I So Bad Crave Wanting To Watch IT 2017 Movie So Bad!~

Im Sorry for yapping and venting... but I think it's just me or if there are others who feel this way... I like to abuse myself. Not sure if it's from trauma in the past or something I know it's so unhealthy but I can't help it I like the pain and it's the only thing I know to make myself feel loved... sadly. I'm so alone I want to experience relationships and be in a relationship not sure if it's going to make a difference for me what love truly is I really don't know... I just want a boyfriend hahaha~... he's out there somewhere in just have to wait for my moment for that man. Again I'm so sorry for ranting alot today!

It's prolly because you are cooler then me

Although the thoughts of suicide haven't left, i think about them every day. It's a bit of a turn on to think about and at the same time, I want to experience the pain and death. When I say Death I laugh at the word. Because I feel aroused and I think about my death and other things that come along with it. I know I'm strange I'm sorry but it's true... by the way I still plan to cut and sadly shamelessly masturbate... just to get my mind in the clouds.

I know it's wrong, but it feels so right

I've been feeling weird today, not broken, not happy, just odd, i came home and ran to my room crying really bad. I calmed down and apologized? To myself and others not sure why maybe because of my odd feelings today, i got told i was rude, selfish, messed up, retarded ect and went back to my room and cried again saying I'm sorry to myself over and over then touched myself for comfort but then regret it feeling ashamed then went to sleep. BTW I threw up, i didn't eat much today, but to get off the weight, me, haha! Also did a bit of workout. Good night♡

I'm crying really bad, I need to cut, vomit, masturbate

Vamp 🧛‍♂️🦇

I want to run towards something, Not away (Sorta)

She's gonna harm me I know she's gonna harm me <3

One thing that is unique and what you prolly didn't know about me is i have naturally elf ears ♡