Something Happened And Im Really Sad And Also Happy.

i am literally. this close. THIS. close. to. fucking. cry. and shout.

my family has a serious obsession w me being gay and keeps forcing me to come out and out the closet. no matter how hard I say no, I REPEATEDLY hear “oh you came out? cant hide now can you?” like no bitch i was basically out years ago at a young age w all those subtle signs of queerness but brushed it off and went w being straight until my queerness became visible to me. i just wasnt so sure and i didnt know this community existed until i was like really old. back then you never knew I was GAY LMFAO.

and they keep saying “you owe me an explanation as to why you’re gay”, “if youre gay why watch kpop boy groups?” (she keeps calling them chinese and i wanna fucking smash a wall omfg), “you owe us a coming out story”, “youre not gay stop lying” etc then I said I don’t owe them shit and they REALLY said “oh but we’re your family? we should know” like.. there’s worser they said but dear god. that house is so lgbtq+ phobic, im suprised. the homophobia, lesbophobia, biphobia, transphobia, etc was REAL and showing in that HOUSE and the whole convo was just utterly disgusting.

i had my own PERSONAL experiences, lemme keep it confidential between me, myself and I.

then she says “oh but do you like 🐱 (down there) or a 🍌 (a guys below)” ? like dont fucking sexualise me??

they kept outing me multiple times,, and keep bringing up that i am a GAY PERSON.

LEAVE ME ALONE?? then my sis had the audacity to say im making up “excuses” like you’re straight? stfu you are not GAY. don’t speak for me. ever heard of unattainable men? oh ofc not cause youre so ignorant lmfao

I hate it here so much...

y’all mfs need to understand, not every person who likes women is a fucking lesbian. People can be bi and have a gf / attraction to girls. and just like how having attraction to men doesn’t mean you’re “being gay” or “straight”. you can be bi, pan, omni, etc even ace and like men. NOT EVERYONE WHO HAS SAME SEX ATTRACTION IS GAY AND/OR LESBIAN. bi, etc people EXIST.

I feel so annoyed and upset, and they SAW my vents in my phone about everything that happened to me. like don’t go through my fucking phone w/o permission??? and then my friend blocked me cause she got jealous AFTER ALL OF THAT.

and this is ALL on christmas. YESTERDAY.

ffs this christmas is fucked up bruh.

I’m never coming out.

and then the way I said people can change lgbtq labels of their sexuality, nothing bad and then my family goes “but you aren’t cake? how the fuck can you change labels lmfao stop lying”

Well done, thanks for forcing a fucking person to come out and out me numerous times.

the only way I’ll come out in when I leave this fucking dungeon. now I can’t even like women anymore now cause i feel so disgusting....

i really need help to feel comfortable in being queer. im really going through a hard time and I need some support please.

💗 Lesbian stimboard 💗

This took a lot longer than I thought 🧍🏽‍♀️

My requests are open so feel free to ask for one. I'll make stimboards and moodboards just clarify which one you want!!

Today’s the best day like the best !!

i met the girl i had a little crush on, i was walking and i saw her in the place for food while walking by but my mind went, “stop! that’s your crush. go say hi and don’t be scared” so i thought, “hmmm I’m gonna go say hi to her”, i sat down and went, “hi!” and she went “hi !! ” while waving at me and i went, “how are you” and she said she felt nice and asked me the same and i said, while brushing things off (i think she noticed i was frightened to say hi), “I’m good, i was just scared of saying hi.. haha” and she went, “hmm????” with this suprised face and i repeated and BRO LET ME TELL YOU

I panicked when she leaned across the table to say “hey,” WHILE TOUCHING MY HANDS WHILE SMILING and went, “you shouldn't be scared okay baby? Im going to be here for you so dont be frightened” AND SMILED AGAIN AND BRO MY HEART SANK SO HARD

So I went, "I tried to say hi but you walked off but I don't think you noticed cause you were probably going somewhere" and my heart went "💖" so quick.

So I said, "I was new so I didn't understand much but I really wanna be friends" and she's like "okay then sweetheart, my name is [name] and you?" And she's like "mmhh neat" when I answered

NO CAUSE SHE LITERALLY HUGGED ME AND DRAGGED MY HAND ALONG WITH HERS

the panick in my mind and face was so visible, it wasn't a joke

I was so nervous like I was panicking, my eyes widened so hard

so she's like, "mmhm so where you wanna go?" while asking me she touched me,

my fucking heart jumped out of my chest like I was so weak for this girl

SHES SO FUCKING CUTE I CANT ANYMORE

GOODNESS i JUST WANNA AAAAHHHH

No cause I almost kissed her because we got close but she scramed away

I am telling you

If I never got away or she didn't, I would've kissed her.

THERE AND THEN.

omfg SHES SO CUTE ????

Can't remember since it happened hours ago but I finally GOT TO MEET HER

we're friends.

I could not take her to the bathroom because it was raining and I had places to go and I was rushed so I had to leave her behind

I feel bad :((

lately i’ve been listening to lesbian | sapphic music and I certainly feel like it suits me and my sexuality. i’ve been identifying as lesbian for a while and i’ve discovered a girl called hayley kiyoko and she’s a queer icon according to society and fans and girl in red, fletcher, etc queer artists and lil nas x, and i became obsessed w her and her music and im sure i AM a lesbian bc like i listen to gay songs like girls in bikinis, girls girls girls, i wish you liked girls, i wanna be your girlfriend, and im just so happy that i found my people <3 💓

I have a question. Do sapphics have attraction to only women? Or men as well?

Cause I've seen some sapphics who are sapphic (who love women) but also men too (even when not bisexual)

I’m just checking to make sure so lmk(lemme know)

Or does sapphic mean wlw but you can pick who you wanna love (like men and all) ?

HAPPY HALLOWEEN YALL ♥️♥️♥️

Came to a sign that I could be asexual.

Now...

absolutely satisfied

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

happy pride month guys 🌈

please enjoy your pride month. massive shout out to:

gays have a good one

lesbians have a good one

pansexuals have a good one

bisexuals have a good one

non binary people have a good one

transgender people have a good one

genderfluid have a good one

asexuals have a good one

aromantic have a good one

aroace have an amazing one

ppl who use neos or normal pronouns, have a splendid one

ppl who are androgynous, have a good one

ppl who are questioning, have a good one

unlabeled ones, so valid

and so many more (demigirls, demiboy, neutrios, etc)

i love everyone of you, please have a good pride month ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

have some rainbow cake or go to a pride parade 🌈 🌈