CHILL SEASPN FOR SPLATOON IS OUT AND IM RAGING I CANY WAIT TO GET HOME IN 2 MINS CAUSE OMG I CANT WAITTTT‼️‼️‼️💗💗🎉🎉🎉💪💪ITS

i feel overwhelmed. tell me if i should do this.

i’ve thought alot about masking my neurodivergency. i’m often called the r word because of it so i’m just gonna mask my symptoms and try to appear normal so that people accept me.

but then, the person who supports me is always with me due to my illness so what can i do 😹 everyone’s gonna know and see it anyway.

i don’t care if i have a meltdown. i just wanna appear normal 😹

also hiding my gay identity since everyone knows now due to that ONE person.

it is officially lesbian national day where it’s visibility of lesbians of every gender identity and some sexualities (NOT BI OR PAN ILL EXPLAIN IN A SECOND!!!) gets to celebrate!! transmasc lesbians, cisgender lesbians, nonbinary lesbians, lesbians who are aroace, lesbians who are asexual, lesbians who are aromantic, lesbians who are poly and want women for the rest of their life, audhd lesbians, autistic lesbians, dyslexic lesbians, lesbians with mental health/illness, lesbians who are transgender, he/him lesbians, he/they lesbians, she/her lesbians, lesbians who are demigirl, she/they lesbians, lesbians who use neopronouns, lesbians who are xenogenders, neurodivergent lesbians,lesbians who are bigender, and so MANY MORE. Happy lesbian day and please enjoy it well with your partners/girlfriends !!!

- from a fellow lesbian

oh yes

how is the switch 7 years old

anyways,, hi guys i took a dna test last month. its been 2-3 weeks right?? i got results.

interestingly i woke up, and thought “lemme check one last time” and all I saw was waiting in transit.

and then randomly, my momma got an email and says it sent us a notification that it REACHED the lab, analysed & said the results MAY verify but the results will come through. their currently analysing my sample right now oh my god

they are so fucking scam on this shit. it said it will take 6 weeks and guess what? it will ACTUALLY be ready on April 28th TO may 12th. thats like more than 6 fucking weeks BUT either way not complaining 😭😭 im so excited

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

throwback to when i used to date alot of men and called a slut but at that same time, i fell in love w girls for the first time and ppl started calling me rude names lmfao

remembering when i had my first date and i dumped him cause he wasn’t interested and my female friend came and i fell for her too

then my “boyfriend” liked my female friend and i felt annoyed cause i fell in love w her but didn’t realise my queer “signs” from that memory. i really wanted to be w her and to date her but i felt fucking nervous.

remembering when i had a second date and i absolutely hated when men had a crush on me especially when he had a gf and went “oh youre (mean comment)”

i would force myself to have a crush on men and even if they LIKED me, i NEVER felt the same cause trauma experiences and reasons (mostly into girls that time)

the way i fell in love w (a) girl(s) bf and then i felt disgusting afterwards because i didn’t like men that much.. then I ended up catching STRONG feelings for her TOO BUT MORE than that BOY.

then caught feelings for all my female friends. ALL of them.

then my family wanna have audacity to say i’m lying and that i owe them alot of things w being gay and queer and coming out and that if i didn’t come out, they’d force me out there themselves.

my god my comphet was showingg. i’m suprised how i am gay my whole childhood but never realised. i’m so disgusting oh my my myyy😹 /neg

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cw rant. cw parents, bullying & ableism (?)

since my birthday is a few days away now, i told my mom that i wanted an animal crossing birthday party and a cake and even if she didn’t order the cake, I’ll just have the cake toppers and stick it on my cake. either way is okay.

she goes ahead and asks me why i didn’t tell her sooner but what she doesn’t understand is that, we were ordering a limo to come to my house and go fun places and have the BEST time EVER, so that when I grow older in the future, I can remember all that and to live the best life. on top of that, we were buying a cake, party stuff, balloons, crowns, etc and stuff were OUT of stock and that I didn’t wanna ask and they didn’t see. I DID see a cake that had Tom nook a day ago but when I confirmed the order, it went out of stock FAST. that’s what I said and the MAIN reason why I couldn’t say.

she has the audacity to bring up my neurodivergency and goes “no wonder you’re not normal!” towards me knowing that i struggle with things. and then she goes “can’t you see thats for babies? you’re so old for that anyway..” and I told her, “but it’s my fixation game? getting a cake will just make it better because I’ll be really happy.” and she says, “you’re a fucking grown bitch. you’re not a kid anymore, youre a teen thats working, stop being childish. youre too fucking young for that. pick something else!!!” and then storming out the room.

i just feel really bad because when i was younger, when I played mario kart for the switch, isabelle was the first character that made me addicted to playing as her in the mario kart game and then, when I discovered SSB (smash bros for the 3ds and switch), I became obsessed with both male and female villager. so since they introduced me to animal crossing, that’s when I thought of getting a cake of them so that I can remind myself that nothing can stop me from loving the characters and the game.

SHE LITERALLY BROUGHT ME THE GAME. she KNOWS that I cannot HELP watching it ALL the time. she knows that i like Tom nook and wants his birthday balloon to carry to my work place with party bags but loads of people hate me for being different and neurodivergent. nobody really likes me. expect 2 people. so therefore I can’t do shit about it. I didn’t wanna be seen as the “weird autistic person who likes childish stuff”. but she makes me feel like that.

now I have to do my birthday without it for the last time, and then get it for my next birthday that’ll be next year in 12-13 months since it’s in February.

I just feel so bad and mad at myself for asking cause she brought up how autistic i am. and because she always gets angry for stuff I cannot control nor the amount of stuff I get told. nor my health issues and totally shutting down and lashing out on everyone when mad.

she gaslights me alot also. and is severely negative to me. so now I have to do my birthday without it and have a normal birthday in order to avoid being “weird” or seen as “not normal” and “stupid” and “socially acceptable.”

And she told me to stop watching those characters because they don’t “matter”. like alright i get that im retarded and a weirdo. no need to make me feel dread about it.

i got outed by my “friends” to others that im gay now ppl are being weird about it and they’re “disappointed”

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the v app just shut down today #kpop

dear potato seventeen jeonghan left for military please show me a rainbow to make sure he's okay for me and I want to see it please I hope it comes out today so I can see it

I didn't ignore it, and I got a 5% raise on my salary! And everyone in town said I was married. Don't ignore the golden potato.