No I'm Not Crying Just Sitting In The Corner Thinking Of Nicky Hemmick Becoming A Literal Fucking Single

so i was rereading aftg this week and since i had read it for the first time lots has changed including the fact my german has become really good (i'm afraid of the word fluent like i can't seriously be that vain yk) and since i've lived in germany for the last three years i was kinda automatically translating all of andrew's group's conversations in my head as i was reading i guess i wanted to experience the plot with how they could've potentially sound and now i'm wondering how many people were doing the same as they read it

'grumpy x sunshine' but it's a shakespearean level of poetic christian bisexual drama queen biker fresh out of a cult who is good at cooking and gardening and a love starved fake blond recovered drug addict with zero self appreciation skills and a penchant for adopting strays who is also a bad driver

Got it from @giovannam1217 at Pinterest

. Honestly, pretty accurate.

I just know Nicky would unironically call borderline everyone Maus in German like if someone gets particularly nasty bruises or sprains from Exy he'd go "oh nein du arme Maus" or he'd look at pics of jerejean when they finally get together and go "aww guckt euch die beiden an, einfach Mäuse, die zwei" (he thinks the same about andrew and neil but wouldn't say it to their face because he values his skin in its unpunctured state thank you very much)

ok i'll try treating tumblr like my personal diary again:

a couple days ago i accidentally spiralled back into an unhealthy obsession with the aftg series which was so random but it's about four years after i've read the og trilogy for the first time and imagine my reaction when i found out there's a sequel about my favourite character like hello??????? i haven't slept properly since monday but now i've read all five existing books and how to survive until the release of the sixth one is beyond my comprehension i fear

anyway i forgot how aftg makes my mental health state ten times better and hundred times worse at the same time wtf is this piece of literature

is every second song ever written really about jean moreau or do I just have a very specific taste in music

Cat& Laila are never gonna be allowed back in that damn apartment after Jeremy and Jean get together & get to intimacy like they’re gonna go at it nonstop 😭

went out to run some errands to stop thinking about jerejean for a bit because the amount of feelings I get from them is sometimes a Lot (capital L). anyway saw this on a wall just now-- thoughts immediately spiralled back to jeremy mission successfully failed

this is so neil josten coded

maybe it's just my katarsis (as in the lithuanian band) brainrot overlapping with my jerejean brainrot (send help) but i can't stop thinking about how the song tavo akys really fits jerejean so well like firstly there is this general desperation and the hunger the song conveys to me personally that just makes me think about how both jean and jeremy have this overwhelming feelings for each other they don't realise are mutual (yet) AND jean thinking about jeremy's eyes (don't even get me started on the whole brown thing) and how jean sees jeremy's smiles often don't reach them but ALSO on the other hand jeremy seeing jean's trauma in his expression so often so the whole part of the song with "your eyes see pain" and so on can be applied to them both from each others perspectives AND THEN at the beginning of the song "the home burns" like hello what a coincidence and this is regarding both their feelings figuratively and the arson situation literally (rip cozy home nr 1) (they'll build a new one together) ALSO there is this general feeling of hopelessness to the song and the boys are so falling for each other but don't allow any hope to get added to the equation (not yet anyway) (though jean at least is on the right path with admitting to himself what he WANTS) (tsc3 has me waiting on my knees) (please let them hope and get what they hoped for please)