I Hate Having Major Sensory Issues

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Where my eimikosara truthers at?

diversity hire is exactly how i felt about sevika joining the council at the end

Riot posting Sevika poster acting like she has a whole character arc in Act3 only for her to appear for 10 seconds with no lines and put her in the council as diversity hire is funny of them I'd give them that

i love listening to emo boy bc it’s lowk such a good song but i can’t help but feel like a local when i do 😭

only good thing about today

#605

It is papyrus day today.

eating good tn

2024 Masterpost

Since the end of the year is coming close, I'm gonna post the fics and drawings that I'm fonder of this year 😊

These are some, but I have more fics on my ao3 account so don't be shy and take a look of them if you want!

Fics

Genshin Impact

YaeSara - Somebody loves you https://archiveofourown.org/works/53757121

YaeSara - Healing a small fox https://archiveofourown.org/works/43029495/chapters/137745652

YaeSara - Knitting you a sweater https://archiveofourown.org/works/43029495/chapters/138808708

YaeSara - A smile that could kill https://archiveofourown.org/works/43029495/chapters/140802904

YaeSara - Mother's Day https://archiveofourown.org/works/43029495/chapters/141839302

YaeSara - Within my feathers, our love blossoms https://archiveofourown.org/works/56935330

YaeSara - Wishes https://archiveofourown.org/works/57355804

EiMikoSara - New Year through the years https://archiveofourown.org/works/52718011

AyaSara - In a silent way https://archiveofourown.org/works/55675276

Love Live

YohaRiko - Cherry blossom shampoo https://archiveofourown.org/works/31416614/chapters/140681083

YohaRiko - My very fluffy “wolffriend” https://archiveofourown.org/works/31416614/chapters/142087855

YohaRiko + NozoEli - A little adventure https://archiveofourown.org/works/31416614/chapters/143199742

YohaRiko - Don’t be afraid to be who you really are https://archiveofourown.org/works/56767183

YohaRiko - Wings of acceptance https://archiveofourown.org/works/57328711

YohaRiko - The darkest desires of a stormy heart https://archiveofourown.org/works/31416614/chapters/146386243

LanShio - I came for you https://archiveofourown.org/works/29460513/chapters/136675975

Revue Starlight

KuroMaya - You make my heart go Kuro Kuro goo https://archiveofourown.org/works/34456870/chapters/136279042

KuroMaya - You’re worth all the money in the world https://archiveofourown.org/works/34456870/chapters/138113104

KuroMaya - Breaking into your apartment and into your heart too https://archiveofourown.org/works/34456870/chapters/147147358

Boku no hero

MomoJirou - The best gift https://archiveofourown.org/works/57827683

Drawings

pixiv

#GenshinImpact EiMikoSara cakes - mitaharukaiのイラスト - pixiv

Based on HSR cakes

fuck randy marsh

I think we should all collectively drop kick Randy Marsh, with our combined efforts, I strongly believe we can catapult him into the sun, where he can never hurt his family ever again. <3

shipping two characters only because they’re my favorite characters? who does that thats so weird.. so weird.. so odd.. i need to see more because it’s so weird.. i need to read fanfic because its so weird.. i need to study the ship bc its SO WEIRD.

I don't think I've drawn fan art inspired by a fic before

But I read "Fall on me like Night" by @planetamarte on AO3, and I got the urge to draw Knuckles and Shadow sleeping next to the master emerald

(Aka my ADHD clung to that fic. Read it twice in one sitting. And proceed to ✨plot my demise✨)

motivating me to learn my family’s native tongue

Hindi is not difficult. reading in Hindi is not difficult. writing in Hindi is not difficult. counting in Hindi is not difficult. Hindi numbers are not difficult (१२३४५६७८९०). alphabets क्ष,ष,फ are not difficult. you just consume, are surrounded by and have been taught english and the latin alphabets way more than your native language and script use some sense

(this goes for any language not just hindi btw)

im not going to make a junji ito reference im not going to make a junji ito reference im not going to make a junji ito reference im not going to make a junji ito reference im not going to make a junji ito reference

Alice angel with some swirls!

@theinkymystery

lil gender (ig?) dysphoria vent ^__^

worst part about being unlabeled (mainly because labels are uncomfortable to you) for me is that my feelings towards gender identity are fluid—so much so that i used to be genderfluid and pronounfluid but all the labels were confusing.

I felt like I was constantly boxing my identity instead of living it to the fullest. (if that makes sense?)

The thing is—when you say you’re “unlabeled” (in which i sometimes feel dysphoric for labeling the term and other times not)

people usually opt for all gender neutral terminology, and I have nothing against gender neutral terms, like I said my feelings are fluid which in itself is so annoying.

because like?? one moment i’m like “this is it, I’m actually just [label] i’ve finally figured myself out” and then my feelings change.

i genuinely have NO CLUE why i’m like this, and it’s frustrating, i do stay with genderfluid crowds when i’m having these issues but even then I don’t want to label myself—especially when my feelings change and it makes me feel dysphoric.

but back to what i was saying, i have nothing against gender neutral terms, and also like i said I sometimes prefer them. but sometimes when it’s ONLY and STRICTLY gender neutral terms i feel dysphoric because sometimes i don’t feel gender neutral.

but i feel uncomfortable hounding anyone about my gender identity (and it’s shifts (and because i mainly have a white cishet christian conservative community and i’d rather not be publicly outed and shamed)) so i just sit through the dysphoria.

i just hate not knowing, i hate it fluctuating and i hate not having a solid feeling about my gender. i look at other lgbtq people in the community who seem like they have it all figured out—hell i look at other genderfluid people who also look like they have it all figured out too—but i don’t.

there’s not much i can do, and i know people will say (as they always have) that it’s a phase—which is like

1) life is all a bunch of phases

2) what do i do when my phases constantly change and have been changing most of my life?

i don’t expect to be accommodated 24/7 about this—trust me it’d be nice but i understand there are people in need who’s priorities are higher in which i want them to be accommodated first before anyone else.

i just dream of the day i have a small close knit group of other people who not only relate but are able to help validate me through my identity.

this might also be a relevant time to wonder if i may have autism or adhd. not saying that i have either

(although i’ve been getting close to self diagnosed and i’ve been wanting a screening for awhile)

or that having either is in any way inherent connected to my feelings in general—but i have a hunch,, suspicion,, dare i say hope? to maybe explain it all to me?

sorry if i don’t make sense this is just me rambling :>