Although the thoughts of suicide haven't left, i think about them every day. It's a bit of a turn on to think about and at the same time, I want to experience the pain and death. When I say Death I laugh at the word. Because I feel aroused and I think about my death and other things that come along with it. I know I'm strange I'm sorry but it's true... by the way I still plan to cut and sadly shamelessly masturbate... just to get my mind in the clouds.
It's prolly because you are cooler then me
AH YEAH! KEEP THOSE THINSPO'S COMING IM FEELING IT!
Never thought that I would be this hurt. I think we broke up, I just didn't think that they would do this to me in a most painful way. I really did love them I really do it does hurt. Now I have no friends at all it would still be nice to at least have a stranger comfort me for a second. Tho I will remember them for the good times and happiness. It hurts but I wanted to say thank you. Thank youโค๏ธ
4/8/24
She's gonna harm me I know she's gonna harm me <3
I feel stupid
The com of shame
I hate thinking and regretting my actions of eating or what I ate it's not cool. I break my promises to myself now I have to punish myself and think about it, living in regret and restricting myself, thinking about what I can do better for next time. Time out, throwing up in a corner until I get rid of all the dirt and ugly out of my small empty stomach and everywhere.
Sorry to vent again! I'm sorry
What hurts to is that I planned a family with them but now it's gone. I will need time to heal but I kinda need a guide and some sort of motivation to help me move forward and to have a better relationship with that person. 4/8/24
#help
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