hogarth-to2004

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shes not doing well... im worried

i love her so much and i wont survive if she dies

the hardest thing to cope with is that the scars might never fade, i accept them for the most part, because the people i care about love them as a part of me. but sometimes i struggle to understand that ill never feel safe leaving the house in a singlet.

CW - slightly suggestive under the cut

something that really helps is when my girlfriend kisses my scars or runs her fingers along them telling me shes proud of how far ive come or that im beautiful either way. that really really makes me smile and feel better

what I think will happen if I message my mutuals

It pains me to carry such a sad soul when, at heart, I'm such a joyful person.

no offense but reading is literally the cure to brain rot and there’s no work around to reading books

at this point i’m just gonna repeatedly smash my heart with a rock until it’s a pile of red mush.

I feel like something ppl don’t talk enough about is the fact that sh isn’t just a coping mechanism, but also an addiction. Once you start it is insanely hard to stop and you are more prone to doing other things as well

i miss her so bad, she looks so lonely in class and she actively avoids me. i miss her personality, her warm words and silly anecdotes. i will feel forever guilty for being the catalyst for our drift. it wouldve happened eventually because, he and i clearly didnt mix. but it hurts that i lost such a good friend and we are both suffering.

Vent post

social media is becoming less and less important to me and my future life plan really doesnt involve using it at all so im probably not gonna post here anymore. i might come back, i might not. keep slaying 💕

getting sick is my body's way of telling me to slow down and take a deep breath. as much as i appreciate the reminder and accept its what my body needs, i really don't want to be sick now of all the times to be sick:/

bitches want a loser bf until he can’t live without you

i found even more fairy dresses

while i admit, ive posted this on my private twitter previously...

has anyone ever noticed how flowers look like fair dresses, in Tinkerbell they use like, flower petals as clothes, but i reckon fairies are smaller than that, i think they wear upsidedown flowers as dresses

Brainrot cringe Sonic and Shadow who doesn’t understand what he’s saying

the sunrise never fails to make me smile, its so pretty. nature is incredible

need to smooch kiss kiss mwah mwah some1 faggotly and romantically

sh recov / harm reduction tips for those of us who are in the trenches and may be considering recov or trying to get there one day

⭐️ some people can't just throw away their sh tools and that's okay, but what i suggest is if you don't already to keep them in a hard to get to place so that you can reduce how often you may try to sh

⭐️ try to limit how often you relapse but dont put too much pressure on yourself because it may stress you out worse, id suggest slowly relapsing less by spacing them out more over time.

example: every day -> every other day -> twice a week -> once a week.. etc you get the point, if you cant stop cold turkey then try to reduce how frequently you sh because its just like any other addiction out there.

⭐️ keep in mind it takes about 3 weeks to make a habit, when going fully clean its really rough for those first few weeks but it wont stay that way, that isnt to say you wont have some bad days but it wont be every second.

⭐️ avoid buying new sh tools and new blades, if you plan to reduce or recover then stick with what you have so that you wont automatically have a new tool to hurt yourself with.

⭐️ if you burn yourself or you sh for pain specifically i suggest using (skin safe!) hot wax because it still hurts like hell when it hits the skin. usually these are used for like kink purposes but that also makes it easier to find in a way.

⭐️ for people who cut or need to see blood, some alternatives that work are using red food dye and applying it to something thats pointed but cant actually cut you and dragging it across your skin. another thing thats out there that provides both pain and blood without injury are sh pens! its hard to find these due to the internet censoring things however on platforms like tiktok using slight censorship in search like "self hrm recovery pen" will likely bring you to some results that could help.

⭐️ if you're broke like me or a minor etc and cant purchase tools online to help, id suggest using household items like thumbtacks for harm reduction. something that personally helps me is actually making fake wounds that are like.. actually fake and not real. to do this without any professional products use thin layers of liquid glue as your base and shape it like a wound, and use paint / makeup / whatever you've got. if you have sensitive skin this will probably make you itchy or poses a risk for a skin reaction so do be wary of that. when removing it should just peel right off as long as its fully dry, just be sure to wash the area afterwards.

⭐️ other reduction tips are the typical things people will say to do, surround yourself with friends and safe people if you can. surround yourself with safe items and things that make you feel comfortable and avoid triggers to your best ability. if you seriously are trying to recover please delete tumblr as consuming sh content will trigger you back into it fast.

if anyone has questions about specific circumstances or situations my ask box is open <3

recovery isnt easy but i really hope this helps somebody out there who may be considering getting better.

have you been kind to trans women? what about trans women who don't pass? trans women who are bald? trans women who are fat?

how about fat trans women who don't carry their weight in a way you consider feminine? or people who are transfeminine but whose gender identity doesn't involve the word "woman"? transfems who can't or don't take feminizing hormones? transfems whose gender is fluid and not always feminine?

and if you are somebody like this: have you been kind to yourself?

masterpost of horror lists

here are all my horror lists in one place to make it easier to find! enjoy!

sub-genres

action horror

analog horror

animated horror

anthology horror

aquatic horror

apocalyptic horror

backwoods horror

campy horror

children’s horror

comedy horror

coming-of-age horror

corporate/work place horror

cult horror

dance horror

daylight horror

death games

domestic horror

ecological horror

erotic horror

experimental horror

fairytale horror

folk horror

found footage horror

giallo horror

gothic horror

historical horror

holiday horror

home invasion horror

house horror

indie horror

isolation horror

lgbtqia+ horror

lovecraftian/cosmic horror

medical horror

meta horror

monster horror

musical horror

mythological horror

neo-monster horror

new french extremity horror

paranormal horror

psychedelic horror

psychological horror

religious horror

revenge horror

romantic horror

sad/dramatic horror (i think??)

science fiction horror

slasher

southern gothic horror

splatter/body horror

survival horror

techno-horror

vampire horror

virus horror

werewolf horror

western horror

witch horror

zombie horror

horror plots/settings

road trip horror

summer camp horror

cave horror

doll horror

plot devices

storm horror

from a child’s perspective

final girl/guy (this is slasher horror trope)

last guy/girl (this is different than final girl/guy)

reality-bending horror

slow burn horror

foreign horror or non-american horror

african horror

spanish horror

middle eastern horror

korean horror

japanese horror

british horror

german horror

indian horror

decades

silent era

30s horror

40s horror

50s horror

60s horror

70s horror

80s horror

90s horror

2000s horror

2010s horror

2020s horror

companies/services

blumhouse horror

a24 horror

ghosthouse horror

shudder horror

other lists

horror literature to movies

video game to horror movie adaption

video nasties

female directed horror

my 130 favorite horror movies

horror movies critics hated because they’re stupid

horror remakes/sequels that weren’t bad

female villains in horror

horror movies so bad they’re good

non-horror movies that feel like horror movies

directors + their favorite horror movies + directors in the notes

tumblr’s favorite horror movie (based off my poll)

horror movie plot twists

cult classic horror movies

so glad im a tumblr girly, i was on edtwt the other day and when i tell you its the most disgustingly fatphobic community like. OMG theres threads of hindreds of pictures of just ppl existing holy shit😭

goth trans girls kissing reblog if u agree

sh + sch1zophrenia culture is cvtting to let the bugs out, bvrning to keep them away and pvnching to scare them

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Vent post

"I hate the way that you walk, the way that you talk, I hate the way that you dress Surprised you wanted that feature request, you know that we got some shit to address I even hate when you say the word "musing," but that's just me, I guess Some shit just cringeworthy, it ain't even gotta be deep, I guess" -Barold Barry "Bazza" The Blunt, Kendrick's ghostwriter

Waiiiit lesbians cook????

I thought they just ate out

Please don’t hate me 🤣😭

hot take but i want to marry her

i love you,

i want to kiss your scars and soothe your burns.

i want to hold you and make you better again,

not letting go until i can be sure youre okay.

my heart is so full i want to share all my love with you.

no matter what you've done in the past,

what you will do in the future,

who you will become,

i will want you.

i want to kiss your scars,

heal the wounds others have left,

hold you and keep you safe.

i love you

i cant wait to marry this girl, i want this every day