Literally The Only Thing That's Keeping Me Sane On Not Trying To End Myself Is Him. I Try So Hard Just

I'm going back to crying over everything. I hate it. I hate how alive I feel I hate this feeling i wish I could go back and be the pale lifeless emotionless person I was, I loved feeling so numbed and zombie like where I didn't cry for everything or worry about anything, I wish I was so tired and fragile like I was. These infusions and pills... are ruining me. Thanks alot.

Man... I want to vent to some1 but I guess not, I mean I don't have friends at all nor any1 really... I guess I have to take out my shitty diary I guess. Like the usual.

I just wanna say, if anything happens... to me. Thank you. All these thinspo pictures and photos are so motivational and inspiring and so very beautiful. But I'm slowly dying and might go to a hospital for force feed. I don't want to go to the hospital nor i do really want to die, the doctors said for me to open my eyes and change and get my head screwed on because I'm in danger to myself. Haha! Trust me, I know what I'm doing. i don't need you guys to yell at me because I already know what I am doing to myself, but nobody will understand, but myself. I'm not sure what will happen later, tomorrow, somewhere in the future, but I'm not going anywhere (I hope) again. Thank you.

I want to run towards something, Not away (Sorta)

I see you online. Those messages I sent never seen for hours, days. I get that your busy. But being online for hours and don't have a chance to talk to me?

One thing that is unique and what you prolly didn't know about me is i have naturally elf ears ♡

I so bad crave wanting to watch IT 2017 movie so bad!~

Welcome to the losers club!~♡♡♡

You'll float too! 🎈🤡 we all float down here

My heart burns there too❤️‍🔥

Beep beep Richie~

Hiyo silver away! 🚲

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She's gonna harm me I know she's gonna harm me <3