Caution: Don't Get Too Close With Me (I Hurt Ppl)

when Rumi wrote, “You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens,” he was referring to breaking our heart by giving and receiving love from other people, to fully trust them, which means, if they break the trust, our heart would break. If this repeats, either with the same or different partner, we will eventually wise up by opening our heart to ourselves: by loving ourselves, by being accountable. To ourselves.

Only when we open our heart to ourselves first, we can have a healthy relationship with ourselves. Anyone who has a healthy relationship with themselves will have a healthy outlook on life and relationship with others. It’s similar to the saying, “you can’t pour from an empty cup”. Fill your cup first. Take care of yourself first. Love yourself first.

Once we love ourselves, we don’t feel the need to completely depend on others for our happiness. Sure our happiness gets affected somehow, but if they decide to betray us or leave us, instead of kicking and screaming, throwing tantrums (or shoes, or plates), we’ll peacefully let them go. I’m not saying that we won’t feel sad or angry. The uncomfortable feelings are inevitable, but when we love ourselves, we will not avoid the responsibility to take care of ourselves.

In the long run, we’ll naturally repel anyone who is not right for us

I would like to go on a walk for a while. So I thought why not hit you up too for my company. So you up for a walk?

“Comparing yourself to others is an act of violence against your authentic self.”

— Iyanla Vanzant

I don't feel like living anymore..Take me up god

Well the question is "why are you sad when you get home??"

People say, stop thinking about things that pains you. It's your time at home with your parents, enjoy , have fun, spend time with them.

Well I am sorry , I tried but I can't. I ain't that person even after several trials. I am not trying anymore .

I am home. In my space where I can breathe , I can talk without people judging me. I am alone with my vulnerable self. I am sad, trying to feel my pain.

I am feeling things deeply. If I am going through something that is uncomfortable or painful or hard, I am allowing myself to dive into those emotions or allow myself to numb them. I don't wanna kill my pain through television or spending time with friends or Instagram. I chose not to protect myself from pain because it demands to be felt . Pain demands to be felt . Coz I feel it will show up in other ways if I do not deal with it now.

Not knowing what you're going through is the worst part of any problem

There will always be an invisible bridge between us

A hope , a feeling of optimism or a wish for something to happen. But here I am in disbelief that the thing I was yearning for years won't come true..

Fear of being judged by my own thereby begetting intense and impending danger portraying the evil in me

I know it hurts but I believe that these gestural expressions gives me hope of things that won't come true.. which also puts me into vivid grief..

Feels like I am enclosed within the walls of hell

But I do realize that I have a spiritual bond with the almighty which makes me an angel trapped in inferno

IN A WORLD FULL OF CHAOS,

I am looking for PEACE 🕊

I need time

Sometimes, losing people helps you find yourself.

“I missed you until I realized there was never really anything to miss but the peace I felt before I knew you.”

— Unknown