I'm Soooooooo Soooooooooo Soooooooooo Sooooooooo Sooooooooo Soooooooooo Sooooooooooo Sooooooo SAD

TAKE ME HOME

I don't wanna see anyone..nor my mom ,dad or sister...

They never understand me nd never will , but they try to..but I can't help them .

And tht became a biggest problems of mine

I talk too much when I like someone.

You know, there are some people you meet in life…

You feel like they’re such a cool person. You try talking to them, but there’s this feeling deep down that you could never really be their friend or even an acquaintance even though you’d love to be a part of their life.

You try reaching out often. And though you try, somewhere in your heart, you feel like a real connection is impossible… because they’re totally out of your league.

There’s love from them, yes but it’s so far from you that it’s hard to even notice it, let alone feel it.

It’s like the universe placed them just close enough for you to admire, but never close enough to hold.

This is exactly how I feel about you.

It’s what I felt after one failed video call with you.

No matter how much I try or don’t

the bond... will it ever be something I can truly call a bond?

There’s no blame on anyone.

This is just how it is.

And it hurts.

Because I feel like a sister that is foriegn to you.

Everyone you love, or are close to even in terms of friendship

stays a stranger to me.

They talk to me just for the sake of basic courtesy. This is how I feel. Maybe it’s not the truth.

But the feeling is real.

And sometimes, I wonder

after mom and dad...

do I really have anyone in this life I can lean on?

And that thought… it makes me really sad.

I'll be fine, I will be.

Love stories are not about love, they are about what happens to people when they are in love .

-Imtiaz Ali

you need to respect that your sibling has new priorities, and are likely trying their best! Be patient

“—I want to change: I want to stop fear’s subtle / guidance of my life—”

— Frank Bidart, from Half-light: Collected Poems; “California Plush” (via luthienne)

Questions to which I don't have answers

Why do I feel sad when I am alone?

Why do I think like everyone around me are staring when actually they aren't?

Why do I suddenly feel broken when I get to know i am gonna be alone?

Why do my mind and heart pity me in that situation?

Why do my heart and mind gets weak by then?

Why am I not happy when I am alone?

When am I gonna enjoy solitude like others ?

How can I overcome this feeling of nothingness during solitude?

Why is sitting alone in a room with people tough for me?

Why do I act weirdly when I am with me?

Why can't I feel the sorroundings, my body and mind?

Why do I bother about others ?