I'm So Scared Of Tht Impending Doom N How Thts Gonna Affect Me And The Only Immediate Escape From This

“Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.”

— Theodore Roosevelt

“Maybe we’ll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds less hectic, and I’ll be right for you and you’ll be right for me. But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart.”

— Unknown

I feel tired always as if my eyes is asking for rest, my mind is constantly thinking,I feel completely blank as if I am dead inside, sadness is like on and off

“I promised no more poetry and I'd rather think of this as a confession: you are still the first person I want to share new things with.”

— Trista Mateer, Honeybee

There are a few moments where I spend time with myself.. when my thoughts take over there is some heavy feeling in my chest, I become an unknown person, I feel like staying in isolation and breaking things and scream out loud...since I'm unable to do all those.. I scream without a voice and hands began to crawl over my face , I act like a mentally ill person , I feel like scratching my face, hitting myself, I just feel like destroying everything, my hands and legs crumbles and most of the time I scratch my face , I cry quietly. What is happening with me

“You will be too much for some people. Those aren’t your people.”

— Unknown

I know I break boundaries.

I know my friends are pissed.

I know what I'm doing is no good.

I know my actions will harm me.

I know it will destroy my inner peace.

And I still do it.

But I don’t blame myself, nor do I try to warn.

After a point, I just stop because…

I know I’m stubborn, and once my mind is made up, nothing will change it.

So, I do it.

I do whatever my fragile heart wants and yearns for,

Even though the feeling doesn’t last long.

I do it.

But I also let it hurt.

I let myself bear the consequences.

It’s hard, but I’ll do it.

And one thing I’m glad about is that I’m always there for myself

Before and after anything bad happens.

I don’t put myself down.

I don’t curse myself for the poor decisions I make.

I let it hurt, but with my utmost care and concern.

I accept that this action was meant to happen,

And it’s okay to make stupid decisions.

We all make mistakes and outgrow them eventually.

I’m gentle with my heart,

And I love that about myself.

STEPS*

Being alone sucks at first

Prepare your mind to live with it. It will take time, so be patient. Slowly slowly.. You will love it..

Then you won't care to be alone anymore

Thats when you get to be stronger.

reassurance is so important to me, let me know what i mean to you.