•★ B0dy Check The Day After I Binged ★•

•★ I went shopping with my mom today and it was very stressful for me. She doesn't know about my $h scars and I was trying on short sleeves today. The scars on my arm were shown. I was praying for her not to notice and she fortunately didn't but I was extremely stressed. Thank god everything was fine ★•

•★ I feel like the worst girlfriend on earth. Why do I always have to do everything wrong? Can't I just be a good girlfriend? Also I feel very disgusting today. I hate myself for eating so much... I don't know what to do. Maybe another fast will make me feel better or sth ★•

My sweet boy is $hing and I took his blades and told him to never do it and thought it's enough but he and his mom said I act like I don't care about him doing it at all when I actually do care. I care a lot. I just don't know what I should do. I should care more. I don't know why I can't show it... I feel like the worst girlfriend ever..

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I live for this album

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45 hours of fast and a binge right after coming back home... I feel disgusting

•★ First 24 hours. I'm going for more ★•

•★ I weighted myself today and I'm 46kg. I was hoping for less... I'm still fasting so that's good. If I'll be forced to eat then I'll go throw up everything and go for a walk to burn some calories★•