see in  Millennials, as many of them identify as feminists, fight for racial equality, and fight for LGBT+ rights, however this is less obvious for the Late Gen Xers. They were growing up with the early Gen Xers who had Pluto in Virgo. Pluto in Libra influences the Late Gen Xers to compromise with the Early Gen Xers who uphold their own values. Those born between 1971 and 1980 are what I like to call “Millennial Xers.” These “Millennial Xers” allowed for the Pluto in Virgo values to rule their life. However, now that Millennials are in their 20s and 30s and beginning to enter the world, these “Millennial Xers” are expressing their Pluto in Libra influences much more.

Pluto in Scorpio: 5 November 1983 - 18 May 1984, 27 August 1984 - 17 January 1995, 21 April 1995 - 10 November 1995

Duration: The few months between Libra, 12 years, and 8 months later that last year

Generation: Millennials! (also Generation Y)

How does Pluto in Scorpio affect the Millennials?

The Millennials are all about diversity and technology. Pluto in Scorpio has influenced these individuals to be intense and have strong emotions. They fight for human rights and have a talent for helping those that are considered different become accepted. They focus their mind on more taboo things such as sex, the occult, death, and the mind. They try to remain positive, but definitely focus on darker things. Because of this, there may be conflict between these Millennials and Baby Boomers who value positivity and lighter topics. Pluto in Scorpio are strong people who question all the rules, and can gain much power if they try to. Having Pluto in Scorpio can explain the interest that Millennials have in sex and taboo things (like astrology!).

Pluto in Sagittarius: 17 January 1995 - 20 April 1995, 10 November 1995 - 27 January 2008, 13 June 2008 - 26 November 2008

Duration: The few months between Scorpio, 14 years, and 6 months later that last year

Generation: Late Millennials (1995-1999) and Early Generation Z (2000-2008)

How does Pluto in Sagittarius affect the Early Gen Zers?

I’m very very excited about this one, because, boy, does it explain A LOT. Having Pluto in Sagittarius influences people to be blunt and expressive. They want to be the center of attention and can be extremely impatient. They have this optimistic belief that they can do anything they set their mind to. All things that the young people in the world now have been known to do. They value freedom and want to find this for other people who don’t have it (EQUALITY!). They don’t conform, are bold, and free-thinking. They think on a global scale now and want to explore the world and history (may explain their interest in old things: vinyls, comic books, etc). They are less likely to believe in religions and may even create their own. Why do Millennials not get along with their elders? First, Cancer and Virgo are two of the least compatible signs of Sagittarius. To refresh your memory, this means the Traditionalists, Late Baby Boomers, and early Gen Xers are very incompatible with Millennials. Yet, Millennials are the stronger and more expressive ones who are willing to fight back when someone questions them.

Pluto in Capricorn: 28 January 2008 - 13 June 2008, 26 November 2008 - 20 January 2024

Duration: The few months between Sagittarius, and 17 years

Generation: Late Generation Z (2008-2024)

How will Pluto in Capricorn affect the Late Gen Zers?

We’re not really sure how this group of people act right now, as the oldest ones are only 8 years old (as of 2016) and the majority have yet to be born. Having Pluto in Capricorn should affect this generation to be patient yet ambitious. This will be very different from the previous generation who’s almost never patient. The older generations who shame Millennials often are less likely to shame those with Pluto in Capricorn. They are organizers who want to create structure among the chaos. Last time Pluto was in Capricorn was during the American Revolution, where structure in the chaos paid off greatly. These people want to create order and know that persistence pays off. They are likely to be great politicians, which is good news for those living in America right now during this very odd presidential election, but also for the rest of the world which seems like it’s just going farther and farther downhill. We put a lot of hope and faith into this generation to make the world better, and with Pluto in Capricorn, they may just succeed.

5 years ago

Thought: I do NOT think that 50% of the world’s billionaires should be women. I think there shouldn’t be any billionaires at all.

So you are saying 0% of the world should be billionaires?

5 years ago

Sapien

homo

5 years ago

Ugh it is, you know I live my lif elike this right now, I would like to be a teacher, but I dont wanna study, so I will finish my apprenticeship and then first of all go to Africa, after that I might work part time and start working on becoming a teacher. Or Ill just stay in Africa if I do like it there.

I'm kind of really not on board with spending the rest of my life in an office

like, the idea of waking up at 6 every day, working from 8 to 17 and then going home just to have dinner and go to bed, and occasionally taking a week off to take a vacation??? I hate it. That's not how I wanna live my life. It sound ask suffocating and I have no idea how I could ever be happy like that.

7 years ago

Gonna Reblog this every time I see it, don’t hate, love!

Since joining Tumblr, I’ve met a lot of young queer people. Look, I’m a bisexual man in a gay relationship, and I’m approaching 30. I was still a kid when Matthew Shepard’s story was being covered on the news. I remember thinking, “I better keep my mouth shut about these feelings I’m having.”

And then I met Dominic when I was 12, and people could see how in love we were. And we got the shit beat out of us. The year I met him, some kids in the grade above me held me down against the bleachers in our gym and stomped on my hand until my fingers broke. Instead of sending me to the nurse, the teacher sent me to the assistant principal to explain the situation. She asked why the kids had beat me up. I said, “They were calling me gay.”

Her response was, “Well, are you?”

My, “I don’t know,” earned a call to my parents, and I was outed. Efforts were made to keep me from seeing Dom. Throughout high school, Dom’s stepmother intensified these efforts. He slept in the basement of the house. Although he was an incredibly talented student, he was prohibited from participating in any extracurriculars. He suffered a lot of physical abuse during those years.

The day he turned 18, he packed up everything he had and walked to my house, and we’ve lived together ever since. Things are better, but they’re not perfect. I’ve had trucks pull up next to me at stoplights and, seeing the pride sticker on my car, through old drinks and garbage into my window. I no longer speak to my dad’s side of the family. I haven’t been to see them for Christmas or Thanksgiving in years. One of my uncles had cornered me at Thanksgiving when I was 17 and said, “I’m not going to judge you, but I’d be happy to break your neck so God can do the judging a little sooner.”

I joined a support group for trans and intersex people. When I joined, 40 people attended regularly. Within the year, the group was half the size it had been. Some couldn’t make it anymore, because they were staying at the shelter, where their stay hinged on them agreeing to instead to attend homophobic sermons. Some were put in correctional therapy. Five of them died. Three of those, I didn’t know, but I knew Alex, the 19 year old who was fag-dragged in Kentucky and died a day later in the hospital, and I knew Stephanie, who went home to Alabama to care for her mom in hospice and was beaten to death with a baseball bat by her mom’s boyfriend.

Tumblr is not reality. The dynamic here does not reflect the dynamic out there. Here’s the part where I finally make a point, and it might be extremely unpopular - but guys, value your allies. Value each other. We are met with enough hate in our daily lives to enter an online safe-space and meet more hate from our own, over petty things. Don’t go after one another over every little thing you find problematic.

Learn to see nuance. Maybe the word “queer” bothers you, and you see a gay man using it as an umbrella term. Maybe someone called a trans man a trans woman because they’re confused about terminology, but the post where they did it was voicing support for the trans community. Maybe someone is just asking a question, wanting to learn more. Stop. Attacking. These. People.

Allies are being driven away. Members of our own community are being ostracized. Others are feeling nervous and estranged, and it’s largely because of places like Tumblr, where the social justice movement is quickly becoming violent and radical. I am begging you, stop nitpicking “problematic” things and start directing your efforts to create real change. When it comes to comes to your allies, forget the “social justice warrior” mentality and put down your torch. Educate calmly. Be respectful. Be understanding. Be forgiving. And I’m certainly not saying that your anger doesn’t have a good place - when you are met with bigots on the street, congress members who want to pass hateful laws, violent protesters, abusive parents, prejudiced teachers, that is when you need to be a warrior. That’s when it counts. In the real world. When you have the opportunity to protect people from real harm. Attacking your would-be allies via anonymous asks is just going to lose us ground in the long run. And we don’t have time for that, not when trans women of color are being murdered every day, not when states are still fighting against marriage equality, not when there are politicians in office who believe that trans people are possessed by demons, not when we’ve just lost 50 brothers and sisters to one gunman, not when the media won’t even admit that the attack was homophobic.

Please step back. Look at the big picture. Look at where we are, globally. Don’t just log on to your safe space and attack your allies over small missteps. That’s like washing the dishes in a house that’s on fire, kids. Let’s fight on the battlefield, and when we come home to each other, let’s just focus on bandaging up our wounds so we can go out and win the war.

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