Aftersun (2022) Dir. Charlotte Wells

The last girl I kissed sent me this photo she is so sweet I can’t wait until she comes back from the sea I miss her more than I have let on

or people that outgrew you

noo brain don't start missing things you've outgrown please ahah

i just wish my brain was the same as everyone else's i feel like i have to work thrice as hard to be a normal person who does normal things

The soundtrack ripping my soul right out of my body didn’t help either

i think its hard for me to be alone. my english professor told us today that all relationships we are in and lose are failures and you lose and lose and lose until you find a person and you're with them forever. it made me realize that i want to find a girl that fits into my edges and cracks and fills me with soil and cement and stitches me up like im a used dog toy. i want a girl to hold my head in her arms and kiss my forehead as i tell her my nightmare. i want a girl to lay down beside me under the stars on a picnic blanket and tell me about her biggest dream as i fear for frogs. i want her to show me when a butterfly lands on her nose, or call my name to kiss me in the bath. i want a girl who holds me close when she sleeps, and i want to fall asleep listening to her heartbeat until i have it memorized and i'm so convinced it beats in tandem with mine. thats why its hard for me to be alone. i have all these dreams of a mystery girl that i want to give my love to, a love all mine that we can share, i have so much to give and so much to love, and i want to devote it to her. i just want her already

miyazaki hayao is my role model

it bothers me that you often don't really hear about people having a "favorite album" the way they might have a favorite movie or favorite video game

oh and i hurt. i hurt everyday and every i ever said to you feels like a lie and a part of me dies because i feel like a fool for being vulnerable. i wish i never opened myself up and showed you how the blood in my body flowed

do you ever sit there in your bed with your head in your hands and it's like you can just imagine 9 swords behind you

nadia waheed, "after rego," 2022, oil on canvas