May This Year Be Kinder And Gentler To You

been craving some vanilla extract recently

grasping at september skies

with empty fingers

is nothing

on holding october sweaters.

hands entwined

these speed bumps keep screaming.

Why is that?

i think something i want most in the world is for someone to hate me.

Like absolutely despise me completely.

It would validate a lot of my feelings about myself while also maybe showing me how invalid they are.

I mean what i actually want most in the world is to be loved but

heh that’s a lot to ask for (it’s not i just can’t quite convince myself it’s not).

i am atrocious with people

so truly bad at it.

Because I can be the smoothest motherfucker around- IF i don’t really care about the people’s opinions.

As soon as I start to actually like the person and look for approval. That’s when things go to shit. I start worrying about everything.

I’ve been advised that just “going for it” is the best approach. I am going to do that in spite of my incredibly and inexorable chaotically fearful habits.

hhh wish me luck.

i just think about him so much

my 4am minecraft binges are not happy about this post

My kind of therapy

i think me and my fellow ghostly apparitions have some scheming to do

my cat his ears are so pointy but his heart is so full....