Pairing: Kim Taehyung x Reader
Genre: ANGST
Requested by: This lovely person whom I can't seem to tag hehe
Summary: Taehyung breaks up with you with a promise to come back.
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"Tae?"
A soft smile grew on Taehyung's face at the gentle whisper that reached his ears. A satisfied hum buzzed out of his chest as he wriggled around in the confined space of the couch to face you. With swollen, red eyes that were dazed with sleep, Taehyung blinked a few times so that he could focus on the gentle glow of the kitchen light that kissed your cheek golden.
"Was I snoring?" he teased you, raising a hand to push your hair out of your face before fondly stroking the side of your head. You shook your head, resting your hand against his bare chest and sighing deeply.
"I just missed you."
"I'm right here baby," he frowned. "Did you have a bad dream?"
"I was just thinking," you whispered, your eyes scrunching shut at the quiver in your voice that betrayed your strong faƧade. Before he could catch sight of the tears shining in your eyes, you swiftly lodged your face into the curve of his shoulder, holding him close against you.
"What were you thinking about?" he let his lips rest over your ear.
"About how much I love you?" you short titter escaped when he traced his finger over the outline of your back. "Stop, that tickles."
"I know it does," he smirked but stopped his actions nonetheless. "Do you know what I was dreaming of?"
You shook your head, "What?"
With an amused sound, he gently pushed you back to take a look at you. "I had a dream that we had two kids, a girl, and a boy. Our girl was tall and she had your smile, and she was carrying our son in her arms. You know who she reminded me of?" he spoke quietly, his eyes following every place his finger traveled.
"Me?" you wondered. He nodded instantly, a wide smile taking over his expression. "Yes, you." He pinched your nose lovingly.
"She looked so responsible, with her gorgeous brown hair up until her shoulders. She had the kindest eyes, but what made me feel the happiest was the way she was caring for her brother. She held him so carefully, so delicately, she looked over him with the fondest eyes, and I just knew that even if I had to die at that very moment, she would never forsake her baby brother, she would always make sure that there would never come a day he goes hungry," Taehyung's eyes glistened under the dull light that came from the kitchen, looking down at you proudly.
"That was the very first time I had a dream about our future. Our children. And it makes me fall in love with you even more."
"Tae," you whispered. He nodded, brushing away the tear that rolled its way down your cheek. "We'll get there, sweetheart," he assured you, placing a firm kiss on your forehead.
"I'm afraid," you mumbled under your breath, holding onto him tighter in fear that he would disappear any moment. He frowned again, this time catching your face properly in his palms.
"Why?" he asked you, his voice low and gentle.
"I don't know," you let out a shaky breath, lowering your gaze.
"Hey, talk to me," he urged.
"Taehyung," you sighed, sitting up and turning away from him. He followed soon, but he stayed behind you, his hands pulling you back against his chest. "What if we don't make it?"
"Don't say such things, love. Why won't we make it?" you could hear the frown in his voice.
When you didn't reply, he lay his head upon your shoulder, reaching for your hands and intertwining them together with his own. "I love you, I need you to know that, okay?"
He sighed in relief when he felt you nod. "I love you too."
"Tell me what you feel," he muttered against the fabric of your t-shirt.
You looked down at his fingers that had enveloped your hands within his. Brushing his thumb tenderly with your own, you leaned into his embrace.
"I'm afraid I'll lose you."
Taehyung nodded, and you felt the ghost of a smile tug at your lips when he pulled you impossibly closer to his chest. His head was still lowered, a technique of getting you to open up without the fear of being pressured by someone's gaze. "You won't."
"I am scared of things going wrong if people find out about us."
He nodded again, lifting his head just a little so that he could kiss your shoulder blade. "We will face it together."
"I'm afraid you will leave me," you finally whispered, a teardrop falling onto his wrist. Taehyung froze behind you, his own eyes filling with tears at the fear that laced your voice. He had never seen you so afraid, so vulnerable, so broken before him.
"I won't," he mumbled against your skin, keeping his lips attached to you as he whispered it again. When you bent forward and began to cry, he moved with you, keeping you right against his heart and crying with you. "I won't leave you, baby. I won't."
"I'm scared Taehyung," you cried softly, his heart breaking at the feel of your tears falling onto his hand. He nodded, pulling you back so that you could lean against his shoulder.
"Hey, hey, listen to me, sweetheart, please," Taehyung mumbled, kissing away your tears and resting his face against yours. "There are so many people who already know about us, right? The boys have supported us from the very beginning, the company gave us a green signal too, do you remember how much we fought so that they could let us stay together? We can fight the world, as long as we stay together."
You let Taehyung hold you, one hand keeping both of yours in his grasp while the other wrapped around your chest, firmly attaching you to him.
"And our parents know about us too, sweetheart. Remember how my mum almost got us married when we went to meet her for the first time?" he giggled at the memory, his heart fluttering at the soft laugh that escaped your lips. "That was wild."
"Right? And I wouldn't want to brag but I know I impressed your dad with the very first conversation I had with him."
"All you said was, 'It's a pleasure to meet you, Sir,' and he fell for you," you chuckled softly, tilting your head towards him as he kissed your temple.
"I know he did, but my favorite part was when he told me that I was the best boyfriend he could have ever asked for his daughter." He whispered, squeezing your hand in assurance.
"We have so many people who love us, and most of all, we love each other. It's one of the strongest weapons to use when we have to fight the world, baby."
"I know," you pulled his arm closer to you. "I guess I was just overthinking."
"I won't ever leave you, Jagiya. Not happening. Imma kick it with a big fat 'NO', just like our dance move in Dynamite," the two of you began to laugh softly, a glimpse of the morning sun peeking through the windows.
"You promise?"
He finally turned you around in his arms, leaning forward to hold your lips with his in an embrace of its own.
"I promise."
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Promises.
Dreams.
A future.
Love.
When did such things begin to play hide and seek? You needed to know because these very words finally decided to play games with you.
A very cruel, heart-wrenching game.
You struggled to stay connected, your fists clenched and lips trembling as you watched the man who once comforted you with his words turn into a monster. A monster whose face turned a deeper shade of red with rage, droplets of spit spurting out of his lips with each word that he spat at you, the same lips that would kiss away your pain every single time. The same lips that mouthed the words that made you think it would've been better for him to just take a knife and stab you right in the chest.
It hurt. It hurt more than words could ever express as you stood in front of the man you struggled to stay connected with. Gone was the man who dreamt of a future with you. Gone was the man who promised to never leave you. Gone was the man who wished to fight the world hand-in-hand with you. No matter how much you tried to look for that very man, it was as if he ceased to exist. All you could see was a monster, a liar, a heartless, cold man who blamed you for things you were once most afraid of.
It made you feel ashamed to even bring his name to your tongue, it made you want to dig a hole in the ground and disappear, because his dark gaze made you feel so small. Yet you stood upright, with your eyes connected to his. When all else fails, you are the only person who can stand up for you, right? You are the only person who can make sure your head is held high, you are the only one who could save up enough energy to just stand, and face it like the woman that you were...right?
"Leave."
"What?"
"Did I stutter?" you asked him calmly, even though your tears were on a trip of their own. "Leave my house, right now."
"Why are you acting like this is my fault?" Taehyung's voice suddenly lost its punch, lowering down to a milder tone.
"I'm sorry Taehyung. It's my fault. Everything is my fault, okay? Are you satisfied now?" you sighed in defeat, your eyes burning with tiredness.
"Do you even realize what you have done?" he questioned you.
Unable to believe the audacity of the man in front of you, your jaw clenched in pain. "Yes. In fact, I do, do you need me to write it down for you so that you can stop shoving it into my face?" you yelled.
"I know I made a mistake Taehyung! I should've been more careful. I made a mistake that I've always been afraid of making but for the stupidest of reasons, I let my guard down because YOU," you pointed an accusing finger right at him, "You promised me that no matter what happens, we would fight this together. You held me that day and told me that you would never leave me and you ask me if I realize what I have done?"
He stood silently, his own eyes beginning to water at your words, which made you laugh in disbelief. "You do not have the right to be crying Taehyung. You walk in here after not contacting me for a week! And you break up with me because I simply wanted to hold your hand in the godforsaken park that you took me to?"
"Stop," he warned you, shutting his eyes.
"Really Taehyung? Really? I let you speak and take out all your anger on me because yes, whatever happened has negatively impacted your career, but didn't I always tell you that this day would come? And now you want me to stop?" you cried out, pulling at your hair as you watched him cover his face.
"Okay," you sniffled, wiping your tears away and pushing your hair behind your ears. "Let me tell you what is about to happen. You walk out the door and go fix whatever issue it was that led you to break the one woman who trusted you with her life. Go and apologize to your 'fans' and tell them you're sorry for dating someone without asking for their permission. Go and ask for forgiveness from the company that you slog day in and day out for, only because you wanted to be human for once."
"(Y/n)-"
"I'm not finished," you stated firmly, instantly silencing him.
"Once you leave, you better accept the fact that we are done. For good. Because there is no way in hell that I would be able to live with a man who broke me the way you did today."
To distract yourself from the clenching pain in your chest, you sat back down on the couch. The exact same couch that held memories that made you want to cry all over again.
"(Y/n), can you give it some time, please?" he pleaded, kneeling in front of you and holding your hands in his. You looked at him with tear-filled eyes, watching him as a pained look overtook his expression. "Let it settle for a while, please baby."
"Are you really asking me this? After all the things you told me today? You blamed me for the way your fan count decreased Taehyung, you blamed me for the insults that they never forget to bombard me with every single day. You told me that our relationship was the reason why people have stopped listening to your music?"
"No, no...please," he begged you, resting his head on your lap. You simply looked at him, your head beginning to throb. "Please, I'll come back to you, I swear, just give me some time. I'm sorry."
"It's not okay," you shook your head, pushing him away gently and looking him straight in the eye. There were tears falling from them, and you sat back and wondered how it was possible for him to be crying right now.
"I don't want you to come back to me, Taehyung. I cannot be with you. You hurt me, more than anyone has ever hurt me. You broke me to pieces today," you whispered, finally breaking down in front of him. Taehyung shook his head, sitting back down on the floor and crying into his hands, soft sobs causing his body to shudder as he heard you cry before him.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..." he blubbered messily, "Please, let me sort everything out. Give me one more chance, baby, please. Let me come back to you."
Taehyung suddenly jolted upright, leaping towards you on his knees, grabbing your hands and holding them tenderly to his lips. With sorrowful eyes, he looked up at you, utterly broken at the pain he could see on your face. "I"m sorry, I'm sorry for not fighting for you. I'm sorry I gave up on you, but please, give me a chance to make things right. Please. I can't lose you, that was never my intention."
You sighed, shaking your head and releasing your hands from his grip. "You lost me the moment you gave up on me, Taehyung."
"No," he cried, standing up with you and stopping you from walking away. "I said I'm sorry, please give me a chance to convince them, I'll come back to you, I'll hold your hand and take you out for a date with no shame and nothing to hide. I'll show the world that I'm in love and one day when we get married I wil-"
"Taehyung, stop," you whispered, suddenly overwhelmed as you held your palm to his cheek. He began to cry instantly, leaning into your touch with his eyes shut. "What's the point in fighting for me now?"
His eyes opened, reaching up to grab your face within his warm hands. You inhaled sharply, your heart still leaping at his touch.
"Because I still love you."
Why would he say that?
Why did he have the power to break down all the walls you built up just to protect yourself?
Why was it so real?
It hurt so much to hear him say that. It broke you even more than it did when he yelled at you a few hours ago, yet you didn't stop him when he pulled you against him. You didn't push him back when he kissed you like there was no tomorrow, you couldn't stop your hands from desperately grabbing onto his collar as his fingers pulled your head closer to him. You couldn't. Even though you tried, you just couldn't.
Because you still loved him too.
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WHY DID IT HURT SO MUCH
If you enjoy torturing yourself as much as I do, try All the things I didn't doš
BTS reaction to their s/o getting in a car accident
BTS reaction you like them but they like your friend
[Hyung Line] [Maknae Line]
BTS reaction to playing Pokemon GO with their s/o
BTS reaction to their ice skater s/o getting injured
BTS reaction to their s/o not wanting kids
BTS Hyung Line reaction to their crush liking another member
Songs that remind BTS of their s/o
BTS reaction to their s/o moving them to tears
BTS reaction to their s/o shaving off their hair
BTS reaction teaching their s/o how to dance
BTS reaction to having a crush on another memberās best friend
[Hyung Line] [Maknae Line]
BTS reaction to their s/o getting late night snacks
What Disney song BTS would sing with their s/o
BTS reaction to s/o being afraid of the dark
BTS reaction to the silent treatment (fluff)
BTS reaction to their pet doesnāt like their s/o
BTS reaction to their s/o talking to themselves
BTS AU: Finding their soulmate [Hyung Line] [Maknae Line]
BTS reaction to the members making a dirty joke about s/o *
BTS members as your boyfriend [Hyung Line] [Maknae Line]
BTS reaction to their s/o finding a bug
BTS members as your best friends (HC)
BTS reaction to kissing their crush + holding their hand
BTS reaction to getting their wisdom teeth pulled
BTS reaction to hearing their s/o singing in the shower
BTS reaction to their s/o walking in on them showering
BTS reaction to their s/o finding them smoking
BTS reaction to their s/o scaring them
BTS reaction to s/o jokingly threatening them after they apologize
BTS reaction to sleeping with their best friend when drunk*
BTS reaction to ruining the mood*
BTS reaction to breaking up with s/o and regretting it {Hyung Line} {Maknae Line}
BTS reaction to s/o wanting them to be their first time*
BTS reaction to s/o being an airhead/gullible
BTS reaction to having a POC s/o
BTS reaction to s/o having chubby cheeks
BTS reaction to rejecting you
BTS reaction to their s/o being younger
BTS reaction to their s/o getting hate during mukbang stream
BTS reaction to their s/o being short
BTS reaction to you confessing your crush on them
BTS reaction to accidentally yelling at you
BTS reaction to their s/o having a stalker
BTS reaction to their s/o crying over characterās death
BTS reaction to their s/o kissing them in front of the others
Downsides of BTS Memberās (HC)
BTS reaction to their s/o calling them pet names
BTS reaction to going to the zoo with their s/o
BTS reaction to finding out theyāre gonna be a dad
BTS reaction to their s/o asking to hold their hand in a crowd
BTS reaction to their s/o getting sunburnt
What BTS would put their s/oās contact name as
BTS reaction to their s/o crying over them dying in a fanfiction
BTS reaction to you leaving love letters in their locker
BTS reaction to their wedding
BTS reaction to their s/o learning Korean
BTS reaction to being their crushās bias
BTS reaction to not being their s/oās bias
BTS reaction to their s/o graduating
BTS reaction to finding out their s/oās mother passed away
BTS reaction to finding out their s/o sings very well
BTS reaction to their s/o not being touchy
BTS reaction to their s/o having an identical twin
BTS reaction to picking their s/o up from a delayed flight
BTS reaction to their s/o overworking
BTS reaction to their s/o having one meal a day
Seokjin
Canāt Keep Lying
Namjoon
English battle with s/o
Stargazing
Yoongi
Pranking him with a fake hickey
Tsundere!Yoongi, your birthday
J-Hope
House of Memories
Dance practice with his s/o
Jimin
None yet
Taehyung
Art MuseumĀ with s/o
Jungkook
Visiting his s/oās hometown
Memberā teasing him about your relationship
pairing: taehyung x readerĀ
word count: 6.937
genre: smutĀ
rating: +18 | explicitĀ
warnings: strong language, teasing, dirty talk, oral [f receiving], fingering, orgasm delay/denial, praise kink, sir kink, creampie, nipple play, rough sex, unprotected sex
au: exesĀ
trope: sex with the exĀ
tags: shameless smut, big dick!taehyung, possessive!taehyung, best friend!jimin, best friend!yoongi
crosspost: ao3
summary: great chemistry is an extreme waste when people are terrible at communication and feelings.
ā disclaimer: this is a work of fiction taken from the depths of my imagination, which takes place in an alternative universe (AU) and has no real connection with people, places or organizations. everything you will read is fictional and created by me. i do not authorize its reproduction, translation or publication, partially or entirely Ā© mrsparknamjoon
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SIBI HOLY FUCK. im so confused and scared rn.... did tae really trapped oc? who tf saved her in the end? will she be a vampire? i cant wait anymore for the next chapter which will be titled HURT š«šš¤š¼š
Pairing: Taehyung x f.Reader
Warnings: the beginning is very sweet until everything does a 180 and it turns very dark, violent blooddrinking, hunts, violence, betrayal, those are not your sweet romanticised vampires
Wordcount:Ā 8k
a/n: i hate them, also istfg if just one of you blames oc i will slaughter you painfully
The sun was already getting ready for her sleep when you and Taehyung finally leave his wing. You hadnāt planned on leaving his wing, but your rumbling stomach convinced you otherwise.Ā
You giggle as Taehyung catches up with you on the stairs. He wraps his arms around you, picking you up with ease.
āWhat are you doing? Tae put me downā, you laugh.
āNeverā, he says, pressing you against the handrailing at the end of the stairs, āyouāre mine darlingā, he coos, caressing your sides.
āMhm, yeah I amā, you say, grinning goofily. His hair feels so soft in your fingers.
āIām so happy to have you againā, he whispers, making your heart flutter.
āIām happy tooā, you breathe, feeling your body draw closer to him all on its own.
āLetās never ever fight againā, he says, making you chuckle.
āThatās a little unrealisticā, you say.Ā
He pouts, earning himself a soft pinch to his cheek.Ā
āFine, letās never ever fight againā, you give in with fondness in your voice.Ā
āThatās betterā, he says and smiles.Ā
āYouāre so cute."Ā
"Ah yes? Are you perhaps talking to a mirror?"Ā
You snort, "Tae come onā, you whine.
Taehyung grins and leans in for a kiss, stopping as your stomach rumbles loudly. You both look down at it.
āAre you famished, my sweetest?ā he asks, rubbing his hand over your tummy gently.
āYes, a little, stupid human stomach, it ruined the mood.ā
Taehyung looks at you with fondness in his eyes.
āLetās get you something to eat, shall we?ā
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part one ā angst
āplease stay a whileā
ādon't lose your heartā
āso sad it ends as it beganā
āhow I loved you, how I criedā
āyou'll get forgotten on the wayā
ālove of my life, don't leave meā
āwas it all wasted? all that love?ā
āI have no heart, I'm cold insideā
āyou're the victim of your crimeā
āeach morning I get up I die a littleā
āsave me I can't face this life aloneā
āit's always a rainy day without youā
āsomeday, one day, we'll come homeā
āyou've captured my love, stolen my heartā
āI'm just the shadow of the man I used to beā
āI've been facing this alone for much too longā
ābecause you don't know what it means to meā
āwho dares to love forever, when love must die?ā
āif I can't go to heaven will they let me go to hell?ā
āfunny how love can break your heart so suddenlyā
āI've been looking back to find where I went wrongā
āI would surely die if you dismiss me from your loveā
āthere's nothing in this world to be sure of anymoreā
ātoo much love will kill you just as sure as none at allā
āit started off so well, they said we made a perfect pairā
āfor every star in heaven there's a sad soul here todayā
āso please don't go, don't leave me here all by myselfā
āone day we're loving each other then we're fighting one anotherā
āI was looking for some good old satisfaction, but pain is all I gotā
āI used to bring you sunshine now all I ever do is bring you downā
ādon't you hear my call? though you're many years away don't you hear me calling you?ā
pairing: ex-boyfriend Seokjin! x reader genre(s): just angst... i'm sorry au(s): exes to exes word count: 1.3k warnings:Ā lots of regret, pining, misunderstandings, mentions of a past fight, Seokjin gets burned, both literally and figuratively rating: PG15
summary: based on this tweet, "seokjin the type to make too much pasta after a breakup because he's used to cooking for two" T_T
a/n: i was itching to write some good angst... and my muse (aka Jin) responded! this is sad, and i made myself cry. tagging @beckysworld7 because you encouraged me hehe <3 this is pretty unedited btw
Seokjin's ears fill with a loud hiss, tearing his gaze away from the soft patter of rain outside his window, and back to the boiling water on the stove. His eyes widen as he takes in the sight of the water overflowing and sizzling on the hot stove top. Cursing internally, he chastises himself for not remembering to put a wooden spoon over the top. It was a habit he rarely forgot, until, of course, his life had been tossed so far afield that he had lost all sense of familiarity.
And so, he continued on, fighting tooth and nail to hold on to the parts of his life that defined who he was before it had happened. However, the breakup had left him broken, empty, watching you take the best parts of him, of you both, and throw them away like theyād never meant anything at all.
He reaches over to pull the frothing pot off the stove, yelping as the blistering heat of the hot metal kisses his bare skin. Shaking his hand, he yells in pain and runs cold water over the burn, searching for some sort of relief. The taste of ash coats his mouth, and heās not sure whether itās from the pasta heād nearly burnt, or the acrid memories that have begun to rise up from the deep place heād buried them so many months ago.
Pappardelle with homemade bolognese sauce. Heād made the dish a thousand times before. It had been your favorite after every night out, every big celebration, even on rainy days, like today, when you weren't feeling well. The fresh, al dente noodles and the simmering hearty sauce were irrevocably tied to the memory of your relationship, each bite creating a different snapshot in his brain of times that had passed long ago.
Every Friday night since the last time he saw you, Seokjin made two bowls of pasta, sitting alone at the dining table, breathless and begging for you to walk through the door. Waiting until the steaming bowls ran cold, he finally accepted that you weren't coming today. After finishing one bowl, he'd put away the other one, sneaking bites of the cold, rubbery dough throughout the weekend; coming home from another failed date, or right before bed when the longing was at its worst.
He heard Namjoonās voice in the back of his head, chastising him that the way he was living wasnāt healthy, that itād been too long since you had gone. Seokjin knew his friend was right. But Seokjin didnāt know how to live his life without you, just like heād never known how to only make one serving of your favorite recipe. And so he sat there, in the oppressive loneliness of the apartment you two had once shared, and lost himself.
Shuddering from the cold, he gazes over to the warm, calm flames that burn in the fireplace. At the end of it all, he hadnāt even remembered what caused the fight that ended it - all he remembers was the rage, the inferno that had erupted between the two of you. It was like nothing he had experienced before - hot, angry, and scathing. Blazing down everything in its path. The bitter stench of regret had settled deep inside his lungs as your footsteps ran out and closed the door behind you.
The doorbell rings, followed by the distinct sound of three rhythmic knocks, and Seokjin freezes.
Swinging the door open, his dazed mind wonders if itās all been a dream. Because itās you, cheeks red from the cold, bundled up in the plaid scarf and red mittens heād gotten you for your very first Christmas together. You look beautiful, and Seokjinās heart hurts all over again. Because youāre not his to love anymore.
You look towards his downturned gaze, and immediately think to yourself that it was a mistake coming here. The two of you stand on opposite sides of the threshold, forced into an impasse of your own doing.
Deciding to break the silence, you clear your throat, and Jinās glassy eyes meet yours, pain contained within their umber depths.
āIām so sorry for showing up like this,ā you gasp, not realizing the words come out as a sob. āBut I was making a dish, umm, the pappardelle with bolognese. And I realized I left the Le Creuset pot with you.ā
Taking a deep breath, you force air into your lungs, mustering up the strength to continue while feeling the tears prick your eyelashes.
āYou probably donāt want to give it back,ā you mumble in the smallest voice you can manage. āAnd itās unfair of me to ask for it, but I needed to make something for a thing I have to go to and I remembered you, uhmm, I mean your recipe.ā
Peering through your lids at Seokjin, you watch him gulp as he tries to force a response, struggling to get the words out.
āI have the pot,ā he garbles, voice hoarse. āTake it, and donāt worry about the pasta. I made some. You can have it too.ā
Looking your ex-boyfriend in the eyes, the man you thought youād have forever with, a sob escapes your throat, and your heavy breaths echo in the frosty air as he waits for you to respond.
āW-what do you mean take it?ā you whimper, fingers itching underneath your mittens to reach out and brush a stray strand of hair out of his eyes.
āI make it every Friday,ā he whispers. āTwo bowls. You can take the other bowl with you.ā
You watch him disappear into the apartment, coming back out with a sizzling pot of pasta in his hands. He pauses, visage lost deep in contemplation, before the lines in his face disappear and he gives you a soft smile.
āOr,ā he goes on. āYou could come in and have some with me? Thereāll probably be enough leftovers for you to take home with you.ā
You feel a pit in your stomach at his proposition, glancing over at his pretty eyes and parted lips as they hopefully await your response.
Looking away, you stare down the hall of the apartment complex, not wanting to meet his gaze as you push your red mitten to the side and Seokjin catches a glimpse at your blanched fingers.
A sparkling, oval-cut diamond sits on your left ring finger, and through your pounding heartbeat, you hear Seokjin let out a pained whine.
āI-, Iām so sorry, Jin. I never should have come,ā you weep, knowing that if you looked him in the eyes one more time, youād fall in love all over again.
Turning on your heels, you leave him devastated, thoughts swimming with uncertainty about the fiancĆ© waiting for you in the parlor of his parentsā house. Knowing deep in your soul that part of your heart would forever belong to the man you left at the threshold, clutching the steaming dish in his hands.
Slamming the pot onto the counter, Jin chokes on his tears, heaving in between deep breaths as he watches you run away through the window.
Lifting the spoon to his lips, he inhales a large bite of the dish, hoping to nurse his broken heart, only to have a dull flavorless bite coat his tongue. Heād forgotten the salt. Mourning the loss of his finesse for the dish that had once warmed his heart, he canāt help but remark at the forfeit of his love for you as well.
He feels rage overtake him, throwing the pot against the wall. The tasteless rubbery mess along with the shattered remnants of the last item of yours heād kept painting a gut-wrenching portrait as he slumps to the floor.
He doesnāt know how long he stays there, tears leaking from his eyes as his whole body shakes.
When the clock strikes midnight, Seokjin rises, picking up the bland mess in his hands and throwing it in the trash. For good.
A/N pt. 2: Thanks for reading! As always, any feedback or comments are much appreciated, but I appreciate you all anyway. Lots of love, Isi š
"you moved on. help me do the same."
i scoffed, who said i did?
thus it will become lovers to enemies to lovers au
⢠āOh, come on, donāt glare at me like that. Weāre enemies, not total strangers. Even with how much you wished we were.ā
⢠āNo. Donāt you dare. You know I wouldāve burned down the entire world to earn another minute with you, and you couldnāt even be bothered to stay.ā
⢠āIām tired of this cat-and-mouse chase, and I canāt keep seeing your face knowing I canāt even hold you anymore.ā
⢠āI care enough not to kill you, darling. But not enough to keep you safe.ā
⢠āYou moved on. Help me do the same.ā
⢠āPlease. Either you were lying to me this whole time, or youāre lying to yourself right now. I donāt know which hurts more.ā
⢠āYou can pretend youāre good/evil all you want, I know you. I loved you. And this is not who you are. It never was.ā
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The darkest side of the love is, that it can break you in seconds. It makes you strong but weak at the same time. It depends on the person youāre in love with ā and if that person is in love with you as well.
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Hi, this is really random, and you donāt have to answer this if you donāt want: Iām asking you because I like the way you speak about life, and fate, and whatnot. But does life get better? Does it ever actually get to be something thatās not a struggle everyday? Do you think that fate has plans for some people to be struggling or overcoming obstacles so that they can carry out something specific? Like for instance, Virginia Woolf or Van Gogh?
Iām sorry to bring down the mood, I just wondered what you think about this since the way you speak about fate and life really makes sense to me š« š
TRIGGER WARNING: I WILL BE DISCUSSING SENSITIVE TOPICS IN THIS POST. PLEASE BE CAREFUL READING.
Yes! This is a fascinating question and it actually pulls me to a different topic, but hopefully itāll help with your question.
To feel great pain is a great privilege because it means you actually care.
So many people drift through life just trying to find anything they are passionate about. They donāt suffer at all because they donāt care. Nothing truly matters to them and they will struggle with that. Everyone struggles with something, but itās varying degrees.
From all the evidence Iāve been able to gather, we all descend on life to become better human beings. We all have things to work on, and we chose our challenges to hopefully improve on our faults. Maybe we need to be more patient. Maybe we need to learn to extend grace to others. Maybe we need to learn to stand up for ourselves. Maybe we need to learn to be more selfless.
We learn a lot through struggling.
But sometimes aspects of our life goals for this life span are to help other people. Virgins Wolf, for example, her suffering has actually become a great solace for others who are suffering. She can offer loneliness a companion. Sometimes your goal is bigger than just yourself.
But on a personal note - yes, life does get better. Iāve yet to see someone whose truly struggling not be able to overcome it in some way or another. It does get better. Life is wonderful, but sometimes chapters just suck and thatās ok. You sometimes need the suck to appreciate the amazing.
TRIGGER WARNING: suicide
This is including people who commit suicide. They often are in a place of true misunderstanding and not one that Iāve spoken to on the other side doesnāt regret their choice. Some, for example if they have health problems, feel a sense of relief but mixed with regret. Others who have clarity now fully regret the decision and are working on bettering their next life. Some will wait for their loved ones so that they can apologize to them. Some become spirit guides to their loved ones to try to limit the pain and damage suicide can cause.
oh man i'm gonna miss him in equipe de france so bad. this hurts so bad.
But English media said he's the weakest link š„±
Itās our worldwide handsomeās turn,
Kim Seokjin, ź¹ģģ§
04.12.92, Sagittarius
Jin was attending Konkuk University, majoring in Film and Acting when he was scouted by a casting director due to his looks.
He officially signed on with BigHit in 2011
Jin joined BigHit with the intention of becoming an actor but BigHit convinced him to take singing & dancing lessons to join BTS Ā
Before joining BigHit, Jin was supposedly going to work at his fatherās company
During their first ever MCOUNTDOWN performance, Jin has a wardrobe malfunction where his pants fell & he cried after the performance (please he did so well Iām so proud, did I go back and rewatch all their performance? Yes I did & my heart swells with so much pride no matter how many times I rewatch the performance.)
He has an older brother
Recently he opened a restaurant with his brother
Previously, SM Entertainment attempted to scout him as well but he assumed it was a joke so he ignored it.
Despite being a trainee & even after debuting, Jin attended university and graduated in 2017
Heās currently enrolled in Hanyang Cyber University, pursuing his Masters
Pink was his favorite color but recently he said his favorite color is blue (mine too!)
Shoulder gangster (literally translated from Hangul)
He revealed that his shoulders are 60cm
That pic of his shoulder while he was in the kitchen (everyone say thank you BTS)
Jinās legendary pink flip phone
EATJIN (Honestly when I watch EatJin it takes me a moment to realize that I ended up watching a grown ass man eat & chat for 25 mins which seemed like 5 mins)
Heās a really good cook
Always cooks for his members on their birthdays
His favorite food is lobster & meat
While they were at Saipan, BTS ordered 10 lobsters & on top of that, Jin ordered 10 more lobsters and went to each of the staffās table to share the lobsters with them
Such an angel
According to BTS, Jin has the best body among them (did yāall see the fansite picture of him during one of the concerts where his abs were revealed by accident? You can bet your ass I have a hard copy of it in my pc/lomo card collection.
Super Mario mania, he started playing when he was 5 years old
He instinctively winks at anyone who makes eye contact with him for several seconds
Blowing kisses at anyone & everyone cause he has so much love to spread
His love for alpacas are so cute, SHOUTOUT TO RJ
He can open bags of chips/sweets with his feet
WORLD. WIDE. HANDSOME
His windshield laughter
His Dad jokes (I love Dad jokes too so everytime he says something, my reaction is exactly like Jiminās)
Chaotic Jin
Q: Whatās your good luck charm?
Jin: Yeah itās my face
āMy handsomeness has been entrenched in my life.ā
HIS VOICE
OMG PLEASE, I STILL CANāT BELIEVE PEOPLE SLEPT ON HIM BEFORE EPIPHANY
Like Awake was a fucking masterpiece & his voice is just perfect
STREAM AWAKE & EPIPHANY YOU COWARDS
Itās like every time he performs Epiphany, he only gets better
āWhen I was younger, my Mum used to just listen to her friends bragging about their sons. She just listened to them without saying anything. So I thought I want to make my Mum be proud of her son too.ā
That clip of Jungkook joining him during EatJin & he makes wailing noises while eating & listening to songs
And Namjoon barges in to check on the noise (I fucking lost my shit OMG)
He gets scared/startled easily
Omg that Zombie Run Episode I just I feel so bad for laughing but it gets me every time I watch it..ahā¦Jin & Yoongi left me in tears cause I laughed so much.
Jin has prescription glasses but due to feeling insecure about wearing them, he prefers to use contacts
His cute ācrookedā fingers Ā
He can play the guitar and piano
Heās really good at snowboarding as well
Friends with Sandeul
Jin & Yoongi were roommates in their previous dorm but recently Jin has his own room
Bought an apartment estimated to be $1.7M in cash
SAVAGE JIN (Just like many ARMYs Iām convinced he contributes to the lyrics of rap line songs)
āI played these games, someone said āMarry Meā in a chat room. No.ā
āSome viewers are asking me āLet me have a bite pleaseā Iām sorry, buy your own food.ā Ā
āArenāt you jealous of everyone coming to the concert?ā
āDonāt cut my words while Iām speakingā
Yoongi: I would like to try (playing a game) Ā Jin: Go home and play
I texted Bang PD & said āI look good todayā & send him a selfie. He asked. āAre you having fun?ā I said Iām having fun because Iām handsome. Bang PD said āAh that means I wonāt have fun.ā I didnāt know how to reply to him.
Who is your favorite Hollywood crush? Actress.
Jin: BRAD PITT
WE STAN CONFIDENT KINGS ONLY
The time he cut his fringe in his bathroom all by himself while filming itĀ
Hugs every member before a concert or performance so they wonāt be nervous
That arm wave he did just to smack Jungkookās hand in BV
The only person who can put Yoongi in his place
āDonāt cut my words while Iām speakingā
*Yoongi shows a rough sketch of his BT21 Holly picture*
Jin: Isnāt that the same as mine? Ā *showing a sketch of RJ* Come on you looked at mine!
But they are so cute together, especially in the Zombie episode where both of them were huddled together at a corner
Or how they encouraged each other to dress up in the bandages & coats
Praising the zombie actors for their good method acting
Jin & Namjoon, kinda like the Mum & Dad of the group
I live for their interactions, they are so soft & cute with each other
Their attempts at trying to do a heart together always gets me
That backhug mission where Namjoon willingly helped him by hugging him and resting his head on Jinās shoulders
During a fanmeet Namjoon winked & blew kisses at Jin & he got all flustered & shy
Jimin exposed them with that dating article š
NAMJIN
The way heās so huggable & clingy with Hobie (heās like that with everyone but especially towards Hobie š)
How Hoibe just accepts and has this soft smile at whatever Jin says or does
And joins him at times
Argh Jimin is so soft & whipped for Jin like OMG
Literally, everytime Jin cracks a joke, Jimin bursts out laughing
How Jin acts like the maknae & Jimin just goes along with it
Cuites
These two bring the party & dance moves wherever they go
Taejin dancing & having a good time at GDA
Throwback to Attack on Seok & TaeĀ
They are so sweet & encouraging towards each other
Taejin
God please, these two are gonna be the death of me
They bicker anywhere & everywhere
When Jin does something cute or weird Jungkook has this soft & cute smile while he admire Jin *gif*
Itās so fluffy & cute argh my heart
Bickers with Jin anytime & every time
But you can see how much he loves & adores Jin š
Heās so goofy & dorky I love it
The way he tries to hold back his laughter before he completes telling a joke & starts laughing, to a point where his face is red, is hilarious yet so lovable.
How he lets the maknae line tease him and annoy him, joining their shenanigans at times.
Despite everything you can see the amount of love and respect, they have for him.
Heās so full of love & warmth & heās not afraid to show it or share it
He is so humble, dorky and appreciative of every BTS member, ARMY and everyone in his life
Give this man the love he deserves cause he deserves the world
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"If this can no longer resonate, no longer make my heart vibrate; then this will be how I die my first death."
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