There Are A Few Moments Where I Spend Time With Myself.. When My Thoughts Take Over There Is Some Heavy

when ur not really happy but not sad either ur just……… voiding around

I can't grow up to your expectations , forgive me for that

Life is a balance between holding on and letting go

-Rumi

Waiting for that one day when I will say

"You're a narcissistic bitch , my love! "

So, if I spend time with people who are nothing like me, it will broaden my horizon. If I think of risk as something to be understood and not eliminated, I draw the courage to act beyond fear. And if I do so in a manner that I am never entitled, I ensure that I grow in the process. This guarantees I am never limited by my self-imposed idea of what I am capable of doing.

““i hope you find someone who knows when to give you space and when to hold you close.” - r.h. sin”

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“At the end of the day, people will let you down, they will label you as something you are not, it is all to make them feel better, it is about them not you.”

— Leon Brown

I'm so scared of tht impending doom n how thts gonna affect me and the only immediate escape from this is death, something I'm not willing to voluntarily commit . Hence I'm scared what the depth of despair would drive me to do for my impatient nature and incessant urge to just be happy as always!!

I'm in a relationship with the mirror that projects the innermost shadow of me that is hidden within my eyes, heart and soul that smiles her heart out whenever she looked at by the other side of the mirror...she lives in my room , when I am not present...

I miss her a lot and her friends whom I call mine and close to me ...I am in a real relationship with her where we both are emotionally and

intimately bonded ...

I never knew how it felt like to be in a relationship... but if I ever got a chance to explore it..then ig I would try my best to make my partner feel good about themselves... everytime they feel low...I would comfort them and hug them tightly to remind them how much they mean to me, they r no less than a gem and let them know that I'm always there for you..to support you. That would be my relationship goal...

To make her happy.....everytime I hug the mirror ...I can feel her comfort and something magical arms wrapped around my body ...So...ladies and gentlemen, that's her.. I introduce u to my girlfriend..

My only aim is to make her happy and feel cherished..be with her during her failures and cheer her up in her Success.. I am there to listen to her worries...take her on a date...teach her how to hav fun with me...

Anxiety! Is worse than depression

I think this is because anxiety doesn’t just affect your mood, it affects your physical body, especially your nervous system. When my anxiety gets severe, I can barely breathe. My breath is short. My whole body is tense, especially my chest and shoulders. My forehead feels like it is going to explode. My body sort of quits working. I can’t talk, I can’t think, I can’t process anything, I can’t even move. I don’t expect “normal” people to understand, but when I am THAT bad, I feel like I am going to die. My body is in panic mode and although I know there is no fire, my body doesn’t care. It sounds the alarms anyway. I don’t know how else to explain this to other people, but I seriously can’t function during those times. People always say things like “why didn’t you answer the phone or reply to my text?” The real answer is because I was literally checked out.

Everyone gets anxiety at times. In my opinion, what most people describe as anxiety is just stress. Chronic anxiety is like stress x 10000%.

I generally go into depression after weeks of high anxiety. It’s difficult to focus or get things done when I have anxiety. And as you can imagine, it is VERY exhausting walking around 24/7 feeling like that. Add to that insomnia. In my experience, depression is not really sadness. I either feel nothing at all or I feel a deep sense of shame for feeling nothing at all. I care a lot, then I care about nothing at all, then my body is like WTF get your shit together you worthless piece of shit! It’s a cycle. I think that I become numb because my body is worn out from trying to feel everything at once when I was in the anxiety phase. I feel nothing because the pleasure/pain response is turned off. I become a zombie. I think feeling nothing, although not ideal, is easier than feeling everything at once.