I'm going back to crying over everything. I hate it. I hate how alive I feel I hate this feeling i wish I could go back and be the pale lifeless emotionless person I was, I loved feeling so numbed and zombie like where I didn't cry for everything or worry about anything, I wish I was so tired and fragile like I was. These infusions and pills... are ruining me. Thanks alot.
They
Don't
Love
You
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Open up the door. Can you open up the door ?
Isn't it nice to not b alone
Although the thoughts of suicide haven't left, i think about them every day. It's a bit of a turn on to think about and at the same time, I want to experience the pain and death. When I say Death I laugh at the word. Because I feel aroused and I think about my death and other things that come along with it. I know I'm strange I'm sorry but it's true... by the way I still plan to cut and sadly shamelessly masturbate... just to get my mind in the clouds.
Why am I always the blame for everything? Am I an easy bunching bag? Does your verbal abuse really know how to humiliate me? I guess I know why I always saw myself so low and ugly
Same Kanato same~ How i be like with food, literally me *stab stab* ๐ช๐
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