just-a-sadgirlxx

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•★ So I tried to throw up today again but after 20 minutes I only got rid of like 1/5 of that I ate. My family will make sure I eat during weekend but I thought that maybe I could throw up after every meal. Unfortunately it's not so easy... ★•

•★ I weighted myself today and I'm 46kg. I was hoping for less... I'm still fasting so that's good. If I'll be forced to eat then I'll go throw up everything and go for a walk to burn some calories★•

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21 hours and 30 minutes already. I hope I won't have to eat..

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I have these awful thoughts about eating. I'm scared I'll listen to them and eat and then feel guilty about it again.. ★•★•★•★•★•★•★•★•★

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•★ My mom gave me some of her old jelewery. It's silver, but I mostly wear gold. Do you think I should put it on tomorrow?? ★•

•★ I want to listen to someone new. I'm looking for something similar to Mitski/ Alex g/ Lana Del Rey. I need music that will be melancholic in a good way, something that I can get attached to/ relate to. Any suggestions? ★•

•★ I feel like I'm getting fatter instead of skinnier.... ★•

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Todays body check. Idk what do I think. I was forced to eat so now I feel kinda disgusting. Tried to throw up but I couldn't... I just don't know

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Wish I didn't have to break it soon. Maybe he'll forget...

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•★ I'm gonna cry, my boyfriend wants to force me to eat ice cream with him. He said it's a punishment for throwing up earlier. I'm doing so well, I don't want to break my fast ★•

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I live for this album

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•★ B0dy check from today. I'm not really satisfied... ★•

•★ I did 25 hours fast because I was forced to eat something but I spat most and threw up the rest. I've never done it before so I'm kinda proud of myself. Definitely will use it once more ★•

•★ I feel like the worst girlfriend on earth. Why do I always have to do everything wrong? Can't I just be a good girlfriend? Also I feel very disgusting today. I hate myself for eating so much... I don't know what to do. Maybe another fast will make me feel better or sth ★•

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•★ started the fast a few hours ago, maybe I'll post b0dy check tomorrow. Love ya ★•

•★I feel so fat and disgusting today. I ate three meals and it just feels so wrong. I'm starting fast tomorrow ★•

•★ I went shopping with my mom today and it was very stressful for me. She doesn't know about my $h scars and I was trying on short sleeves today. The scars on my arm were shown. I was praying for her not to notice and she fortunately didn't but I was extremely stressed. Thank god everything was fine ★•

That's so real, I always write all my thoughts but never share them

•★ I feel so unreal lately. Like it's not me and my life I'm living. I look at myself in the mirror and I feel like I'm looking at someone else. Or sometimes I can't even tell how I look like because every time I look at myself it's different. I do things and then I'm not sure if it really happened or I just told myself it did. ★•

•★ b0dy check the day after I binged ★•

•★ Decided to post a b0dy check from yesterday bc why not ★•

45 hours of fast and a binge right after coming back home... I feel disgusting

So real

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•★ First 24 hours. I'm going for more ★•

•★ Literally fav apps ★•

•★ First 24 hours. I'm going for more ★•